Healing
21. Budget

After Shaka went into his room I said goodbye to mom and dad to go into the room to sleep. Tomorrow is Sunday, maybe the work at the restaurant tomorrow will be very tiring, because usually on Sunday restaurant visitors are more than usual days.

Most guests come on that Sunday a family that deliberately eats out, or runs out of travel and is lazy to cook. Or a couple who's out on a date, stop by to eat together. Habit I've been very memorized because every week always so.

Which makes me happy, if Sunday there is no order for delivery order to the company or school, because everything is off, if there is most delivery order to the house of people, because, and don't carry too many boxes of rice as if the order is from the company. Most bring some cooking menu for the event at home.

I checked my phone, there was no message from Bian, surely he was still on his way to his parents' house, because it was only a few minutes Bian came out of this house, he must still be on the bike. Most recently about one kilometer of distance that has been occupied. Because Bian said he felt bad for not riding his bike for a long time.

While lying on the bed, I remembered Bian's words earlier, he wanted to be able to dance with me on a motorbike, I so imagine what if I and Bian ride a green ninja motorcycle, with Bian's body medium height, and I hugged behind him from behind as Bian had imagined. It would be very romantic.

I thought I didn't feel like I was asleep in my room. Tau-tau when I opened my eyes, it was morning, and the crowing of my pet chicken was crowded with each other. Usually it's a sign if the mother is giving her chickens a meal.

Mama always feeds her chickens early in the morning, usually feed the rest of the rice yesterday in a little chicken feed.

I got up from my sleep and walked to the bathroom, took a morning shower and prayed at dawn, only then I went back again to help mama cook for us all breakfast.

" Is Shaka still sleeping ma?, how quiet?, usually early in the morning Raya must have awoken because mama was screaming from the kitchen woke up Shaka who was still sleeping in the room", I said while peeling quail eggshells that have been boiled, because I want to cook with potatoes that are mama peeled skin as well.

" Shaka has gone to the mosque for morning prayers jama'ah, his friends on nyamperin here, he said after the morning prayers, they continued the morning walk to the rice fields to see the sunrise", my mother explained.

I just nodded, I felt that now my son Shaka was getting bigger, and he was no longer the usual little Shaka. I often worry that one of Shaka's friends has been told by his parents that Shaka is actually my son, hopefully that never happens, and hopefully that's just my fear.

If anyone told me, Shaka would be very confused, and he would probably hate me.

" You've asked Bian how his parents respond?", the mama who was chopping potatoes, suddenly asked about Bian to me.

I haven't even checked my phone since this morning, it's still in the carge on the little desk in my room.

" Kingdom has not been Ma, even have not checked HP since earlier, later only if you meet with Bian directly, this is a serious discussion, so can not pass the phone so Ma", my spoken.

Although it looks dissatisfied with my answer, but Mama still nodded as if understanding.

I saw Shaka coming home from the streets with his friends, still wearing a peci on his head and a sheath that had been removed and coiled around his shoulders.

" Dul did not stop?, breakfast at my house, surely mama has finished cooking at this time".

I heard that Shaka invited his friend to have breakfast at our house, but the friend named Abdul refused and chose to go home.

" Not Ka, it's noon now, my mother wants to take me for a walk to the beach, afraid of leaving bad luck if I stop by your house first", that's an answer from Abdul Shaka's friend.

I could see Shaka's face looking gloomy after hearing Abdul's reply. Indeed, Shaka has not been invited to sightseeing anywhere since the holidays, just eating out with family on Friday. It's also a celebration because I promised to treat him if he won the class again. And it really happened, Shaka my son is very intelligent and always a class champion. While tomorrow Shaka has started to busy leaving for his new school as a junior high school student. Today is indeed the last day of vacation after her graduation. That's why if today does not go, it means that Shaka's graduation vacation does not go anywhere.

Too bad for my son, sometimes I feel sad, because I can not grant all the wishes of Shaka which is actually very trivial.

Despite knowing the wishes of Shaka who hopes to visit during the holidays, but I can not grant it, the registration fee for SMP yesterday was quite expensive, not to mention that later you will have to pay for uniforms that all have 4 pairs, from OSIS uniforms, batik uniforms, sports clothes and scout clothes, to name a few, all of that should be redeemed a maximum of a week after the children start going to school.

Indeed, I already have a budget for it, from the savings I collected little by little during this time, but not only that is also Shaka's need, I have to buy new shoes for him, too, he said, because the old shoes are too small. I think my spending is a lot. Therefore even though I knew Shaka wanted to take a vacation, I remained silent and pretended not to know. It will take a lot of money if you want a vacation. And the holidays are not included in the budget that I have made in advance.

Forgive your ill-fated mother, this is my son, I should be working harder, or looking for additional work to earn more income to grant your wish.

After drying clothes, I went to the restaurant, because it was 8 and a half hours, I had to arrive at the restaurant at 8. Although the trip from my house to the restaurant only takes 25 minutes, just in case to get to the restaurant is not too timed.

Mama's motorcycle matik that used to be installed every month for 3 years now I always use, this very old motorcycle, but still comfortable to wear, and also never broke down, I always use it, because papa every month does his own maintenance on this motorbike and also papa motorbike. Papa can indeed fix the motor, because he knows enough about the engine. That's why even though I ride an old motorcycle that is older than Shaka's year of birth, it's still good to ride.

Indeed, all this time I worked, but the results were not much, that was to help meet daily needs, and also the cost of Shaka and Juna schools, because that was until I was 26 years old, there is not a single item that I have bought, unlike my friends who can buy motorcycles, can buy jewelry or can rehabilitate their parents' homes to be better.

All of those things to date are too fancy for me. Being able to eat every day and being able to send my sister and children to school until the follow-up has made me very grateful.

I'm not grandiose and never had the desire to be able to buy this and it's like other friends, in my belief that if I would have it all, I would have it, I would have it, and if it is not in destiny to have, it means it is not lucky. That's all simple and do not need to be dizzy.