Healing
15. Confession 1

The next day as usual I leave for the restaurant at 8 am, the restaurant is open at 9 am, but usually we employees will clean the restaurant first, from cleaning furniture such as tables, chairs, displays, and floors, all cleaned.

As part chef/cooker, will start preparing all the ingredients, wash vegetables, meat and prepare all their combat tools, such as knives, cutting boards, basins, pans, sodets, burnt tools, etc, and other commonly used cooking tools.

The restaurant is indeed a place that should always look neat and clean because it is used as a place to eat. Customers will be more comfortable and comfortable if eating in a neat and clean place.

Usually we will do a briefing if we have finished cleaning everything, from all employees, both in the kitchen, the cashier, the waitress and hygiene section, and the, everyone will gather to listen to the directions from Bian as the restaurant owner, or from Riko the restaurant manager.

" Today is Saturday, for the morning shift there will be a reserfasi place of 3 groups, 10 o'clock there will be a use of room A, for meetings from TUV companies, for the cooking part, for the cooking part, their lunch menu is already on the kitchen chart".

" At 11, room B has been reserved on behalf of Bu Ani for the event, food reservations for 30 members, and the menu has been written also on the kitchen chart".

" For the group to 3 room A will be re-used for the anniversary event, reservation on behalf of Sherly Munafi, 2 o'clock, decoration becomes our responsibility, the, so at 1 o'clock some employees go to room A to decorate the room".

" At 11.30, two waiters, Rita and Raya there is a delivery order request in two places, Rita you send rice boxes to the company DEF, and Raya send to SMP Negeri 1. Can you understand all the tasks today?".

All nodded in understanding, and the meeting broke up, the employees put themselves in their respective parts.

Riko the manager is always meticulous and deft with his work, he always records everything in detail and detail. Because of his help, the restaurant owned by Bian became more advanced.

Actually Riko is still Bian's cousin, he graduated from D3 management at one of the private universities in the city of Semarang. And now he's been working at Bian's restaurant as a restaurant manager since the beginning of the restaurant.

Riko and Bian sepantaran, therefore as cousins they also become close friends. Riko being the safest place for Bian to confide in personal matters, including his love for me, Riko already knew that.

But Riko's friend confided in her who can keep a secret, which is why Riko never told me if actually Bian has a very long crush on me.

The routine goes on as usual, serving restaurant guests and serving them food. During the day deliver delivery order to SMA Negeri 1, back to the restaurant, help other waitresses serve lunch that if the meal hours like today the restaurant will be very full of visitors.

At half-time I moved to room A because it was assigned to help decorate the room for birthday celebrations.

In room A there were two other employees, and I went inside to help blow and install balloons and birthday trinkets.

I saw Bian coming in to help us decorate the room. He carried a box of cardboard boxes containing souvenir boxes in pink and white ribbons on top.

" Aren't you done yet?, soon the guest will come" it turns out Bian brings a souvenir in the form of a beautiful bowl with steamed brownie contents in it. Really Bian and Riko are always creative and innovative, making customers not bored quickly and even more subscriptions in this restaurant.

" It's almost the boss's finish, just install it" replied one of the employees who was sticking a balloon to the wall.

" Decorations are in order, sovernir is in order, birthday cakes and lunch are also ready. Good that you are all the best" .

I heard Bian praising us employees, he was the most able to make our hearts happy, because even though only with that praise we were feeling very tired as if we were fit again, fatigue is like yawning and just disappearing.

The tenant of the room has come and looks satisfied and happy to see the decorations we have made. A beautiful birthday cake with the number 9 on it, and also a beautiful souvenir.

" Thank you all, I love it all" the little girl who had her birthday thanked us.

" Mommy.., next year Sherly wants another birthday here" the little girl whined to her mother. I saw the mother nod and smile at us.

" Thank you very much, you all have prepared all this, and my daughter loves it very much".

I say goodbye to returning to my job. The two employees who were with us were getting ready to welcome guests who came for the birthday event, by giving cone hats and also masks for the little children who came and went into room A.

" When it's time to go home, don't go straight home, Ra, I want to talk to you, continue the chat yesterday, can you?".

And when my work hours were done changing shifts with the night shift, I got out of the restaurant, Bian followed me and took me home together, opened the car door so I could get inside.

" Later we will not go straight home papa right Ra?, I'm curious to hear your story that you said I do not know".

I nodded in agreement, as I had been thinking about it all night and decided to be honest and talk to Bian as he was.

Bian is a good man, he is also handsome, his family is all good to me, just need to tell me my true circumstances. Whether later Bian will continue to like me or just be ilfil and away from me, all decisions I leave to him. The important thing is that I tried to be honest and open with him.

Isn't honesty and openness the most important thing as a start to a good and healthy relationship? .

Bian drove his car and deliberately parked it in front of one of the parks that were not too far from his restaurant.

" Want to go downstairs, and talk in the park, or where to talk?", Bian asked me.

" Here alone Bi.. in the car", I answered, opening the seat belt and pointing my body towards Bian who had been doing the same thing since then, facing me.

For a moment of silence, I was still thinking about where to start this conversation from, what from the time I knew Yoga, or the story after I gave birth to Shaka.

" So what is the story of you that I don't know?, how much is your secret?", Bian asked again.

" I'm not a good woman. I have lied to many people, including you Bi.., I have not been virgin, since I was in 9th grade Junior High" I said, a confession that made Bian's expression instantly turn grim. But I saw shortly afterwards he could neutralize his shock.

I saw Bian gulp down before he asked me again.

" Who is that man?, did he leave you after doing that with you?".

I shook my head. " He said he would take responsibility after we did it, but until now he never came back" I replied.

Bian seemed to be thinking, "It's been that long since he left, since you were in 9th grade, that means 12 years ago".

" Are you now able to understand why until now I have not been able to get married?, I do not want to lie to my future husband, about my status is still a girl, about my status is still a girl, and I do not want to lie to my future husband, about my status is still a girl, but the truth is I'm no longer a virgin" I said.

" Sooner or later it will be found out too, right?, I don't want to deceive anyone. Now you can hate me Bi. and start learning not to like this bad me".

Bian seemed to breathe a long breath, I saw he was shocked at the beginning, but now he looks ordinary.

" I don't mind that as a woman, you are a great woman. Dare to acknowledge your true circumstances in the beginning. Not trying to cover up your shortcomings".

" If other women are in your position, maybe they will be silenced to stay married, after marriage, their relationship will continue or divorce, which is important is married. If it goes on and her husband accepts it means his luck. If suddenly divorced, they also have no loss, bearing the status of widows, they benefit from the marriage. Because it managed to cover up its shortcomings that are not virgin".

" So I won't change my feelings, I still like you Ra, is that all your problems?, you say a lot I don't know" asked Bian.

I shook my head, "Not only that, there's still a lot you don't know".

" What else?", Bian was still curious.

And I continued, because Bian said it doesn't matter for the first reason.

" Because of the mistake I made at the time, I was pregnant and had Bi's child" I replied.

This time Bian looked glared while covering his gawking mouth, he must have been very shocked to hear my second confession.