Healing
34. Class Up

Bian came home from my house at 9pm, after hearing Papa and Mama's decision to tell him to wait for about 2 more months for the two of us to get married.

" What happened to Ra?, how can you and Bian suddenly ask your wedding date to be accelerated?, you are no longer pregnant right Ra?".

Mama came into my room while I was lying on the bed staring at the ceiling, my question was relaxed, but it just made me disappointed, did mama still not believe me, mama did not believe me, if I don't repeat the same mistake.

I know you're worried, but the question is very demeaning to me, just like the Yoga question at Bian's house, or is it possible that everyone thinks the same of me?, maybe they all rate me very low, even my own mama has the same thoughts.

As low as people judge me, even though I have tried to be a good woman all this time, but because of my bad past, all turned out to still have the same.

" If I'm pregnant, will you agree if we want to get married tomorrow?", I asked back.

Mama looked at me fixedly, "You're the real one by the way, so you're pregnant?", mama repeated her sentence.

" Ma, is the Kingdom that low in the eyes of mama?, Raya thought mama believed in the same Kingdom, just now when there was still Bian here I've told you, I'm not pregnant. Why do you still keep repeating asking me if I am pregnant?, if my mother as my biological mother just rate me very low, let alone others ma".

I immediately tilted my body back to Mama who was still standing beside my bed.

" It's not meant by mama so Ra, mama just want to know the truth, why you ask for a wedding date in advance, because getting married is not an arbitrary thing, must be thought out carefully".

I remained silent noiseless, after all who thought marriage was a game?, Bian and I had also thought carefully, the two of us who were going to have this marriage, and both of us who were going to have this marriage, we are both adults, and we are ready to get married, what else to wait for.

Somehow in the mind of my parents, I used to make a desperate search for a candidate and married, now have found the right man even in the delay.

" You're mad at Mama Ra, I'm sorry that you hurt your heart".

I changed my position to sit. " Mom, you know I can't repeat the same mistake, so you don't have to ask me many times if I'm pregnant, of course I'm not pregnant. Bian is a polite man and has great respect for me Ma".

" It is precisely what I am worried about, Bian was a friend of Yoga Ma, even they were friends during High School and while in college, at the house of Bian Raya met Yoga. Yoga said that Raya was only hers, until anytime, and she did not want me to be with other men, even though she herself would have a wedding in a month. Did you know that Raya was so scared, Yoga would mess things up".

" Although Bian already knew the story of my past, but Bian did not know who the man who had ruined my life in the past, I did not want Bian to know who that man was. But it is precisely now that Yoga appears and even he is friendly with Bian".

My mother listened to my story with a surprised face. " I'm sorry, dear mama, you just found out that's been bothering you all this time".

" Why can, Yoga is friends with Bian, even they are friends, what the world is so narrow, until you have to meet people in the past ".

" Then you now rest, let me tell your father, you don't worry, Yoga won't dare to mess with our family anymore"

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The next day Bian picked me up as usual, and we went to the restaurant together, this afternoon we had a special guest... Yoga and his future wife came to lunch at the restaurant.

It turns out that Bian and his four friends gathered that afternoon, they discussed the climbing plan that they will do next Saturday.

At first they had lunch together, after which they discussed the climbing plan they would do.

Utari and I separated from the four friends, I prefer to accompany Utari and listen to her tell stories a lot. Utari is a jolly and talkative type girl, she invites me to go hiking to be able to accompany her on the mountain. Because Utari will only get permission from her parents to take the climb if there are female friends who participate as well.

We also exchanged phone numbers. Utari very much wished I could come along, because this is the first time she will go along with Yoga, from her every speech and facial expression, it is very clear if Utari really loves Yoga.

Foolish Yoga, he should not have to enter my life again, already lucky to get a beautiful wife, good and a doctor. Why is it still ruining my already hard life.

" Here join us-we" exclaimed Bian waving his hand towards me and Utari.

We had lunch together, but when the four men were about to smoke, Utari asked me to separate, because she did not like the smell of cigarette smoke.

" Ra, later let me ask permission from your mom and dad so you can follow us up the mountain".

" The plan is we want to go up to Mount Rinjani, there the scenery is very cool, you will definitely love when you see the sunrise at the top of the mountain".

I just nodded at Bian's words, of course I was happy to go with Bian, although there was something a little bumpy about having to be together with Yoga as well.

I don't know when this discomfort will continue in my heart. Instead I hope mom and dad don't approve when Bian asks permission to take me up the mountain on Saturday. Maybe I should talk to my mom and dad first before Bian delivers that.

The four handsome, successful, and well-respected young men from the background of the old man were gathered into one in this restaurant. Perhaps anyone who saw the laughter and jokes that the four young men were doing, would be envious of them.

Born in a wealthy family, living with the best facilities and having a handsome face, there seemed to be not the slightest lack in them. That is the judgment of the layman, because in fact, there are many secrets that they hide from each other. The secret behind the extravagant lives they do every day.

I am sure that not only Yoga has secrets in its life, but every one of them is the same, keeping secrets in their lives. I don't know what it is.

The fellow employees at the restaurant stared at me who had been relaxing and joking with the handsome young men and the beautiful young doctor who looked familiar to me. When the chat was over and they went home, I rejoined the others continuing the work.

" It's good that you're Ra, in the boss's cab, and don't mess around, once you love the Ijo lamp, it's a handsome boss mas coming to the house ngajak his parents immediately bedeviled you. Now you hang out with rich people. Going up your class Ra, finished in the same marriage mas boss".

Mba Lina who became one of the janitors approached me and invited me to talk, because the restaurant had begun to empty visitors.

Today Rita is off, so my partner today is Hani and Romi, because the restaurant is getting quiet we are used to sitting around chatting. Of course, while waiting, there may be visitors who come.

" Mba Lina that can not say that, everyone already knows Mas Bos was already having a crush on Mba Raya since she was Junior High. Not rich in soap opera or the story of Cinderella who saw directly fall in love at first sight so...Mba Lina.., love is already from small, like a tree is old, the roots have spread everywhere, so the tree is sturdy and not easily collapsed". Romi answered first.

During this time all restaurant employees know our story in general, who were friends at Junior High and separated because Bian moved house in another city.

" Mba Lina, just a glance, actually I am very likely to gather with Bian's friends, who I am, just a restaurant waiter graduated from Junior High School, but inevitably, he said, I do have to hang out with them, let me know what Bian and his friends are talking about and talking about".

" As a good wife, I also have to find out ready my future husband's playmates, what they discuss and what they often do, so don't be surprised when they get married"

Mba Lina looks mangosteen. " Bene also the talk of you, however we must know more with our prospective life friends, do not just accept, uh...tau tau out of marriage shocked because it turns out that there is a lot we do not know about our partner".

" I'm sorry, Ra. I was just thinking from my point of view. Though kamun her that I think again seneng really can windfall, still have to fight also offset the life of your prospective husband who is like a word coming from a different world".

" Who comes from a different world?" Bian's voice suddenly stopped our conversation.

" It was last night's movie that we watched Mas Boss" replied Mba Lina.

Hani and Romi immediately stood wiping the table, and Mba Lina directly to the back of her whatever she did. Everyone dispersed, leaving me who was still sitting with Bian.