Healing
30. A Different World

I don't know why today so many events that make me want to speed up the wedding date. In addition to Bian who might have been eager to unite with me, plus Yoga that continues to disturb my life.

It was possible that by speeding up the wedding date, I could live in peace. Bian could completely vent his desire to unite with me, and Yoga would no longer dare to interfere with my life.

All the way home from Yoga's office, that's the only way out I've found. Maybe getting married is the best way to solve all the complexities in my life.

My old life was complicated, I thought it was all over, and it wouldn't be complicated again. Unfortunately, when a good man comes and accepts my lack of circumstances, the past I thought was over reappears.

I don't know why the pain and sadness that I have managed to ponder deeply, it is now beginning to be revealed again, because the perpetrators of crimes in the past have reappeared in my life.

I must become a new person, so that my life does not continue to be oppressed by them, bad people who like to hurt my heart.

Thiii....

The sound of car horns blasting my daydream.

" Sir, if you want to dream not in the middle of the road, endanger other riders, move aside first, if you finish daydreaming just bring another vehicle!", shouted a father-father from his car.

Today I was really fucked. True also the words of the fathers, I moved to the park which was not far from the crossroad. I parked the motorbike I was driving, and sat on a cast bench in front of the park.

It feels like otaku is not able to focus, am I overreacting to all this?, I think my attitude is still reasonable.

" Kak Raya... What else is there?".

I met Shaka in front of the park.

" You're alone, what's the matter here?", I asked, because Shaka was walking with two of his schoolmates.

" Yes go home from school, brother, but the money for the angkot was to make a photocopy of the task, so go home on foot, fortunately there is a fate, so there are friends on foot", said Shaka while grinning.

O Allah, I have great pity on my son, his allowance is not enough to just go home and take the angkot. Had your father known what you were going through, he would have been unwilling and snatched you from mom. Forgive me for not being able to give your best.

Look at your father who owns a company whose office is not far down the road, working in a cold room and air conditioner, everywhere I ride in a luxury car, while we both, we both, I have to live life like this. Really sliced....

It's really like living in a different world, you shouldn't see your father again, if you live in a different world. Why you should see your father again.

" This you use to ride the angkot with your friends, want the brother inter, but in the boncery of the motorcycle there is a box, so can not make a boncery".

I handed over 20 thousand bills from Ms. Siska who she did not want to receive earlier. This may be a fortune for Shaka.

" No need to brother, besides we also while walking, exciting also go home to school on foot, while all washing your eyes", declined Heru, a friend of Shaka whose house is not far from our house.

" Yes, it must be money to deposit into the restaurant right?, the proof is taken at the fold of the restaurant beal. But if you may know, why is your sister here?", Shaka asked again.

I put the 20 grand in Shaka's uniform pocket, "Make your grip, fear of anything happening in the street. Sister had sent food to the office at the end of the road there, but because it was a bit dizzy, so move aside first, the danger of bringing the bike fit again is not fit", I answered looking for an excuse.

" Want Shaka buy headache medicine first sister?, maybe Kak Raya last night lack of sleep, so fitting in given the task of working anter hot food like this so dizzy his head" Shaka murmured.

I just nodded, "It might be true, but don't buy medicine, you've gone out, you're going back to the restaurant. You guys be careful on the road, do not stop by, later not until the mother's house can worry" I said while wearing a helmet and turning on the motorcycle I brought.

" Brother first yes", I drove at medium speed.

" Thank you Kak Raya.!", I can still hear Shaka's cry saying thank you to me just because I gave 20 thousand money.

10 Minutes later I arrived at the restaurant.

" Tumben really long nyampenya, I've been up since an hour ago loh Ra..., when our delivery distance is the same, is there a problem?", Rita was the first to see me when I went into the kitchen.

" No problem, my head is a bit dizzy, so I take the bike slowly" I replied for the same reason.

I know Bian has been watching me since I returned to the restaurant, he must have been listening to my conversation with Rita as well. That's why I prefer to find a reasonable reason. That's a headache.

I was just grimacing, "no papa kok Rit, rest later at home, soon it was also the change of shift, so I just sat here. Who knows if there suddenly is

many visitors came", I replied in a weak voice.

Not that I pretended to be weak, in order to convince Rita that I was really dizzy, but my heart and mind were really tired with the series of events that I experienced all day.

" Yes, just sit here, I'll make you some sweet tea?".

I shook my head as Rita offered me some sweet tea. I don't need anything right now, all I need is rest.

Rita really handles all the work until the shift change. In the afternoon, the guests were not too many. So casual work.

" We go home now Ra.", Bian's voice came from behind me, his hand holding my shoulder that was leaning on the chair.

I nodded, "I took my bag and jacket first in the locker", I replied as I walked towards the locker.

" Actually, why Mas Bos?, the engagement ends all day his face is bent. Is there anything I don't know about the boss?".

I heard Rita ask Bian what happened to us. But I walked further and further towards the locker, and did not hear what answer Bian gave to Rita.

When he came out of the locker, Bian was still waiting for me, while Rita had gone home first.

While piggybacking on the motor, Bian deliberately drove his motorbike quickly, passing the road that led to my home. Bian took me home.

" I have permission from my mom and dad to take you to my house, because I have something to talk to you about".

I looked at Bian who was talking while driving the motor quickly.

We went down and entered Bian's house, a house large enough for the size of a single bachelor who occupied it alone.

" I'm sorry if I was impressed with my desire the same as you were this morning, were you so scared and angry with me?, until you purposely avoided me all day, I'm sorry Ra, I'm sorry Ra, I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have treated you like this morning".

Bian crouched down in front of me who was sitting in the living room seat of his house.

" Bi. may be right your speech, we should speed up the wedding date, do not need a fancy party, which is important legitimate. Because I'm worried, we both can't keep our parents' trust".

" You love me and vice versa, if we're just like this, between my feelings and your feelings of mutual love, number three is lust, we're both normal human beings. I'm not being pretentious by resisting your wishes, because I actually want the same thing as a normal woman".

" But I've made such mistakes in the past, I don't want to repeat them. Quite a time I became trash in the eyes of others, because in every event of pregnancy outside marriage, the woman who gets a greater loss, and inevitably has to bear all the results of her actions".

" The man will not leave any stripes on his body after doing so, unlike the woman who will obviously accept the consequences of his actions".

" We speed up the date of the wedding, or we get married religiously first?, try to talk this over with your parents Bi".

Bian nodded, I'll call mom tonight. I will confess all my actions to you this morning to mother, surely mother will be able to understand and agree to marry us as soon as possible" said Bian.

I nodded in agreement, maybe sooner would be better.

" In that case, I will also tell my mom and dad about this, hopefully they can understand".

Bian hugged me tightly. The pecking of my forehead, right cheek, left cheek and last empties into my lips. Bian's house is empty, only he is a person who occupies this house, only occasionally his mother and father visit, which is why this house is very quiet.

" I went to the kitchen first, Ra, I made you dinner, so you'll come home after dinner here. What do you want to eat?, spaghetti, fried rice, soup, seblak, capcay, or what do you want?".

I smiled at Bian's attitude that was so attentive to me, offering me a wide variety of dishes. He's a cook, everybody admits it.

" Make a little bit of Bi, let me help you cut the vegetables" I said as I walked into the kitchen.