Healing
56. Dilemmas

I turned off my phone and put it on the dresser in my room, and tried to sleep, but somehow I couldn't sleep either. The shadow of the incident last afternoon with Bian and the shadow of the incident with Yoga made my brain continue to think of the two of them.

In 15 days I will be married to Bian, I hope I don't change my mind because of the kindness Yoga has done to me. After all Yoga is good because I have taken care of her son to this extent.

Not.. but not because of that, Yoga is always trying well even though the edges actually make me upset. And again he will also soon be married, the same as me, no matter what these feelings that arise in my heart. It was as if there was a sense of unwillingness because the father of my son was going to have a marriage with another woman.

Why am I?, when I myself will also soon marry another man. And I also told Yoga to no longer interfere with my life. But why is my heart now feeling restless...

Is it because of the transfer of 50 million I became like this?, am I easily affected just because of the remittance from Yoga. Am I like any other materialistic woman?.

It's not like that, it's not because of the money that I feel like this, but because of Yoga's attitude and good intentions that still think about Shaka, that's what makes me like this. I thought Yoga was a shitty guy, but there was a good side to him.

Because I can't sleep, I took my HP back and surfed in the Maya world, I opened the photos when I climbed in Rinjani, and I realized, just realized, at all times it turns out that Yoga is always looking at me. What other friends do not suspect him, or they are not aware of the attitude and gaze of Yoga.

Riko and Haidar already knew that I was the first love of Yoga, and they agreed not to discuss the matter again for the common good. And I'm grateful for that.

The four of them, hopefully, will remain friends of brother taste until the end of their lives. I feel very unworthy to be the cause of the damage to their friendship. And I must not feel the slightest sympathy with all the treatment of Yoga to me. No matter how good he is, I have to keep my heart to Bian. Well... Bian my future husband.

I subconsciously closed my eyes and finally slept well.

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In the morning as usual I went to

the restaurant along with Bian, Bian picked me up a bit of misfortune, making us arrive at the restaurant also bad luck.

By the time I arrived, Riko had already started breefing in the meeting room. I felt bad for the others, but as usual, no one dared to reprimand me, because my personal driver was their boss. If you dare to blame, the driver is guilty of being late to pick me up.

Today there are many delivery order requests, as usual, delivery order Monday is very much, because Monday is the day that everyone is busy on the move after the weekend holidays, because, and most of them are busy preparing for work and do not have time to cook. Being Monday is also so busy for restaurant employees like us.

Semua sudah mendapatkan pemberitahuan tentang pekerjaan masing-masing, aku yang datang terlambat harus bertanya pada Riko dan Riko hanya memberikan daftar tugasku mengirimkan makanan.

It turns out there is an order from Yoga's company, I have to how, do I go there and say thank you for the money transfer here, or I ask to exchange tasks with others, but I felt bad, the look on the faces of other friends was no fun from the beginning. Maybe because I was late and didn't come clean this morning.

Want to ask for a place to exchange food delivery also so it feels bad. Yes, I finally agreed with the task of sending food to Yoga's office.

At 10 I was ready with the motorbike in the restaurant, the other friends also did the same. There are 4 places that I have to go one way, and the Yoga office is the last destination because it is the most distant.

Riko and Bian had also left since this morning, there was a meeting with a large company to work together to prepare dishes for the company's birthday event.

One by one I between the orders of the bookers, and stay one more place to the Yoga office, the order is not a Yoga secretary, because the name is different from before, maybe one of the Yoga employees who ordered. And I hope I don't meet Yoga later.

I handed the order to the buyer, not forgetting the receipt of proof of payment. The man thanked me while looking at me.

" Your mother is similar to the girl in the photo uploaded the same as his future wife, Mr Steve, yes?, really similar, or is it true mbaknya that person?, all employees always follow the posts of our young Boss, because so many idolize the figure of a young CEO who owns a very handsome company like Mr. Steve".

" Many want to be close to Mr. Steve, to the various ways the female employees who so admire him, but Mr. Steve is very cold and always indifferent, he said, had she not been engaged and almost married to the dentist, she would have been eager to approach the young boss".

I just listened to the person talk without responding, maybe that person is indeed a type of gossip, so that the person who just met was invited to gossip about his boss.

" I'm sorry mba, I'm sorry, I still have to go back to the restaurant, afraid of being angry with the boss if you don't go back and forth" said I stopped the man's speech.

" Yes just back, mba Susi is a gossip, will not be finished-finished if she gossiped", muttered the male employee whose desk beside the mba whose name is Susi.

I'm just smiling.

" Heh Tomi, if you say anything, what is different then?, just like a gossipmonger too", protested Mba Susi to the employee sitting at the table next to him.

I also left the two Yoga employees who were still arguing, but they did not ask about me who was similar to the girl in the photo with Yoga. Fortunately, the man did not question him again.

When I got to the receptionist, I saw Yoga coming out of the elevator with the secretary and a male employee talking about something with Yoga.

" It's Master, yesterday everything was done. What you told me to do" said the male employee. I can hear her.

I deliberately walked quickly so as not to cross paths with Yoga, but unfortunately the male employee could see and recognize me. I don't know who that person is, but he told Yoga my whereabouts here.

" Great Lady can stop for a moment!", exclaimed the man as he chased after me and stopped my swift pace.

I saw Yoga talking to his secretary and they parted ways. Yoga pulled my hand forward, the car was there, and the driver inside immediately told Yoga to get out.

" I can't go with you Ga, I have to go back to work" I said a little panicked, because Yoga immediately gasped out of the office.

" But we need to talk to Ra, I just found out that if our kid is already in high school, I want you to tell me a little bit about my son".

" I've known nothing about my son Ra... I'm not gonna force you to say that I'm the father, but you have to explain why our son became the son of your parents?".

I'm not surprised if Yoga finally finds out about Shaka, it's possible that he's telling people to investigate my life. And he already knows the fact that my son calls me brother.

Yoga stopped his car on the lonely roadside. And looking at me who has been busy thinking about whether or not to explain Yoga.

" I'm not going to explain anything to you Ga, not now or any other time, we better go back to your office right now Ga, I have to go back to the restaurant immediately, or Bian will realize I haven't been back since".

" Please understand my position now, I won't tell you anything about anything, because to me, you're nobody. And you have no right to ask anything about my son".

" Don't doubt you've transferred enough money, and you think you're entitled to my son. I'm his mother, and I'm his only parent. I'll give you back the money you sent yesterday, take it easy everything is still intact and I won't wear a dime".

I tried to open the door to Yoga's car, but it was locked.

" Alright I won't ask you, but don't blame me if I'm looking for information in my own way" Yoga said as he pushed back his car and took me somewhere, I am no stranger to these streets. Like the road to Junior High where Shaka School is. Don't tell me Yoga wants to take me to meet Shaka. No, I don't want the secrets I've kept for a dozen years to be revealed.

I tried to stop Yoga from continuing to do his car at high speed. Actually I do not want to give any explanation to Yoga, but I am confused, I do not want Yoga to meet with Shaka, this all makes me a dilemma....

" I don't want to go to Shaka Ga. She doesn't know anything about us, she only knows that I'm her older sister. I've been trying for a dozen years to keep this secret. Please don't unload everything I've saved with great difficulty. Yoga!, okay do you want what I do, but don't involve Shaka !".

Yoga immediately slammed the steering wheel to the left and braked suddenly. Making my heart almost dislodged so scared to hear the squeaking of the car tire on the brake suddenly.