Healing
59. Long Message

" Kaka Raya, after marriage will definitely live together with her sister's husband, right?, because Shaka heard from Kak Bian, if the house is large and only lived by Bian's brother. Of course Kak Raya will definitely be in boyong by brother Bian to his house after you get married", Shaka spoke with a sad face.

I knew at every breakup it would be sad, but I didn't think it would be this fast, I hadn't really gotten married, but it felt like the breakup with my family had been on the verge of an eye.

" Indeed, as a wife, you have to follow her husband where her husband goes, let alone this small house, maybe Bian will feel uncomfortable if you have to stay here forever, moreover, Brother Bian already has his own house that is bigger and no one occupies, it is a pity that his house is left behind".

" Does Shaka want to stay at Bian's sister's house if Kak Raya is married later?, Brother Bian said he does not mind if Shaka wants to stay with us, moreover, Shaka's sister is smart and handsome, surely Brother Bian will be very happy to be able to be a sister who can be proud like Shaka".

I tried to persuade Shaka to change his mind and stay with me and Bian later. But Shaka remained in his stance, he wanted to stay in this house with his mother and father.

There's nothing I can do but agree to his decision. Although that means I have to come to this house often after marriage later to monitor Shaka's progress. She is in puberty, sure to meet a lot of new things.

I feel more calm because there is a mother who is at home every day and can monitor Shaka. Unlike when I was a teenager, which escaped the observation of parents because mama and papa are both busy working. I finally made a big mistake in my life.

It's just that Shaka is a boy, just like his father who secretly comes to my house after school. But I hope what happened to us her parents will never be done by Shaka. That's why I agreed when Shaka was on the football team, and he's busy at school.

Because it would be quieter if Shaka is always surrounded by many people, and does not date first like I used to.

" Pity mama and papa if Shaka also left this house, kak Juna has gone, Kak Raya also left, if Shaka went also mama and papa will only stay alone, just alone, what if one of them gets sick, or needs help?. That's why Shaka will stay here to help mom and dad if at any time they need Shaka's help".

I nodded, in my heart I felt sad, but at the same time proud because my son was mature, he was very understanding and very affectionate with mom and dad.

" Sister is very proud to have a sister like you, who loves mom and dad so much. Brother so embarrassed, as a daughter it is precisely the affection of brother lost by brother brother who is a guy".

" Thank you Shaka was willing to accompany mom and dad, and had no intention of leaving them alone. Brother will certainly often play here to visit you after brother gets married later".

Shaka nodded quickly. " Of course, it's the only sister of mama and papa's daughter, so it should be more attention than me or Juna's boy" said Shaka.

I nodded, of course I would be very attentive to mama and papa, because they are both who are always there when I am in a state of joy and sorrow since time immemorial. Never cornered me even though I was clearly the one at fault.

" Mama said Friday tomorrow you want to join the camp event?, do you want Tengokin's sister there?". I deliberately changed the subject so as not to continue to melow.

Shaka nodded, I didn't expect him to nod and wanted to be in Tengokin, because as far as I normally would be a teenage boy would be embarrassed if he was seen by his family.

" Well tomorrow Friday will brother Tengokin to the camp, mumpung brother off work, what will be brought if brother there?", I asked.

" Anything Shaka likes, do not bring anything is also not papa, Kak Raya has given pocket money to Shaka quite a lot".

I scrunched up my forehead to hear Shaka's answer, did my mom say that money was from me?, it shouldn't be necessary, because I actually wanted Shaka to never know that it was money from me.

Is this really Shaka my son?, the boy who used to argue with me, the boy who liked to argue with me, is now a submissive and very polite child. Like Shaka wasn't the usual one.

" When did you give Shaka some pocket money?", my dear.

Shaka just stood up and said, "Kak Raya has been very good to me, but I realized it too late. Thank you, brother. Sorry Shaka stayed in the room first, Shaka sleepy".

I saw Shaka go into his room and close the door tightly. I went into my room to rest, and I was sure that my mom and dad heard our conversation from inside their room.

When I got to my room and threw myself down, I saw a message coming in from Yoga. He wrote down how many screens. Like a letter so long. I also read the message from Yoga from the top.

*raw*...

If you knew, I would never open my heart to another woman. Although soon I will get married, but honestly this heart is still only written your name in it*.

*Long... gombal.. or whatever you mentioned to give me a nickname, I will accept even if it is not my habit, I will accept it, because it's only you that I have done a fight and some lies that I have had to do, but obviously all that is because I love you Raya, until now only you*.... *and only you*.

*The dream of being able to reunite with you until now is still often present every night in my sleep, especially after seeing you again after so long we have not met. It feels like hope to be back when it's wide open*.

*But when you found out that you were in a relationship with a close friend of mine, and knew how much anger and hatred your parents had for me, who immediately kicked me out when I tried to come with good intentions to your house, finally hope to reunite with you as if getting smaller*.

*I don't know how we can get back together, some ways have already been thought of, but it seems like too many would be hurt if I acted in my favor, she said, including you and our son Shaka*.

*Shaka looks a lot like me. His eyes, his nose, his face was the same as mine when he was his age. You must be trying to be patient because you have to see my face every day on our son's face. Because I know you still hate me so much*.

*If you knew Ra. how do I resist the urge to meet our son. I often get up to my own emotions because often times suddenly it has arrived in front of Shaka's school and want to get out of the car and meet him*. *But I was lucky to try to stay in the car*.

*I'm just trying to honor your wish that I don't see him. Because the happiness of his life is the most important. I would not have known him, even if I was his real father*.

*I hope you find the happiness of your life Ra. even though the man you chose was not me, but my best friend*.

..........

I got tired of reading messages from Yoga, which were more like the text of a speech, so long. I deleted all the messages Yoga sent. The first is because it is not important, the second is because the sentence is really boring, and the third is impossible dong I let the message be read by Bian.

For the common good, I quickly deleted the message from my phone. I also deleted the Yoga number. Although I do not keep it, but because I often read Yoga numbers, I actually memorized Yoga numbers out of my head. Because the WhatsApp number is quite beautiful, so it is easy to memorize.

I turned off my phone without replying to that long message. I closed my eyes and tried to sleep, to rest and gather energy to face tomorrow.

Hopefully tomorrow everything will go better than today which is full of drama...