Healing
75. Dreams 2

Adhan Maghrib echoed while the four of us were still chatting casually in the living room. I'm glad that all my family members accepted Bian's presence as our family. Both mama, papa, Juna and Shaka, all judged Bian to be a good man, and right to be my husband.

" Mom and papa will go home until late at night, you should go to the mosque by yourself, do not have to wait for papa" I said to the three men who are very dear to me.

" You are not papa at home alone Ra?, if you do not dare I can pray at home" said Bian.

But I was not comfortable alone with Bian, remembering the words Yoga at the restaurant earlier, I had to keep Bian from doing anything that could make him see the red marks that were on my body for the next few days, until the marks made by Yoga completely disappeared from my body.

" I dare to stay home alone, it's normal, yesterday's Shaka camp, and papa's mom went there, I was home alone, and I was brave, I was brave, you better go with Juna and Shaka to the mosque" I said a little forcefully. Bian might see me looking weird, but let it be, the important thing is I survived.

Because I understand very well, Bian has been trying to find time alone with me, so we can make out, and can do what we used to do when we were just two.

" Come Ka, think get ready to go to the mosque", Juna pulled Shaka into the house to change into a prayer suit.

I stood up and told Bian to hurry to the mosque. Bian also moved from his seat with ogah-ogahan, and kissed my lips quickly mumpung Juna and Shaka are in the house.

" It's very bad to want to be together with you, even you don't understand I give you the code".

" For fitting on the bike you swerved so tightly, that I could feel your twin hills clinging to my back. That's why I want to check that the twin hills are fine, or maybe something eroded because of friction earlier, it's a pity you are not sensitive", protested Bian with a very soft voice.

" Calm down, nothing is eroded, I guarantee both are in good condition. Sorry, I didn't mean to tease you earlier, I felt really upset because yesterday we didn't meet, so I hug you really tight. I'm so sorry Bi.", I explained.

" Come Brother Bian, we go to the mosque now", Shaka took with him in spirit.

I just smiled towards Bian who was currently still looking at me. And pushed his body so that Bian immediately went to the mosque.

The three of them went to the mosque together, I was happy to see the dignity of the three of them who were worthy of a real brother. Sometimes it feels like a dream. I have in the past received too many wounds from Yoga and his family. Now find a man as good as Bian, who accepts my situation and accepts all my shortcomings. Bian who became the healer of all my wounds in the past.

If only I had no more need to meet Yoga. Perhaps all the wounds and pain I have felt in my past, will soon heal and only happiness will remain. But unfortunately I still have to meet with Yoga, still must always remember the wounds that were inscribed by his family. It was almost a dry scar, as if it was reopened. Until the wound does not heal, even wider because it is added with new injuries such as last night, making more and more bad memories when with him.

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I went into the house to perform maghrib prayers as well. Because I felt very tired with the work in the restaurant that today is very crowded, after finishing the maghrib prayer, I felt very sleepy and curled up on the prayer mat.

But just as I was lying down, I heard a motorbike stop in front of my house. I let go of Mukena and came out to see who was coming in the maghrib like this. At first I thought mom and dad were coming home from uncle's house sooner. But when I peeked through the window, all I saw was a man I never expected to see.

Yep.... Yoga comes at a very bad time. How dare he come to my house, lucky mama and papa are not there, if any, can run his affairs.

I purposely locked the door so that Yoga could not enter the house. I can see Yoga getting off the bike with a prickly smile. Yoga heard the sound of the door I locked in a hurry.

" Don't be so dong Ra. when there are guests even the door of his house in the key, I came here because there is a little business with Bian, I sent a message to him earlier, I sent him, and he said again in your house, nemenin you because mama and papa again go to ask for your blessing to your uncle's house".

I could hear Yoga from behind the door. It is fitting that he dared to come home, it turns out Bian told him if mom and dad were not at home. But I can't just open the door, right now I'm home alone. It makes me automatically remember what happened last night, at the Yoga house.

" Why lonely... has Bian gone home?, but the bike is still here. You took Bian inside the house, remember my message Ra, don't let Bian undress for a while, or your marriage will be annulled because the sign of love I made on your body last night is still clearly visible and pretty much too, hehehe".

Yoga says the same thing again, laughing. He's like a bad guy who laughs at me being his victim.

" Bian is not there, he goes to the mosque, if you want to see Bian after him to the mosque!", I cried, while entering the house leaving Yoga who was still standing at the door.

" Your bra, last night you stayed in the room, so this morning I went to the restaurant to return to you. But you kept dodging and didn't want to see me. Yes I had to bring it again, and come here to turn this over now !".

Yoga shouted in front of the door like a madman, how could he say such a fulgar thing while shouting in front of people's houses. Didn't he think anyone else could hear. And it embarrassed me so much.

I went straight to the door and opened the door. Picked up my bra that Yoga showed me through the window.

" You deliberately want to embarrass me, and make the neighbors again scorn me because my underwear is left in your house?, are you not satisfied to hurt and make a wound in my heart?, he said?, you deliberately want to make others judge me as a cheap girl who sleeps with all the men, and purposely leave my underwear for the man to come to my house?. You're deliberately going to talk like that out loud so everyone knows that I was last night at your house?".

As I was venting my emotions and getting angry at Yoga, it turned out that there was Bian standing in the dark, watching from a distance not too far from my position and Yoga.

Bian's gaze was so scary, only this time I saw Bian that angry." So this is the truth?, last night you were at Steve's house?, didn't you say you went home?. You lied to me, Ra..?".

" We're getting married, Ra. It's only a few days away, but you're not being honest with me, Ra, you keep a secret this big. How can you stay at Steve's?".

" Steve's my best friend, and he's got a wife, he's getting married to Utari, you and him, what you guys did last night until you left your bra there !", Bian grabbed the bra I was holding.

" This is how you bra got left behind in Steve's house?, is it because you feel guilty about me because of what you did with Bian last night, so that you purposely hugged my motorbike and sat stuck to my body?".

" I have tried to accept you who are no longer virgins, I have accepted and covered all your shortcomings from my family, and from everyone. But in fact cheap women are still cheap !"

Then Bian pulled me into my room, forcibly unwrapped my clothes because he wanted to see what my body was like. I tried to keep Bian from taking my shirt off, he would get even more angry if he saw the red marks Yoga made last night on my chest.

" Don't Bi.. I beg you not to do this Bi.", I cried, thrashed forbid Bian to take off my shirt.

Until the shaking I felt in my body, and the sound of Bian calling my name made me realize.

" Ra.. conscious Ra.... wake up Ra.... wake up...., what are you dreaming Ra?"

I opened my eyes and immediately sat on the table. I'm still in my room, and I'm still wearing my face. Juna and Shaka stood behind Bian who was crouching in front of me. They both looked at me with confused looks.

" What dream sister?, how to shout like that, so do not sleep during this maghrib time, so no nightmares". Shaka lectured me while giving me a glass of water to drink.

So all of this was just a dream. Oh my God, I've been so afraid Bian is mad at me, because Yoga took it all apart.

I drank the water that Shaka gave to the toilet, took a deep breath and let out slowly. " Yes, my sister exhausted Maghrib felt very sleepy. Until it does not feel sleeping on the prayer mat and still wear mucus like this".

I took off the face I was wearing. And I fold it originally. " I'm sorry, sister had a nightmare".

Bian looked at me fixedly, "What dream?, must have been a dream with me huh?, you were screaming 'don't Bi..', what did I do in your dream earlier?".

I just shook my head, "No papa, I dream you want to leave me" I replied lying. I had to lie again, because there was no way I could tell the real Bian.

Bian hugged me.

" You are so afraid that I will leave you. Take it easy, I will not leave you, until death separates".

Bian won me over by patting me on the back. It feels so peaceful to be in this position. I feel grateful because Bian always makes me feel calm when my heart is agitated.