Healing
130. Missing Good

" Oh yes, a few years ago, when Raya was pregnant, Raya and I met with Dwi Doctor from Medika Hospital, her special obgyn doctor. We were eating at a restaurant. Because he happened to be with our neighbor Doctor Adrian, who also said he was Raya's upperclassman during Junior High".

" That means Adrian's doctor is also your upperclassman Bi?, weren't you in your junior high class?. He said to know you, I think because you and Adrian are in school, or because Utari is also a doctor so naturally you know each other, but Doctor Adrian said to know you because you are one of the patients of Doctor Dwi, was Utari pregnant too?, or was one of you sick?", asked Yoga, who asked, trying to eliminate awkwardness when the atmosphere is quiet.

But for me, the question of Yoga actually makes Bian and Utari look unhappy, they both stare at each other in silence with facial expressions that I can not read.

" It was a long time ago, maybe Bian and Utari had forgotten about it. No need to remember if you have forgotten, just enjoy your food" I said trying to divert the conversation. And gave a code to Yoga not to continue the discussion earlier.

" Thank you, indeed we used to be patients with Dwi doctors, but now it is no longer" explained Utari, trying to answer as necessary and did not intend to explain anything about his condition or Bian's condition.

But after Utari said that, it is now replacing Juna who asked. " Do you have a baby?, is not your marriage about half a year earlier than the wedding of Kak Raya and Kak Yoga?", asked Juna who joined the chat.

What happened to Juna who suddenly discussed it?.

" Not yet", replied Bian and Utari simultaneously.

" Isn't your age not young anymore?, it would be nice not to be busy pursuing a career and delay to have children", Juna like deliberately saying that while staring at Bian and Utari alternately.

I can see the dislike gaze from Juna's eyes, since the beginning of Bian and Utari's arrival. But what is Juna's problem with the two of them?. The problem with Bian and Utari is me, and I don't want to bring up the past anymore either. I assume everything's fine. But why does Juna still look dislike?.

" It has not been given, not delayed" Utari replied briefly. I can see he's losing his appetite.

I gave Juna the code to keep quiet and not continue asking again, Juna understood and obeyed my request. But instead the atmosphere became quiet and increasingly awkward.

" I'm sorry. We're done eating, and it seems like it's too late for a visit, so we're sorry, thank you for dinner, the food was so good". Pamit Bian, as if the two of them were keeping something from us.

I invited them and brought Bian and Utari to the gate. When I returned to Fila's front garden, I heard that my mother was lecturing Juna.

" You shouldn't say that Jun, however much they have their own privacy, whether they have children or postpone it is up to them. We have no right to interfere".

" I agree with what you're saying, we don't know what's going on until they haven't had children despite being married for almost 5 years. So we should not accuse them of deliberately delaying having a baby. Who knows, they already want it very much, but have not been loved, as utari said earlier", I said while sitting back next to Yoga.

" Sister so that person is too good, if not because of him, who revealed the condition of his brother to his family brother Bian...!", Juna instantly stopped his unfinished sentence and stared at Yoga feeling unwell.

" Have it, sorry if Juna said it wrong, shouldn't we be happy tonight, because we can get together with the family, so don't talk about other people and don't talk about the past".

Juna thrust the meat into Shaka's mouth who was currently silent staring at his anger for just a moment. Juna did manage to temper his emotions.

" There's no need to feel bad for me Jun, I was also wrong, because I started talking about the lives of the two of them, I don't care if you still regret the cancellation of Raya's marriage with Bian first, Bian is a good person, because that's why I gave up Raya to marry him. But it turns out that the suratan will another", said Yoga try to be wise.

Mama and Papa did not dare to talk, because they were worried about mispronouncing and muddying the atmosphere.

Shaka opened his mouth to take a bribe from Juna. Maybe it is true not to talk about other people, or discuss the past when we are together and in happy moments like today. It would only ruin the atmosphere, because of our family's troubled past and so many sad stories.

Tonight the barbeque was finally finished, We all together cleaned up the former equipment we used to burn meat earlier. But the one who cleared everything ended up ART working here. We all went into our rooms.

" What did Utari say to you?, I could see him talking to you. You sly woman. She went to the bathroom, but she came in to look for you, didn't she?", guess Yoga. I can't sleep even though it's late at night. Maybe that's why Yoga is talking to me.

" He said he wanted to talk to me alone, I didn't know what he wanted to say, he asked for my phone number, and then I said. It's just that, haven't had a chance to talk about anything before", I answered honestly.

" You tell me if you want to meet him, I'm afraid he's still a grudge against you" said Yoga.

I also smiled, because I felt Yoga became negative thinking so, "Can't think negative, it could be prayer, maybe Utari kangen want to talk to fellow women, he said, or as a friend who has not met for a long time. Thinking that's fine, don't su'udzon so Ga".

Yoga takes a deep breath. " It is true that Juna said earlier, you become a good person Ra, so Bian is difficult to move on from you".

" Try you just a little bit have a bad side, maybe Bian will be able to forget you Ra. It was clearly visible from the look in his eyes since he had just arrived until he came home, his eyes were constantly being stared at to follow where you were going".

Is it true that Yoga just said?, I did not pay attention to Bian earlier, because he was busy taking care of Syifa.

" Maybe it's just your feelings Ga, because maybe what I saw was not me, but Syifa" I said trying to deny that Bian had been watching me ever since.

" This is a coincidence or how the hell is Ra.., I did not think, only the first time we came to Fila and family, uh even they also came at the same time. The almighty scenario is so hard to guess".

" It was very desirable that I had no contact with Utari nor with Bian, but they suddenly went so far" Yoga grumbled.

I just smiled at her words. " Yes already do not continue to be discussed if you do not want to connect with them again, if you discuss about them continue even so think of them continue. Mending we discuss plans for tomorrow, where we go?", I asked.

" It's also true what you said, we better discuss the plans for tomorrow. At first I want to take you for a walk in the flower garden owned by the mother, the location is not too far from here, a 10-minute walk, has arrived. Are we also going to celebrate Shaka's birthday there, how do you think Ra?", asked Yoga for my opinion.

Not bad to also celebrate the 17th anniversary in the flower garden belonging to the grandmother who used to want to eliminate it. Hopefully in nature Ms. Herni is not angry, and can accept our presence in Fila and also her flower garden.

" Maybe, tomorrow we make a surprise, have workers in the garden prepare a place, simple decorations with flowers there, and also a birthday cake".

Yoga is excited. " I'm grateful to be able to celebrate together our son's 17th birthday together like this, hopefully tomorrow's event goes well".

" Aamiin", I said in my heart.

" Now we sleep, let tomorrow the wake is not bad luck" I said.

But Yoga actually went into the blanket that covered my body, and his hands began to play around in there, making my body reflexively squeak because of the touch of Yoga hands.