Healing
46. Stories of the Past

Tonight we rested at the inn, quite late we entered the room, because Bian and the others kept me in front of the room. Bian continued to tell stories with his four friends when they were in college.

I'm the only one who doesn't tell stories and is a loyal listener. Because Utari of course knows all the names mentioned in their chat. I'm the only one who really doesn't know and just goes along, if they laugh, I laugh like them.

Until late at night, Utari asked about my Junior High, I did not say much. Precisely Bian who told about our days Junior High, I who several times participated in performing with piano games. And Bian who said started to have a crush on me from then on. She said I looked so pretty in an Junior High uniform, with a white skirt and two-pointed hair with white ribbons.

Bian said I was like an angel descending from the sky. It is so bright and looks the most beautiful. While performing on stage playing my fingers on piano keys while singing.

" So you're good at playing the piano?, waah... Then, how about I ask you to please Raya, to donate songs at my wedding, how about Steve, do you agree?", tanya Utari was so excited.

" Of course, I'd be very happy if anyone would play the piano at our wedding. Especially if you sing at the same time, it will be better" said Yoga.

What a sickening answer. That's really Yoga, double-faced man and double personality. How he talked to me last night like that, and how he's talking to others like this right now. I obviously hate him more now.

" I'm sorry, I stopped playing the piano, maybe I forgot how to play it too, last I played the piano in 8th grade Junior High, during graduation and farewell with 9th grade students. That means it was about 14 years ago, it seems like I can't grant your request Utari".

" I'm worried, it will mess up your wedding, because my appearance is falling apart", I refused, apologizing.

It was certain that their wedding would be a mess if I were to attend and show up at the event. Especially if I am part of the show. Bu Herni and Pak Priyo could be shocked to see me suddenly appear at his son's wedding.

" It's still a long time Ra. You can train again for a month" Utari said.

" But during that month I will also be very busy, because Bian and I will also have our wedding, just like you. Sorry yes.", I still refused.

" Oh yes, we got married in the same month. Hopefully the date is not the same, so you can come to my wedding, as well as me and Steve who can attend your wedding" Utari said.

But my expectations were different from her expectations, I just wanted our wedding date to be the same, so I didn't have to come to your wedding, and you didn't have to come to my wedding. In order for the event to run smoothly, both my wedding, and your wedding. That's what I was hoping for.

" Oh yeah Ra.... Hopefully, when you're pregnant, I'm also pregnant, let's get pregnant together, and when we get out later our child sepisan deh...".

" There are also friends sharing, while pregnant, during childbirth, continue while caring for children. It would be very fun because we are both newly married, and just want to have children, our experience is still zero" Utari said so innocently. I just smiled while nodding.

Yoga glanced at me, as did Bian, because they both knew that if I were pregnant and had children later, it would not be my first experience. I felt it a dozen years ago. But neither Bian nor Yoga, both are silent and no one is talking.

" Well, this is the prospective mothers have not been legitimate, have discussed the problem of children. Like it was really ready to be impregnated ", Haidar immediately chuckled at his own words.

" Ye.. indeed that is the purpose of marriage, so that you can have children, do not need to waste your mind" Utari said with sewot.

" Mending we continue to chat in the room only yuk Ra... here there is a handyman, not cool, mending chat in the room while throwing, feet still on seals like this", invite Utari.

I nodded in agreement. " I went to the first room, Bi.", I told Bian. Bian took off his hand. Yes, since then Bian continues to hold my hand while telling stories and joking with others. Actually the goal is for us to both feel warmer, in this very cold night air.

In the room of course again I was just a loyal listener, all the stories of Utari. Because so many stories in his life from being in school, when he was in High School, and began to know the four young men who were with us earlier, until when he went to college and became a dentist.

It was very different from my monotonous life story and was just filled with sad and embarrassing stories. It's not that I don't want to tell stories about my past, but there are no happy stories I've experienced since I finished school.

It's all just a heartbreaking story, full of struggles and tears. Like myself is likened to a glass glass, maybe my current form has been smashed into very small fragments. Because my life is like being slammed, then slammed again, and slammed again repeatedly. Until it was destroyed as destroyed. That's his parable.

" If you are Ra. since then you only hear me stories, now replace your dong that story about your life experience. I'm also curious to hear your story, it must be exciting. Girl as beautiful as you, must be a lot of guys who have a crush?", teased Utari while shaking my hand.

" The hell time is Ra... most of all, your life story is exciting, but you're worried that I tell Bian right?, just relax, I won't tell anyone" Utari said, still trying to persuade me to tell a story.

" Bian says you are the most beautiful and shining when Junior High, means must have been a guy who deletin you a lot right Ra?, what is Bian your first girlfriend?", Utari kept trying to get me to tell her. I smiled in response to his efforts. Well I'll tell you a little bit about my past, just a little bit. So that Utari was not curious and kept asking.

" Not my first girlfriend Bian. It is precisely the guy from another school that I used to accept his love".

I saw Utari's eyes sparkling because I finally wanted to tell her about my life story.

" Are you?, so your first boyfriend is the son of another Junior High School, how do you know him?, and now where is your ex-boyfriend?, why did you break up?".

Utari asked so many questions at once, I was confused to answer which one used to be.

" Now he seemed to be happy with his life, we broke up because we could no longer continue our relationship, our world was very different, he said, and most importantly we both did not get the blessing of both his family and my family".

" Why maintain a relationship that does not get blessing, men are still very much, therefore we broke up, I am not the type of love fighter. To me my parents' blessing is the most important".

Utari seemed to be watching my story closely. " Who a pity, not as exciting as in soap operas. Less greget story. There should be a fight first. But your story just ended up".

" But I'm a little curious, it means you were introduced to your boy's parents dong, and vice versa, is not it enough for your middle-aged child closeness already far enough?, and vice versa?, moreover, you are not from the same school, meaning you have been invited to dong Ra's house?". Utari asked increasingly curious.

" Yes, ever. I've been to his house, first I've been there, I've met his mother, second time, I've only met his mother, and the third time I've been there, I've met his mother and father".

" That was the last time I came there. And after that we broke up" I explained.

" So her father who did not approve of the relationship between the two of you?, that her mother met you twice is still not papa, but have met her father you broke up?", guess Utari.

I shook my head, "The two are the same, both his father and mother, no one likes me, and both disapprove of our relationship" I replied.

" Whoa...but as a guy who is still Junior High, including his gentleman is gentle Ra, he may already love you very much, and intends to have a serious relationship with you, Ra, because you got brought to his house and introduced to his parents. Unfortunately, her parents did not support her relationship".

" Today the guy is rarely who knows his girl to parents, if not really in love and intend to be serious".

Utari still continues to think for herself to hear a piece of my past story.

" It's just the past, I don't want to bother Ri, let alone there's already a Bian who clearly loves me and we both have the blessing of both our parents".

" We just sleep yuk Ri.. I'm very sleepy, it's almost 1 hour, my head is dizzy when sleeping last night".

I deliberately invited Utari to sleep, because otherwise Utari would be more curious and keep asking with the story of my past.

" Yes already, when I was happy you have started to want to tell a story, even if only a little, but I have told a long story about my past story with you. Take it easy Raya, I can keep a secret. I will not tell Bian the same story" Utari said.

I just smiled at Utari's words. " You're not papa either, after all Bian never bothered about my past, the most important thing for Bian is how we are now", I said as I stretched myself and pulled the blanket over to cover my body to make it feel warmer.

" Good night Utari, may you have a beautiful dream" I said, closing my eyes. Utari also broke down and closed her eyes to sleep.