Healing
147. Proud

The POV

It has been two weeks since Yoga invited Adam's family home. And only today do I know what the real reason is.

I do understand very well how the original nature of Yoga, he could not invite someone to come home just because he wanted to thank you for the success of Mr. Adam to take care of the land liberation which is currently being built hotel. Because from the past, Yoga has won many tenders, and also managed to build many buildings to further grow its business. But all this time Yoga has never invited a colleague to our residence.

Obviously there is another meaning if it is true Yoga invites colleagues, especially with his family. And my guess is correct. It turns out that Yoga really likes the attitude and nature of the girl named Adel. Shaka's classmate, who Shaka says is his toughest rival.

Yoga wants to know more about Adel and how her parents. And vice versa, it seems that Mr. Adam also wants to know more about Shaka, as well as the ins and outs of our family.

Unfortunately if I look to Shaka personally, as a mother, I feel that Shaka lacks respect for Adel. That conclusion I got from Shaka's answer to my question after lunch together at that time.

" Are you happy, your father invited Adel, your classmate and his family home?"

At that moment Shaka immediately shook his head. " Shaka does not like Mom, all this time Shaka deliberately never invited any of Shaka's friends to play at home. Although sometimes there are some who insist want to play, Shaka must always refuse. It's not that Shaka doesn't like to be friends. But Shaka prefers our family's private life only we know".

" And about Adel, Shaka also doesn't like dad inviting his family here, let alone Adel's girl friend. If he gets leaked and tells other friends if he has been invited to our house to eat with his family as well. Maybe other friends can misunderstand, and make their own conclusions".

When I heard Shaka's answer, I realized, he just wanted to keep the family's good name. Shaka does not want to have friends who are too close to him, because he is worried that my past stories and Yoga that are not good will be known by others.

And today, when Yoga said that I wanted to attend the guardian student meeting at Shaka school, I immediately approached her.

" Don't try to bring Shaka closer to any girl. Give Shaka the freedom to enjoy his teenage years without conflict of romance. Shaka your son, he's down on the nature of you being reluctant to be in a match-making relationship".

" I know you like Adel's nature and attitude. Because as a girl, Adel is a superior seed, comes from a distinguished family, beautiful, and also intelligent. But remember yourself in the past. You are determined to come back with me even though your parents have chosen a Utari who is much better than me".

" That's what your son Shaka is like, he doesn't like you bringing him close to any girl, including Adel".

As a mother, it is my duty to make the happiness of my children a top priority.

Yoga looked at me, "Are you sure if Shaka doesn't like Adel?, Shaka has never been close to any girl. I know she hasn't dated in all this time. So does he have a girl like me who's been after you?".

The question of yoga has confused me. It is true that Shaka has never been caught dating, maybe he does not want to date. He is already over 17 years old. Just listening to the words Yoga I became a little worried.

Until the weekend night. I deliberately went to Shaka's room. It was 9 pm, Syifa was already sleeping soundly in her room.

I went in after knocking on the door a few times, but there was no answer, and I found Shaka sitting on the balcony breathing the cool night air, on a hot night like today.

I don't know what Shaka was thinking, which I know for sure, Shaka was thinking about something very focused, because the sound of the door I knocked on did not disturb the gaze of his eyes that were staring into the night sky.

Not like a boy his age who is bad. Shaka is a disciplined child, without me and Yoga. Shaka has never smoked, despite being clandestine, not changing girlfriends, even until now it seems like Shaka has never dated.

Wake up every morning without waking up, study every night without being told. I'm one of the lucky mothers to have a disciplined son like Shaka.

" What are you thinking?, so serious that I knock on the door many times you did not hear, I thought you were asleep" I said, while sitting next to Shaka and straightening my legs on the fur carpet on the balcony.

" Eh, mom.... Shaka again confused about going to college where. Initially Shaka wanted to go to Singapore, continuing his studies there. But after Shaka thought again, later Shaka so rarely met Syifa. Shaka wants to see Syifa grow up to be a beautiful girl".

" But if you stay here, Shaka may not learn to live independently, anything is always helped father. There was a little problem, Dad immediately intervened. Shaka so keep feeling like a kid".

" Shaka wants to practice independently, solve problems on her own, so that Shaka becomes a wiser person and does not always depend on father".

I nodded, understanding what Shaka wanted.

" Well, can you have an opinion?", I ask carefully, I don't want to be impressed to tell Shaka, let Shaka himself decide, please, I was just passing on my advice as a mother who was actually very worried about her son's condition of having the pleasure to live alone, away from me and my husband.

Shaka nodded and looked at me fixedly.

" Study wherever you want, just as a mother, of course you feel worried about the new environment that you will occupy. So what if you stay in college in Indonesia, it's up to you to want in which area, but at least still in Indonesia".

" So if anything happens to mom, or to you, it can be easy to approach".

" I'm sure you can be accepted at any college, with your grades always the overall champion. But please don't go too far from mom. If you are not comfortable in the look of father and mother, then Mother and father will not often visit you even though you later spend time, or contract in a close place" I said in a clear tone, seraya begged.

" If it's still in this city, or the next city of course there are many who know Shaka, this mother is just there".

" Tell Shaka think again, want to go to Bandung, Jakarta, Jogja, or Surabaya, which is still on the island of Java, so not too far with the mother".

I was a little relieved to hear Shaka. And strangely again, a week later when Shaka made the decision to study at UGM, Jogja became Shaka's destination campus.

Yoga does not mind going to college where Shaka, which is important according to what Shaka is interested in. And Shaka enrolled in the medical school according to his wishes first while accompanying me to give birth to Syifa. He really wants to become an obstetrician who can help deliver pregnant women, and save many lives.

The blood of her late grandmother, a midwife, turns down on Shaka, her grandson. Hopefully Shaka can become a doctor according to what he aspires to be.

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" Congratulations to Arshaka Saputra, as the general champion of graduation this year, with an almost perfect test score with an average score of 99.50 ".

The voice of the host called out Shaka's name so loudly. How proud I feel as a mother whose child performs like Shaka. I did come to Shaka's school as his guardian. Initially Yoga wanted to attend, but it turned out that there was an important meeting with a client from Malaysia, so Yoga could not attend, and I was the one who replaced him.

Proud, very proud I have a son like Shaka. Who am I, who is only a graduate of Junior High School, he graduated because he followed the B package. But I managed to give birth and raise a child like Shaka. I beat hundreds of other mothers who are much smarter than me, because other mothers graduate high school or even graduate. Honestly, I feel proud of myself.

But on the other hand, I also felt afraid and sad, because after this graduation announcement, it meant that soon Shaka would leave me, leave our house, to practice independent living in Jogja.

Shaka destination for self-study, fortunately only in Jogja, can still be reached, only takes approximately 7 hours drive from this city.

Because Shaka said after the graduation announcement, he will go directly to Jogja, to submit diplomas and other important papers as a requirement to apply for college there.

Previously Shaka had registered online, and tomorrow when he went to Jogja just handed over the original files. I always hoped Shaka would meet good people there. You can take care of yourself and get along easily and get a lot of friends, so that he does not feel lonely even though he is far from his parents.