Healing
111. As long as it's with you

Rasid immediately went and got into his contract, and soon came out, locked the door and took the bike away, like a person who was embarrassed to be close to me, the two strangers who had just arrived were my husband and his friend.

It wasn't my intention to keep my identity a secret from Rasid, I realized I was wrong to keep my marriage a secret from the men who paid more attention to me.

Because I thought my marriage was only a marriage by agreement, and I thought Yoga might not come here and see me. But it turns out everything I thought was wrong. Yoga came and asked to stay together tonight.

Haidar said to both of us to review the extent of the renovation process of the contract being worked on, the location is not far, at the very end of the contract, there are 3 empty contracts that are being renovated.

When Yoga and I were alone, Yoga approached and sat not far from where I was sitting.

" Did he often wait for you every time you sell?, just a day of marriage you just came back here, because you want to meet the same guy?, he said?, kangen same neighbor who so care so much with you it?".

" What is the extent of your relationship with the guy?, it seems you are very close. Though he's just a rented neighbor, not your brother, right?, very protective".

" I do not like and do not want you to relate to other men, even though you married me because of coercion, but we are legally married, both religiously and civilly, so you have to honor our marriage Ra....".

Yoga that has been effective when Rasid is here now directly nyerocos talk non-stop.

" Bang Rasid is just a rented neighbor, he lived here before I moved here, even before Juna lived in this contract, Bang Rasid already occupies that contract".

" There is no special relationship between me and Bang Rasid, we are just a rented neighbor. So do not have to think about it, come and talk, fortunately food is just a little. I'm gonna close the stall".

It's still leftover rice and a little side dish to eat Juna and myself later tonight. I'd better close the stall, Maghrib in a minute.

Yoga just sat there watching me tidy up the stall. Unlike Rasid who deftly will help me clean the stall every time he sees me about to close the stall.

" Why are you still here, want to watch me some?".

Yoga shook his head. " I want to come into your contract, I'm sleeping here tonight?", asked Yoga as he gawked into my contract.

" Want to sleep here where?, the mattress is only one and it is only the size of a single table, not fit for two people, narrow, Juna just won't sleep in the Rasid bang rented" I said.

" Yes in your bed, we are husband and wife, there is no prohibition between husband and wife to sleep together, single mattress is also not a problem, is not even better, is not it better, so you can sleep the same way you sleep" said Yoga while crying.

Yoga started teasing me.

" Where can you sleep in a narrow place like this, you will be used to sleeping in a spacious soft bed, can hurt your body if you sleep here, in this narrow contract", I said, while washing kitchen furniture that is still dirty.

" Can, who says I can't, I can sleep on the ground, just on a mat, you also know it, we'll never climb and spend the night in a tent together, he said, I was sleeping on the ground, only on a mat".

Yoga is annoying, there are reasons and answers that he gives.

" It's up to you, but if you feel uncomfortable later, just stay at the hotel, there is a hotel next to the hospital next to the intersection that leads here" I tried to tell.

I finished cleaning all the dirty furniture, finished sweeping the rented and stalls, when adzan maghrib reverberated. I saw Juna just getting home from work, getting into the shop and saying hello.

I answered Juna's greetings and walked out. " Greetings wa'alaikum. You overtime again Jun?", I asked while receiving a plastic bag containing sweet martabak from Juna. Surely Juna bought this martabak to his father Mala.

" I'm not overtime Sis, but help his father Mala first, earlier who bought a real rame, and Mala said again not feeling well so can not help".

I nodded, "it's true Mala was not feeling well, I just told her to come home early, I told her to go home at 12 o'clock because her face was pale and looked lethargic".

" So I stopped by Mala's house, he said asking permission for tomorrow can not help sister in the stall".

I nodded at Juna's words. When I was about to tell Juna if Yoga was inside, Juna had already seen Yoga standing up and was about to get out of the contract.

" There is a guest far away apparently, until here at what time Kak?", asked Juna whispered to me, until now Juna is still showing dislike towards Yoga, which is very difficult to do, just like you feel very angry every time you see Yoga.

" Just yesterday nyampe, most soon to go, just information turns out he is the owner of the new contract Jun, including the contract we occupy. Maybe he came here just to check the contract situation how".

Juna looked at me questioningly, "Who said the owner of the contract has changed people?, how could that be my sister?", Juna thought I was just kidding.

" And the new brother knew that the one who bought the contract was Yoga" I said in a slightly louder tone.

Yoga came out of the house, "Why?, are you disappointed because I am the new owner of the contract?", asked Yoga with a sad look on my face when I accidentally heard my words.

" How are you Jun?, have not seen each other for a long time" said Yoga.

" Good", Juna answered as necessary.

" I'm in a contract next to Kak", Juna showed a lazy attitude to meet with Yoga, he went to Rasid's contract, and unlocked the contract, and, because Juna already knows where Rasid keeps the contract keys.

" It's fitting that the occupants of the contract next to you are very close, it turns out that not only you are familiar with him, your sister also lives in his rented", said Yoga.

I was lazy to respond, just a few minutes Yoga came, my mood got worse. Maybe it was my decision to stay here and not stay at home with Yoga even though we were married. Living with someone we hate is only going to get upset many times a day.

Yoga went to Haidar and said he was going to the nearest mosque.

I put three roka'at alone in my room, because Yoga went to the mosque with Haidar.

" Why the hell is he here?, what would you like to pick up Kak Raya and bring my sister home?".

I was shocked when I finished praying, read the greetings, and saw that Juna was already standing leaning against the wall behind me.

" Yoga didn't say that, we agreed that if he would allow me to stay here, he shouldn't protest with a mutually agreed decision" I said.

" Why did he come here then?, I was really squirming his face. Tell the hunt back to the village only Kak, if not try brother tell him to stay in the hotel, not here, narrow.

" I said the same Yoga, but he said he wanted to sleep here, do I have to forbid it?, but we are Jun's lawful husband and wife, right, all this time Yoga always sends me shopping money every month, sorry new story. But as a husband he has done his duty. Should I keep my distance from him?", I asked Juna for his opinion. Because honestly I myself was confused, I pity him who has tried to be kind to me, but I am still this way, indifferent and indifferent to him.

" Have you started liking it?. Has he forgiven his mistake?, if I am alone, I cannot personally forgive him seeing how he used to suffer. Of course I still hate him so much until this moment, even though he is now a brother's husband".

I understand what Juna feels. Because I have also felt the same hatred towards the same person.

" Sister has forgiven her mistake, even though she can't love him anymore. You know for yourself, brother agreed to marry him to be able to free papa. If only there had been no accident at that time, brother would not have been married until now. Because it is my brother who intends to live alone for the rest of my brother's life" I said.

" Sister wants to live alone because of the consequences of Kak Yoga's actions too right?, if the brother used to not be impregnated and live a normal life like other children, like other children, I'm sure you already have a husband who loves you very much, and there's no prohibition from his family".

" All the sadness that Kak Raya feels is all based on the past brother with Kak Yoga" said Juna with emotion.

" It's true you Jun said, all because of me, all because of what I did, because I loved your brother so much, and couldn't help but stir my feelings at that time, until I had to force him to comply with my wishes that we shouldn't have done, I'm sorry".

Juna and I were shocked when Yoga suddenly stood not far from Juna's position.

" I will restore your brother Jun's happiness, give me the chance to make that happen. I really sincerely love Raya, from the past until now, only Raya whom I love".

Juna swallowed his saliva because he did not know what to answer.

" As a fellow man, I'm sure you can see into my eyes how much I love your sister" Yoga assured.

" It's narrow, I just sleep in the next rented, if you want to stay, go to the hotel, and take Kak Raya also to the hotel, all this time she sleeps on the floor with a foam mattress only. From now on, be happy for Kak Raya, and show that Kak Yoga really loves Kak Raya".

" I don't want to see any more sadness in my sister's eyes" Juna said as he exited the room and entered the next door contract.

" Ra what do you want", I cut my Yoga speech.

" No need, I'll stay asleep here, no need to take me to the hotel, tomorrow I have to go to the market early in the morning and cook, cook, if you want to go to the hotel I will tell Juna to take you in", I immediately refused to go to the hotel even though Yoga has not said anything.

Yoga even smiled hearing my words that sounded trembling.

" I want to sleep anywhere, as long as it's with you" says Yoga.