Healing
149. Sulking

The POV

Today I spend my time with Shaka from morning until late afternoon, I deliberately do that because tomorrow Shaka has gone to Jogja. However, I did not want Shaka to feel so shocked when he was away from me and Yoga.

All this time Shaka has never lived and lived alone, which is why as a mother I feel worried about my son's condition later.

After shopping we had lunch together at a fast food store, lunch which eventually became a reunion between me and Kiki, my childhood friend.

We went home and reached home at 3pm. Syifa was sulking and angry at me for not taking her away. Even Syifa did not want to ask Shaka, probably because we both went together all day. Hopefully Syifa will heal quickly, because tomorrow Shaka is gone, it will feel strange if separated when Syifa is in a state of scolding.

" Beautiful Syifa, brother Shaka bring Syifa chocolate to Syifa's favorite marshmellow, can Kak Shaka come in?"

It turned out that Shaka tried to enter Syifa's room by bringing two chocolate bars and two packs of marshmellow which he deliberately bought in the minimarket before Maghrib.

I was the one who wanted to take Syifa to dinner together so as to undo my intentions, and preferred to stand by to see the brothers reconcile with each other. Fortunately, Shaka was grown up when I gave him a sister, so there was never a fight drama or toy grab like other families who had children with close age.

When Shaka was a baby I just focused on taking care of Shaka, as well as when Syifa was a baby, I just focused on taking care of Syifa, too, that's why I can feel happiness and pride whenever my children have a new ability, from learning on their stomach, then can crawl, sit, can walk, until now, every time my children have made progress, I feel very happy.

Moreover, Shaka's achievement could exceed the expectations I had imagined. During this time being a student at High School where Shaka only school has been heavy competition. But Shaka proved he can be the best graduate. He enrolled in a famous university in Jogja, even then he could be accepted through the path of achievement. Wasn't that a huge fortune to me.

In retrospect, Shaka was not expected to be present by everyone, until I was forced to abort him while still being a lump of blood. Shaka who after birth is only seen one eye by others. Now he's a great kid. He made himself a successful man, thus changing the way others view him.

I realized, nothing else and not all of that because of Yoga's support as his father. I used to think of Yoga as a cowardly, a liar, and a very annoying man. But in fact after we lived together, Yoga showed me what her true nature was like. Everything I thought about was wrong.

Yoga is a sincere man, he is loyal and responsible. A man who loves his family very much. And also hard workers. I who refused, even to the point of being forced to marry Yoga, now feel very lucky. Fortunately, I used to want to be forced, and want to marry Yoga even with the feeling of being forced.

I stood before the door of Syifa's room. Listen to Shaka who tries to apologize and take Syifa's heart with chocolate and her sister's favorite marshmallow.

I set my ears again, so that I could hear the conversation between the two of them from the door.

" So tomorrow Shaka's brother has gone to a faraway place?, can Syifa come with you?"

Syifa's voice sounded loud, since she could pronounce the letter 'r' correctly, Syifa was indeed more confident when talking to others.

" Can't come, you can go to school, there's not to mess around, and there's no kids at the new school sister, all the same age as the big brother, there's no kid, many are older than my sister".

" Syifa is at home, take care of mom and dad, because brother is in a far away place, and can not take care of father and mother, then the task of looking after father and mother brother leave it to Syifa".

I had a smile at Shaka's words, to make Yoga who was passing along to nguping Shaka and Syifa talk with me.

" If Syifa misses Kak Shaka how?, can Syifa play to Joja?".

" Of course Syifa can play to Jogja, but far away from the place, so if you want to play waiting father is not busy working, because make it there takes 7 hours drive. So for example Syifa departing from the house at 7 am, Syifa will only arrive at the new brother's residence at around 2 pm".

I peeked through the door, I saw Syifa's expression that seemed to be thinking.

" How much longer to Jogja than to the top of Kak anyway?, Kak Shaka should be his school in the peak area only, which deket Fila, so if kangen kak Shaka, then, Syifa can play to Fila as well as meet Mba Puput, hihihi", Syifa said while giggling.

I smiled hearing Syifa's innocence, her way of thinking was so simple. But there is also a point, if you live at the top can find a college place near Fila, so there is no need to go all the way to Jogja.

Why am I so influenced by the words of a child like Syifa, could Shaka think the same?.

" Can't be so Syifa darling... Kan at the top already many who know Kak Shaka, already many who know if the brother is the son of the father of Yoga, later there will be no difference the same as living and continuing school here. Brother just wants to find a new friend who has not known brother before, so Kaka has more friends".

Syifa seemed to understand.

" If you grow up later, Syifa also wants to go to school in Jogja like Shaka, so Syifa has many friends like Shaka".

" This is Syifa save first, sister, Syifa wants to eat chocolate and her marshmellow tomorrow, now Syifa is hungry and wants to eat rice. We eat out with dad and mom?", Syifa said while keeping chocolates and marshmellow Shaka in her desk drawer.

I immediately stood up and pulled Yoga's hand to go to the dining room, so as not to be caught if we were both eavesdropping on their conversation earlier.

" Slowly, dear dong, can fall if the road is hasty like this", Yoga held my hand so as not to run towards the dining table.

" Good night dear mother and father.", greet me when Syifa and Shaka are close to the dining table. Yoga and I of course immediately positioned ourselves sitting sweetly in our seats.

" Mommy is greeting me or greeting brother Shaka?, must be the mother's favorite brother Shaka right?, just now the mother went alone with the sister, did not invite Syifa ".

I smiled in my heart, it turns out Syifa is still angry with me, but I think after Syifa forgave Shaka, it means she has forgiven me too, it is not so, Syifa has not forgiven me, and still sulks.

" I say hello to you both, baby. I'm sorry again Syifa.wasn't mom went to school Shaka to attend school events, not a walk. I promise deh... tomorrow-tomorrow Syifa will take a walk alone with mom, wherever Syifa wants".

Syifa sat next to me holding out her hand, "Okay deal, I have to keep my promise to go both ways to where Syifa wants to go".

" Father's daughter Yoga is very good at taking advantage of the situation" I murmured.

Yoga laughed loudly when I heard him grumble.

" Yes mother promised" I said while receiving Syifa's hand.

After saying that and shaking hands, Syifa was willing to forgive me and we had dinner together.