Healing
86. Revealing Secrets

" It's not too late, stop by the pharmacy to buy an ointment that can make the wound heal quickly and dry".

" Look at your face right now, you're like a member of a mafia gang who wants to get married, there's a lot of cuts on your face. Even though tomorrow the day after is an important moment, and will be taken as many photos. You two should have thought all the way there, and not burned emotions to cause such a wound".

I'm still trying to advise him that Bian doesn't get back to being as emotional as this afternoon.

" Cih.. actually I was reluctant to discuss about the jerk, but you should know Ra, this afternoon Utari finally knew everything from Steve himself. Like a madman he uncovers a secret that has been kept in his own store, Steve tells all his bad sides in the past to Utari".

" You know for yourself that Utari is a very cheerful type of person, but when he heard Steve's confession he immediately fainted there, and his silly, instead of helping Utari and carrying her to the car, he said, he even told the boutique security guard to pick up Utari and drive her to the hospital. I don't know what kind of man doesn't care when his future wife faints, even leaving his future wife in someone else's arms".

" If I were her, I would panic to see you pass out in front of me, I would carry you and take you to the hospital. I became increasingly convinced that Steve had never loved Utari, he just agreed with the match, as a form of compromise ".

Bian is trying to tell me the ugliness of Yoga, I understand he is trying to make Yoga sound bad by me, actually Bian is overdoing it. Because without telling the ugliness of Yoga, I am the one who knows the most about all its vices.

Only this time it's different. All the ugliness of Yoga told by Bian actually became a positive value of Yoga for me. Yoga once said that I was the only one she loved, only the woman she touched. And Bian's story got me thinking, if what Yoga said to me a while ago isn't a lie.

Yoga never touched another woman, even though she was Utari, her fiance, who would soon become his wife.

Is it true that if I ask Yoga not to touch his wife, then he will not touch her at all?. But I never asked Yoga for that, then why does Yoga still not want to touch Utari even in an emergency like that when Utari passed out?, but?, even Yoga told security to carry and take Utari to the hospital.

" Why are you daydreaming about Ra?, and that's... from whom?", Bian pointed to the necklace I was wearing.

" Huh?.. oh this is a gift from Juna and Shaka, said Mama, this afternoon they both muter-muter nyari gift for me. Out of curiosity I opened the card, in front of the two of them, and it turned out that the gift was very beautiful, a necklace with a pendant shaped love and there was a red jewel in the middle. I was so moved because they were so attentive to me Bi. I immediately used a gift from them, Shaka who put it on. They're so happy because I love the cards".

Bian smiled as he breathed a sigh of relief. " Thank God it was from Juna and Shaka, I thought badly, if it was from Steve, sorry", Bian said honestly.

I just scrunched my forehead, because ever since I found out that the man who used to impregnate me was Yoga. Bian's attitude becomes more possessive, not to mention his negative thoughts that so often appear.

" For this reason, why I didn't tell you honestly who Shaka's father was. I've guessed that eventually you'll become negative-minded to me".

" And I thought, if I told you about it in the first place, maybe there's no double date show together with Utari and Steve, no mountaineering event with your friends, your friendship would have been a mess if I had been straightforward from the start. I really do not want to be the cause of the breakdown of your friendship that you have forged so long, not just one or two years, but a dozen years Bi".

Bian nodded, "Now that I know your true intentions and reason, since this afternoon, I keep guessing, making assumptions and figuring out exactly what reason you were dishonest about who Shaka's father was from the beginning. It is true that you are afraid it will definitely happen if you tell an honest story from the beginning".

" It's not that I hate Steve because I'm jealous of him, or that I'm angry because he's the son of a bitch who used to snatch your crown, which I should have taken, and not because he turns out to be the man who impregnated you. But I'm angry and hate Steve for being such a jerk, any guy who does that to any woman, I never will be able to understand, I can't possibly stay nice and pretend to be okay with her".

" A man like that does not deserve to be a friend, let alone a friend. He was even inferior and more evil than an animal. Why can I say that?, because the male animal will love, protect and care for the child and the female. What Steve did was leave you and disappear after ruining your life, and you even said that if he and his family told you to abort your womb, it meant they were also planning to become a murderer".

" At this time I even feel ashamed because I used to trust his words so much, I used to be so proud to be his best friend. Because he never once told me his dark story. What Steve talked to the three of us a lot was that he couldn't forget his first love who was his girlfriend in Junior High, and that girl was you Ra".

" But even if I knew that, I wouldn't give up, because I love you no matter what your circumstances are, Ra, I don't care about you and the people in your past. I just know, I love you and will marry you, make you my life companion until the end of my life".

Unlike Bian who really sincerely loves me, and accepts me with all the shortcomings that I have. I am grateful that God brought us together again, and I am grateful that, after a long period of suffering in my life, I found a person who was a healer of my wounds in the past.

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I turned around because Bian's car was gone and was not seen again after passing the corner. After a long and long conversation in his car, now my heart feels more relieved and feels hollow, like there is a heavy burden disappearing from my shoulders.

At half-time at 9pm, I was walking casually towards the house. Mama and papa are back from the store and the groceries will be delivered tomorrow by the store employees. Because shopping in large quantities, while the mama and papa bring a motorbike, of course, can not bring a lot of groceries.

Mama and Papa also saw Bian's car parked on the side of the road, but it looks like mom and dad don't know if we're in it, because Bian's car glass that looks dark when viewed from the outside.

At first Bian wanted to say hello to mom and dad, but I forbid, because Bian's face was a lot of wounds, if mom and dad saw Bian's situation, surely they would be worried and ask what happened. If until they know Bian fighting with Yoga, his affairs can get longer.

The atmosphere tonight was very quiet, no one passed through the alley that I was passing alone.

" Great....".

The weak voice of a woman who called me from behind gave me goosebumps, for now I walk alone. I dare to look back. I looked at a white-clothed nun standing up while pushing a wheelchair occupied by a woman with a pale face and long hair unraveling in disarray.

At first, I was shocked and my heart beat quickly, remembering the horror movies I had seen with Bian, Utari, and Yoga at that time. Because there's a ghost sister too. But looking at the pale face of the girl sitting in the wheelchair made me a little calmer.

" Utari..., why do these nights come here?, you are sick again..Your face is pale Ri", he said", I walked over to Utari who was also approaching me because the nurse was still pushing the wheelchair to get closer.

I was still standing staring at the main that looked completely different from usual. The cheerful Utari, turned into a weak and helpless girl. I know at this moment Utari's feelings must be very messed up. Between sadness, heartache, disappointment, feeling lied to, and all the bad feelings of knowing the truth about Yoga.

But why did Utari come here all night with her unwell condition?, could she have come to scold me?, perhaps she came to vent her anger on me, or maybe Utari wants to make a calculation against me?.

If that is the purpose of his arrival, I will accept it with grace and I will listen to his oath of absorbency to me. I made a mistake for not telling the truth from the start. So if Utari comes here to blame me, I will accept and listen to all the insults from her.

For a few minutes we both stared at each other. None of us spoke. I kept quiet because I didn't know what to talk to her about. Explain also do not know where to start. That's why I can only be silent, actually more precisely I am preparing my heart to receive the outpouring of anger Utari.

But instead of scolding me, I see my back moving up and down while crying. Utari cried until something in front of me without saying a word. I still stood straight in front of her, wanting to hug Utari whom I considered my best friend, but I was afraid that Utari would get angry if I held her.

Maybe now Utari no longer considers me as a friend, but a woman whom she hated so much. Because I'm the cause of all the chaos that's going on. I don't know how it goes with Yoga, I hope their marriage will continue. Utari was disappointed in Yoga.

I used to wish their marriage to be annulled, because I felt sorry for Utari who had been lied to by Yoga and her family. But now Yoga has been honest and told everything, making my expectations different. Now I hope Utari can accept the lack of Yoga, because I know how much she loves Yoga. I hope she can be happy and stay married to the person she loves so much.