Healing
25. Tipu

" Let go of me!", I cried out to Yoga, I know at this time many people are watching and staring at us. Maybe because I was running and Yoga was chasing me, maybe someone thought that I was a girl who was being billed by her friend for not being able to pay the debt. Because it is very unlikely that a handsome and high-statured man like Yoga will chase an ordinary girl like me.

" You can calm down a little Ra.., your attitude makes others look at us".

Yoga immediately gripped both arms of my hand, and asked me to stop and be quiet, not rebel constantly. But I don't want to talk to him, I don't even want to see him. I hate him so much, I'm afraid if he asks about Shaka, I don't want him to know or meet Shaka.

" Then let go of me, I don't want to see your face, I don't want to see you, and I don't want to deal with you anymore!".

I kept shouting and rebelling, but it made Yoga pull me out of the hotel into the parking lot and put me in the car. Yoga went in and locked the car door. Right now there's just the two of us in the car, maybe it's his car, a white Alphard that looks very new.

" Why do you always have to avoid every time we meet?, how much do you hate me, because of our bad past?".

I immediately threw away my face, and reluctantly stared at Yoga who was talking to me. I feel like I want to be able to break down the door of this expensive car, if only I had the knowledge to break through the door, or eliminate myself, I would have done it right now.

" I'm sorry..sorry..and I'm sorry.... I've said it repeatedly to you Ra.... You think I want to be in my position at that time?, you know?, had I been as successful as I am today, I am 100% sure, I would have resolutely rejected my mother's desire to abort the womb".

" I was forced to do so at that time, Ra. but I still love you very much. As long as I moved, I never had any contact with any girl, I kept thinking of you Ra. I mean, I'm not lying".

Yoga continued to speak for itself, I was very reluctant to listen to any reason, I was so sick of just hearing his voice. I was miserable enough to bear all the results of his actions to me. How can I forgive him.

But if I keep going like this maybe Yoga won't let me go, and keep locking me in this car, which is why I pretend to soften, I have to say if I've forgiven him, so I can get out of this car.

" Well, I forgive you and your mistakes in the past, now you've heard that if I've forgiven you, now please open the door of this car, please, because I have an appointment to meet someone".

I intentionally lowered my tone of voice to make Yoga believe.

" You're serious about what you said, isn't Ra?, I'm holding your talk just now, if you've forgiven me, are we back as friends as Ra was?".

Hearing the question Yoga makes me smile cynically, can be seen right?, be given heart. Said to have been apologized, now just ask to be friends again, where would I want to be friends with people I hate.

" I'm sorry enough for your mistake, now you ask to be my friend?, just find another friend, I'm not interested in making friends with you, therefore, quickly open the door of this car, because my future husband must have been waiting for me since!".

I deliberately clarified the word 'my husband' so that Yoga no longer interferes with my life.

" Did you say Ra?, future husband?. I didn't hear wrong?, do you intend to marry another man who doesn't know your past?, does he know your true circumstances?".

The question of Yoga makes me who is trying to dampen my emotions feel like screaming again. What does it mean to ask like that?, he thinks I'm what I am today because of who?, because of him. But it was as if he felt innocent.

" Yes.my future husband is waiting for me outside, of course he knows all the stories of my past, he said, so now open the door before my future husband finds out I'm in the car with a cowardly man who ran away leaving me and the baby in my belly!".

My voice rose again, so emotional, the limit of your patience was exhausted, it was like wanting to beat up this man sitting next to me and pull his hair out.

" Have you never had the pleasure to come back with me again Ra?, we're repeating the good times we were together. Don't you want to reunite with me, Ra?, you want to reunite with me again?".

I think Yoga has gone too far, he said he wants to repeat the good times together, because for me it is not a beautiful time, but a time full of lust and error. A time when he can channel all his sexual desires freely without a bond.

Unless that person is really penitent and indeed loves the previous sex partner very much, maybe I will believe his words. But I'm not sure if that big Yoga loves me. I guess it's just because she felt the first one with me, and she still wants to get back to feeling it again because of addiction.

" No, I never even once imagined that I would meet you again, because to me, you are dead, I have buried deeply together with the memories and wounds you once gave me".

From inside the Yoga car I could see Bian and Riko coming out of the hotel, and seemed to be looking for my whereabouts.

" Now you can get me down from here, I think I've been looking for since. And please don't see me again, just assume you don't know me, and don't come to my house again".

I pulled the car door handle because Yoga had opened it. I think Yoga also sees Riko and Bian looking around for someone. Maybe Yoga wants to see them.

Successfully getting out of the Yoga car, I went straight to Riko and Bian. I know Yoga still watches where I go, stupid, even if he knows the man I call my future husband is his friend. But what exactly is Yoga doing in this hotel?, men like himself may often go in and out of luxury hotels like this just for personal business. Maybe he has made an agreement with a female seller of satisfied services**** just to channel his wishes in this hotel.

How can I keep thinking ill of Yoga?, because that's what she is like, having had a one-time forbidden relationship with me, every time we met, after all, never once did he not ask for rations to vent his wishes. It's just that sometimes I refuse, even then Yoga still continues to persuade me with his appeal. Who said I didn't want to do it anymore because I didn't love him, he accused me of having another crush, and was getting tired of dating him so I refused to make love to him.

There was always a reason for him that made me unable to resist his desire to make love. Really it's because of my stupid who was still very innocent at that time.

" Where's Ra..., we're both going, but you're not in the lobby". Bian took my hand and led me back into the hotel lobby.

" I'm sorry Bi.. I'm tired of waiting for you guys to meet long enough, I sat alone here long enough, so I went out for a while, the streets ahead", I reasoned.

" Where is your friend who wants to get married?", I asked Bian.

Bian also introduced me to a beautiful girl who was the same height as me, white skin was the same as me, straight hair was the same as me, only her eyeballs were bigger than me, she said, at first I thought why this girl at first glance looks like me, only my eyes are narrower because I look like a Japanese father.

I extended my hand and was greeted warmly by the girl. " Raya.".", I said introduce myself".

" Utari, nice to meet you, may you and Bian also immediately formalize your relationship", a sincere smile emanated from Utari's beautiful face.

Highly educated girl is indeed very visible from her attitude and attitude, from her style of speech looks intelligent, confident, very polite and authoritative. Anyone who marries him is lucky.

" Oh yes where is the future husband?, did you not say that your best friend is the guy?", I asked Bian and Riko who had been seen looking for someone's whereabouts.

" Oh yes, Steve said there was a sudden meeting, so just sent me a message, he apologized for coming home first, but had arrived here, look, he sent a photo already up the parking lot, he said, but I have to go again". Utari showed a photo sent by her future husband.

I looked at the photo taken by the future husband Utari, the photo was seen taken from the position of the car I entered earlier. There look Bian and Riko while looking for me, or maybe Steve would be husband Utari is Yoga?. Yes, I know very well his full name, Steve Prayoga Setyawan.

You loser guy, his mouth and heart are always different, he says he still loves me so much, he says he wants to repeat the good times I used to be with him, you jerk, you son of a bitch, how dare he want to deceive me song, I will not forget his words earlier, once the deceiver is still a deceiver. Fortunately, I was not consumed by his dreadful seduction.

I look at Utari who is still trying to explain the busyness of the prospective husband. Suddenly I felt sorry for the beautiful and educated girl who was in front of me at this moment. He gets the future husband of a con man and a loser like Yoga.

Look how much she believes so much in the words Yoga, what a pity for the fate of this good girl. Even her marriage is counting days. Hopefully she can figure out the heartbreak of Yoga and her family before their marriage happens. Poor should be a good girl married to a good man too.