Healing
141. Attitude Yoga

Fortunately Utari was still in the room, so Yoga did not know if my arrival to this cafe was actually to meet with Utari. I hope Yoga will never know the real reason. But it turns out that everything is not as expected.

Because it turns out that Yoga had met with Utari in the cafe, when I had entered the car, Utari came out of the room, and accidentally passed by Yoga. Yoga does not greet her, like meeting strangers who do not know each other.

But Utari greeted him, and said if he had finished lunch with me and Syifa. The yoga I didn't tell you before felt very disappointed in me for not being honest with her.

After work Yoga went straight to see me who was playing with Syifa and Shaka in the living room, Yoga pulled my hand and took me to our room without saying a word, also without looking at the situation and conditions around. Though at that time I was with Syifa, until Syifa I entrusted Shaka first because I could see anger in the eyes of Yoga.

Shaka also stared irritatedly at me, as if to make a mistake if I had done something wrong, because Yoga had been so rude to me. Yoga has never been rude to me. Yoga took care of me and never hurt me.

But this time it was different, the face that looked full of fury, and the grip of her extremely strong hand on my arm, made me fear for her anger this time around.

" Is it so hard to grant my request to be out of touch with our past?, both Utari and Bian, both of them have been too close to us in the past. I know how you rejected me because you were in contact with Bian".

" Can't you do the same now?, to refuse to meet them?. We're not dating anymore, Ra. We're married, we have two children. But you can't keep my feelings. Is it because you know that I love you so much that you just act the way you did?".

" Meet Bian, meet Utari without my knowledge. So what do you think of me as?, if Utari had not told me that you had met and had lunch together, would you have had the pleasure to tell me about it?, or will you keep it a secret from me forever?".

Yoga was really angry, I didn't think he would get this angry at me. I was confused as to what to say, because it was clear I was guilty. Self-defense is also not allowed.

" I'm sorry.I'm sorry Ga, I didn't mean to make you this angry, I didn't know that you would be hurt if I met them. I didn't talk to Bian, he just gave Syifa ice cream, and with Utari, I just listened to the curses. I really didn't mean anything else".

" I didn't dare tell you that if I met Utari or Bian, I was afraid that you would get angry again, because you didn't like it if I had any more contact with them", I tried to explain, I said, even with any explanation, I realized that I was wrong.

Just this morning Yoga was warm to me again, now it is back stiff and cold. I am very sorry to meet both Utari and Bian. I should've cut ties with them forever. Whether they have children or not, I no longer want to interfere and do not want to get into their household problems.

" I won't be seeing the two of them again, if I have to, I'll block their numbers. Please.sorry me. Don't be angry for too long, just this morning you want to kill me again. But the sore was angry again. I regret meeting them" I said.

" You solemnly promise not to see them again?, if until you break the promise you have to accept the consequences", exclaimed Yoga while letting go of his tie and shirt violently. It was as if he was very sultry at the moment.

Hearing the word 'consequence' from Yoga's mouth, made me worry, what would he do if I broke my promise?. But clearly, as much as possible I will try to keep my promise. I will no longer see Bian or Utari.

The next day I completely blocked both of their phone numbers. It's not that I'm so afraid of the wrath of Yoga, but that I'm just trying to be a good wife, obediently speaking to my husband.

Maybe it's true, I shouldn't have interfered in other people's domestic problems. Especially the household of our former fiancee. My life is calm, my life is happy, I should not be looking for new problems.

In the evening Yoga was normal with me, we had dinner with Shaka and Syifa. I'm so grateful for this. I hope I don't make him angry anymore.

" well... Syifa was already big enough to sleep in her own room, shouldn't Syifa be taught to sleep in a separate room from her father and mother?".

" Shaka just doesn't want Syifa to see things that she shouldn't be able to see if she continues to sleep with her father and mother" Shaka said.

I know what Shaka means, he does not want Syifa to see the quarrel between me and Yoga, Syifa has started to grow and understand the situation and what we are talking about.

I saw Syifa nod but also shake her head. This kid is really funny.

" Syifa belani, but accompany Syifa first until Syifa bobo, mother balu can stay in Syifa sendili ", Syifa said with her song.

Maybe it's time for Syifa to sleep apart from me and Yoga. It has been almost a year indeed Syifa no longer wet the bed, because every time I want to sleep, I must first pee to the bathroom. Until now it's been Syifa's routine every night.

Actually I have not had the heart to let Syifa sleep in her own room, even though the room was prepared about 2 months ago, but to this day Syifa still sleeps with me and Yoga. I can't let her sleep alone in her room.

It's just that what Shaka said is true. Syifa already understood many things, and she should not know and watch if at any time I and Yoga are fighting.

" The father does not require Syifa to sleep alone in his room, if indeed Syifa has not been brave, yes wait until Syifa is big, father and mother also like to sleep with Syifa" said Yoga.

" Well beautiful mother's daughter, later we try to sleep in Syifa's room, if Syifa is bobo, then mother will move to mother's room. The room was next door, so if Syifa suddenly woke up at night and was afraid, Syifa could call Mom, Syifa understood?".

Syifa nodded in understanding. Although she was only 3 years and 4 months old, Syifa was indeed classified as an intelligent child, possibly declining from her intelligent father, fortunately, I did not come down to me who was not smart and did not have any skills except cooking.

My days started to run normally without any problems since I changed my phone number. Actually it was Shaka who advised me to change my phone number. However, as an adult firstborn, he certainly wants his parents to live in harmony and happiness without any problems. That's why Shaka gave me the new number he bought back from school.

Only me and my family know my phone number. I don't have many friends, which is why no one knows, or asks why I changed numbers.

Now Shaka already has his own class group, and there is no student guardian group like when Shaka was still Junior High. That's why I don't need to confirm my new number to anyone else.

" Dad... mother... tomorrow Saturday Sunday, Shaka wants permission, join school activities, there is a nature lover's event so, only stay two days and two nights, can ya?".

Shaka who just came home cycling with his friends immediately met me and Yoga who was resting on the side terrace, after jogging around the complex.

Syifa was still sleeping, because every Sunday was not like a normal day, I would deliberately wake her up more during the day. Last night he also slept quite late because of his feet pegel, tired running all day with Mogi, his new cat.

Mogi is a female Persian cat. Mogi deliberately kept us, because Syifa asked for it, he said to a bedmate. Syifa liked it very much, because Mogi is docile, likes to spoilt Syifa, its soft fur and clean white, making Mogi look exactly like a cat doll, only Mogi is a living creature.

" Where is the event?, at school or outside of school?", asked Yoga while kneading her calves.

" The event was camping at the campground Well, but there was a Teacher who accompanied him, father and mother do not have to worry", shaka said trying to provide information was to convince us that we both gave him permission.

I myself do not mind Shaka to do activities in nature, but in contrast to Yoga, he seems unhappy with it.

" May be Dad..Ms...?", again Shaka asked for clarity.

" Dad doesn't like you to participate in such activities, later you are exhausted, continue to be lazy to learn, if your grades decline how to try?".

Yoga like not Yoga that I know, he himself at school used to also participate in such camping activities, why is it now that he forbids his son to like the same field with him?. Freaky....