Healing
58. Back Bone

" A person who means a lot in your life?, instead of that person Utari?, is there someone else who means a lot in your life?".

Riko deliberately fished Yoga to talk honestly, I actually became more worried and uncomfortable being with the three of them.

" Of course there is, and about that I shouldn't tell you all right?. Obviously, I'm very grateful to have met him again".

Yoga spoke while staring at me, his facial expression indeed implying a truly grateful person. Was she so grateful to see me again?, was she always so cold to any girl as her employees had said in the office.

I didn't know Yoga was really expecting me. But we both couldn't possibly be together. In addition, we both have our own candidates. Both of our parents have also forbidden us to meet again, so far both my parents, and Yoga parents no one knows if we still often meet.

Even more than just meeting, because several times Yoga managed to kiss me, forcing his will on me, even though I had refused and tried to evade.

I don't know what story the Creator is writing in my life. It's all been complicated since I met Yoga again.

" Can I guess who that person is?, there seems to be the smell of old love springing back. Actually I do not want to interfere in your life bro.., it's just that I know Utari, we all know Utari well, including Raya who has also started to get familiar with him".

" Don't hurt that girl bro... Utari I think is a very good girl, and most importantly she loves you very much. If he saw the look in your eyes now that was like a person in love like that, maybe he would be heartbroken, because that look you never aimed at him".

Bian was indeed very wise, his way of reminding was full of caution, and his words were wise, not with emotion or shouting. The male figure of dreams. I looked at Bian as if fascinated.

" Why do you look at me like that Ra?, you purposely lured me to kiss you in a public place?", teased Bian, knowing I was looking at him with admiration.

" No, no, your mind needs to be washed again, so that the direction does not continue" I muttered while cutting the meat steak in front of me. But Bian took my plate and chopped up my beef steak so I could eat it easier. Yoga stares cynically, whatever I don't care about Yoga, I just want to be happy with a good person like Bian.

" Wasn't the gig yesterday has not been resolved Bi?, I think back from here, you guys continue the hot activities that had been delayed because of my fad", Riko purposely said that because she wanted to see what Yoga would look like after hearing it.

Of course the face of Yoga immediately looks turned grim, maybe Yoga is not willing to be touched by other men. As he said at that time, who said he was not willing to be with other men.

But can what she is, even to admit I was her first love alone she did not dare, she was not like Bian who blatantly said I was her first love.

Or he and I are the same, but I have a reason why

" Just enjoy your food Ko, don't talk about yesterday, I'm still angry with you, and remember, surely someday I will reply to your fad yesterday" said Bian.

I know Bian just jokingly said he was still angry, because this morning they were both so compact out of the restaurant for a meeting with a client.

" I've finished eating, papa ya if I go back first, not good with other friends, than just sit here with you guys, it's still hours of work because", I said goodbye to the three young men who had eaten with me.

Riko and Bian just nodded, because they understood what I meant, but not with Yoga, I heard he asked Bian why he still let me be a waitress at his restaurant. As Bian's future wife I should have stopped working at her husband's own restaurant, because soon it will automatically become the boss' wife.

Moreover, Yoga discusses about me who still send food to customers who request delivery orders. Yoga says that it can make other people think negatively of Bian.

I don't want to keep listening to their conversation, Bian can definitely answer Yoga questions. Although I don't know what would be the reason for him why I still work here.

Yoga came out of the restaurant after he finished eating, he accidentally sent me a message and said he would call me again later tonight. I just read the message, without replying, and even deleted it. Worried Bian suddenly saw dsn read it.

" It's 4 o'clock let's go back", take Bian.

" Would it be better tomorrow to go alone Bi?, because I am more comfortable delivering food using my own motorbike than the one in the restaurant" I said as we walked home.

" No motorbike, I'll pick you up every day, we'll leave and go home together as usual".

" I was thinking, it's true what Steve said earlier, as your future husband, I shouldn't have hired you as an employee at my restaurant. You just have to come and go home as the wife of the restaurant owner. Not bound by working hours, do not have to come every day and there is no monthly salary, because later I will provide you every month".

" You can come here as my wife, not the employee you used to be. Or maybe you should make a resignation letter first so that you can prepare for our 2-week marriage casually?".

I can't believe Bian said any of those things, even though I told him before that I wanted to keep working and paying for Shaka. Just because Yoga made her change her mind. Is that the effect of Yoga speech on his mind?.

We got home, and Bian immediately told my mom and dad about the plan, asking me to make a letter of resignation from the restaurant. And asked me to focus on getting ready before our wedding. Time for 2 weeks, without working and just expecting to get money later shopping from Bian after marriage, of course that is not what I want.

Mama and papa also seem to object, because I am the backbone of the family. There's no way I'm gonna ask Bian to support me before we get married.

" Bian boy, no mama does not agree, but let Raya keep working until you are really married, because since entering Junior High Shaka so many unexpected expenses".

" While papa's income lately is uncertain, even often only a few passengers, of course it is not enough to finance Shaka school, our hope is to stay in Raya only", said mom with a sad look.

Bian had never had a discussion about Shaka's school fees, because we weren't really married, and I felt bad about the Shaka school fees, afraid that Bian might come to think of 'em, and he's financing Shaka, I don't want that to happen, because it's not time yet.

" I'm going to keep working, and not have to worry about our wedding reception, things are going well, you trust me. I will also resign later after we get married, because if now I am confused about what to do at home, there is nothing I do".

" So don't eat Steve's words, look Utari also keep working and keep going to the hospital as usual, why should I stop, just stop, I have nothing to do at home".

Bian looked disappointed, because again I did not comply with his wishes. Bian's own position, no support from my mom or dad. All my family still wants me to work, because I'm the backbone of the family.

I didn't think Shaka had been listening to our conversation from the terrace of the house, even though our voices were not loud, but from the living room to the terrace it could definitely be heard what we discussed.

Shaka only entered after Bian said goodbye, even this time Shaka apologized to me because he felt that he had become a burden on my life that he knew only as his older sister.

" I'm sorry if Shaka becomes a big sister, you should not have to work anymore because you will be the wife of the restaurant owner. But instead Sister still works because she has to help my mother finance me for school, also finance our lives".

Shaka is already a teenager, and he knows, every month I spend money on monthly shopping costs and also I am the backbone of this family.

Juna is already working in a big city, but he is still in training, because this week he will just finish training and officially become a contract employee at one of the big PTs in the city. Although later Juna may be able to help the family living costs. But still I'm the one who will finance all Shaka needs. Because I am his real mother.

" You're talking like an adult so Ka.... is little sister brother now grown into an adult?, the background is Junior High, your style of speech so officially so".

" Sister never felt burdened by you or our parents. I am glad I could help my mom and dad. Moreover, you pinter and always make your brother proud of your achievements. Until you finish college, you don't mind paying for everything".

" Think of it like an investment, someday if you can go to high school and become a successful person, you can collect money to return everything that your brother has given you so far. At that time it would be with great pleasure that big brother would accept it".

Shaka seemed to nod, he is indeed your son Ga. smart like you, and also very sensitive like me.