Healing
5. Regretting

" Why do you want father and mother?, do we marry them?, but they are both still small. Jajan alone is still loved by parents, but already know about such good-tasting things, you again. use pregnant people, you idiot!". I saw again that Mr. Priyo had brought Yoga's head down, and resumed his sentence.

" My wife has given the solution by giving the pill to the father's daughter, let our family both bear no shame because of the behavior of our children, he said, why not just do the plan that my wife has made?, it is the best solution. If you want to be married, later after the successful Yoga.., now just live he is still hitchhiking, all are still given the same parents, where can Yoga love father's daughter if they get married now".

" Not to mention if the school knows, I believe one hundred percent, not only my son who was expelled from school, but the father's daughter will also experience the same thing, he said, dishonorably removed from his school".

" If they SMP just did not graduate, what would they both be?, want to be a bully in the streets?, if only SMA is now no use, especially if SMP only does not pass, especially if SMP only does not pass, do they want to continue living with their parents?, it's good...".

" I've slapped my own son because I know he's guilty, but if he looks back, this wouldn't have happened if there wasn't the will of either side".

" Your daughter would have been willing and happy to do it with my son, which means they did it on the basis of liking. There's no compulsion, so you can't condemn my son who's entirely at fault". Mr. Priyo began to defend his son.

" Heh sontoloyo boy!, where are you doing that huh?!, at the hotel?, what's in the park?, where's that moron boy?!". Again Mr. Priyo asked while yelling at Yoga.

" In.in.at..the house of Raya well.., in..in..the room, just there, never anywhere else", I heard Yoga still dare to answer even with a stifled voice and very frightened.

I looked down not daring to look at anyone in the room. I knew right now that my mom and dad's gaze must be on me after hearing Yoga's reply.

We did have sex in my room, from the first to yesterday the fifth time we had sex. Always done in my room, Yoga did not lie, but the answer Yoga made me who was originally a victim, turned into a suspect.

It was as if I was the one who asked her to do the forbidden relationship, because we did it in my room. This is what made my father and mother even more shocked and feel trapped by her own words.

Mama and Papa told us to date and meet at home. Because they thought home was the safest place and it was impossible for both of us to do the no-no.

But in reality, our house is indeed the safest place, but for both of us to do things that are forbidden, because my house is never inhabited during the day, it was just me and Yoga there. Which brings the 3rd party, the devil. Satan seduced us and managed to persuade us to do forbidden things.

" Well, did I say. Just do it in your daughters room. It's clear that your daughter is doing it with pleasure". Mr. Priyo's voice sounded increasingly confident, as if he had found an ace that was the key to him defending his son.

" I'm not accusing your daughter of flirting with my son, it's just from the scene that's your home, of course, now I ask where you two could be - can these Sontoloyo boys have an illicit relationship there but you don't know !".

This time it was Mr. Priyo as if turning things around, papa and mama who came to hold him accountable, now as if they were the guilty party.

" I've thought about it again, and I don't agree to marry our son at the age of 15. But they could both marry someday, as a form of accountability for our son. The important thing is to follow the solution that my wife gives. Throw the fetus away in that stomach. After all, he is also still in school, do you want to quit school because of being caught bunting?".

" In exchange, I will finance Raya's life until she finishes college. Or if you want to seek redress for this incident, we'll give it as you say".

Even the yoga father negotiated for us to agree to abort my womb by compensating whatever my family wanted. Do they think I'm selling myself for money?, do they equate me to a prostitute who sleeps with men and gets paid?.

I am very ashamed of myself, because of my mistakes and my stupidity, now I am in the face and at a very low value in the eyes of the Yoga family.

" I'm sorry, dear Mr. Priyo. We didn't come here to negotiate a nominal compensation for the faults of our father's son and daughter. I will only tell you, the truth if the fetus that is in the belly of the Kingdom is a child of Yoga".

" We do not intend to abort the Kingdom, not because we are ready to bear the shame. But we can't take away the innocent baby's life. The baby was just a victim of the mistakes my daughter and your son made".

" If Yoga is unable to account for its actions in the Kingdom, we will never claim any rights against you. Because it is true, you said earlier, I only realized if this event happened because of the fault of both parties".

" I as his father will bear the mistakes that Raya has made. With or without your son's responsibility".

" But please remember one thing dear Mr and Mr. Midwife, the child in the womb is ours, even though the baby is still a descendant of your family, but you do not want it, and we assume you all thought this baby was dead. Because that's what you want, and in the future, never bring up this child as part of your family!".

" From this very second, I assume that our family has never had these meetings and discussions. Let's just say our families don't know each other, and I ask Yoga, to never come to our house again, or to meet Raya without our parents knowing".

" Calm down, we will bear all the consequences of the mistakes made by our daughter because they have complied with your son's wishes which turned out to be very big for his future. We will not tell anyone who is the father of a child who is fully born, and I assure you your family does not have to bear any shame because of this".

" I'm sorry, because there's nothing to talk about, we'll excuse you".

The words of the trembling and emotionally repressive father really made me feel a very deep heartache towards Yoga and his family. I could see Papa's jaw hardening, and the tears on Mama's cheeks were unceasingly flowing.

I know you are very disappointed in me, but I also know that you still love me no matter how much you feel disappointed in me.

I'm sorry mama, I'm sorry papa, I've defamed both of you, I've made a very big mistake and I'm very sorry for what I did. You two are the greatest parents, who still forgive me for making mistakes and tarnishing both of you.

I'll do anything to make amends for you. I will definitely be a filial and obedient child. I'll make amends for all the mistakes I've done to you two.

The tear dam that I had been holding in my eyes now had broken down my cheeks, accompanying my footsteps that followed my father and my mother out of the Yoga parents' house.

The big and magnificent house that made me feel breathless was inside. I swear I will never set foot in this house again, no matter what. This incident will be a bitter memory that I will never forget in my entire life, I will remember all the words of Yoga parents who hurt and humiliated me.

I no longer want to see the face of Yoga, nor his parents. I don't want to remember what the faces of those who have cultivated this deep hatred are like. I don't want to deal with them all anymore. And I'm going to show that I can move on with my life, without them, without the father and family of this baby in my stomach.