Healing
16. Confession 2

" Did you say Ra..!, son ?. You have a child from that forbidden relationship?, in...where is your child now?"

I saw Bian so shocked, that his speech faltered, this time even cold sweat came out on his forehead.

" It's in my house Bi, my son lives with me".

Bian seemed to frown, "Why don't you know him as well as me Ra?, how big is your son?, do you hide it every time I come to your house?".

I shook my head, "You know him Bi".

Again Bian seemed to think hard, maybe he was remembering when he met a little boy in my house.

" Saka..he's my son Bi.", I continued.

Bian again glared, " Isn't Shaka your sister Ra?, so Shaka is actually your son?".

I nodded, "Shaka my biological son, she I carried for 9 months, and I gave birth to her".

" But because of the circumstances that were not possible at that time, the midwife who helped me give a solution so that Shaka was accepted into the community, she was included in the family card as my sister, she said, because my status is still a student and also not married, let alone my age at that time was only 14 years ".

" When my mom and dad found out, they were both in shock, but everything happened, and inevitably, they had to help me give my granddaughter her identity, she said, the one in the family card becomes his youngest son".

" One more thing, Shaka doesn't know if I'm his mother, which Shaka knows she's my sister, so please you can also keep this truth from him. I just don't want her to be sad and inferior if she knows who she really is. I don't want Shaka to wonder who his real father is".

" Now you already know some of the truth of my past, and now I hand over all the same decisions to you Bi, if you want to stop and back off. I'm not papa, because where there are men who want to marry women bad and like this trash".

Bian immediately stopped my speech by sticking his index finger on my lips.

" Ssttt.. You can't humble yourself like this Ra..., after listening to your story, I don't know why I still think you're a good woman. I'll keep your past stories a secret, as well as the reality of who Shaka really is".

" I still love you, Ra. even after hearing all the stories from you. Because not only you, every human being must have made mistakes, as well as me. Maybe I'm not as brave as you to tell me all the bad I've ever done".

" Now that I know some of your past stories, and I have no problem with that, may I come to your house and propose to you to be my life partner?".

I really did not expect, Bian stick to his stance, he said he still loves me, even though he already knows my true situation.

As an ordinary woman, I really feel adored, championed, cherished, and I feel like I'm the luckiest woman to be in Bian's heart.

How could I reject such a good man, there might not be another man like Bian. Maybe if the one who heard my story was another man. The man will step back and move away from me. But Bian was different, he stayed and even said he would propose to me.

" Are you serious Bi.. You are not disappointed in me after knowing the story of my past?, I have been......".

Bian shook his head while again stopping my words, "I just need an answer yes from you Kingdom. Then I will bring my parents to propose to you as soon as possible".

I nodded in agreement, as it would be the dumbest thing if I rejected a man as good as Bian. Who still wants to accept me despite knowing my dark past.

" So you accept me Ra?", asked Bian.

" Yes Bi, come to my house with your parents, I wait" I replied, looking down embarrassed.

But I felt Bian's hand holding my chin, leading me not to look down and feel ashamed, Bian led me to look at his face, until our eyes clashed with each other, in silence Bian slowly brought his face closer to me.

Slowly but surely now our faces are both in a very close distance, I can feel the warm breath that hit my face. And slowly Bian touched her thin lips to my lips, the sweet kiss was inevitable, Bian initially kissed my lips slowly, when I was silent and did not refuse him, Bian again touched our lips, Bian, his hand grabbed the nape of my neck so I could get closer.

The first kiss we did in his car was quite long because we both enjoyed the taste we had long since.

At our adult age, we both know what limits we can and cannot do. At least if it's just kissing each other I won't get pregnant out of wedlock like I used to, and as a normal woman, who's old enough, I also want to be loved.

We both smiled happily after that sweet kiss. I was happy because Bian had not changed my mind, I was happy because I finally found someone who truly sincerely loved me with all my flaws. I'm happy to be next to Bian.

" I'm taking you home now, Ra.., maybe tomorrow night I'll go to my parents' house to talk about our proposal" Bian said.

He did live in his own house, because his parents' house was out of town. Bian bought a house and moved to this small town just because he wanted to be close to me again. After college Bian immediately opened a restaurant and bought a house in this city. While his mother's father still lives in another city with a younger brother Bian who is still in college.

Bian put the seat belt back on my body and kissed my lips again just for a moment, I saw a smile directly on his lips, and he also put on the seat belt and drove his car to my house.

The car drove slowly, I think Bian still wanted to linger with me, along the way Bian's left hand continued to hold my hand. His right hand holds the wheel.

When he got to the big road leading to my house, Bian was about to get down and open the car door for me, but I held him back.

" It's just here, I can open it myself, and it doesn't need to be delivered to home, I just walk to home, it's almost Maghrib, you just go home, Maghrib time is just a moment, just a moment, don't let me not get out of time because it's still on the way" I said when we got to the side of the alley that leads to my house, I was back in the seat belt opened by Bian, I said, he was so considerate and romantic.

" Well if it wants you" he said.

As I was about to open the car door, again Bian held my hand, "May I ask for one more time Ra....?", asked Bian thrusting his lips towards me.

I kissed that lip quickly, worried that a neighbor or passerby could see what we were doing in the car. Although actually Bian's car is an expensive car whose glass looks dark when viewed from the outside.

" I'm down" I said as I got off Bian's car.

I immediately walked down the small alley that led to my house with a smile of my own. It felt like today I was greatly relieved, as if there was a slight heavy burden lifted off my shoulder.

" Cie.cie, who came home in the same room as Mas Bos, just walk with his own smile!, like a crazy person who often roams around laughing in the streets, he said, beware do not daydream while walking, again the change of day to night, time like now there are many more jinn and demons that pass by, later Kak Raya can be missed ".

Shaka who played on the field lined up my steps while teasing me as usual.

" What the heck are you, beware not to be bumbling brother, your body is full of sweat, stench" said I deliberately avoid Shaka who deliberately nudged his sticky arms into my hands.

" Sister is the same, the smell of sweat, just coming home from work, it makes no difference to me. By the way, huh Kak?, how to walk with a smile, or do not-don't end up being kissed by Mas Bos huh?, the lipsticky smudged everywhere", said Shaka back to tease me.

I grabbed my phone and I saw my lips on the screen. Still tidy and not messing around, even no lipstick on my lips because Bian was long enough ****** my lips.

" Cie.. got a prank!, hayoooo. Kak Raya was caught out kissing, I'm going to yell at mama!", Shaka yelled as he dashed into the house. But I chased him no less quickly.

" Mama Kak Raya finished ci.", I straightened Shaka's mouth when I managed to catch him.

Mama came out of the room with her eyes poked, making me and Shaka stop our prank.

" Mama why?, is mama sick?", I asked while removing Shaka and salim to Mama.

Mama just shook her head. " Mama's fine, just a little dizzy, but already taking stall medicine and it's healed now".

I know you're lying, there's something you're covering up about me and Shaka.

" You take a bath there, soon adzan maghrib, later papa comes home, change the bathroom" said mom while walking to the kitchen, as usual to get water for me.