Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Season 2 ~ Sick

" Oh yeah, you really don't papa, do you?"

" Well, I'm not papa."

" But you're pale."

" Ordinary, maybe because I don't wear makeup."

" A serious no papa? I'll take you to the doctor, will I?"

" No need to, thank you, I really don't papa."

" Yes, if so, I want to go back first, tell you if there's anything - what, you're worried about me."

" Hehehe, hearts are on the way."

" Thank you for the advice."

" Same, I'd be happy if you wanted to tell a story."

" Yes, I've done it, assalamualaikum."

" Neylorda."

After a long conversation with Isnan, the pain in my stomach never subsided.

God, why is this my stomach? why not ease the pain. Did I try to check into the clinic?

" Lol, I'm going to the clinic first, okay?"

" It still hurts?"

" Yes, the pain did not subside Lol. I'm afraid what pain it is."

" Don't do that, hopefully just a stomach ache just mbak."

" Yes Lol."

" Want to be won't mbak, we'll close the button for a while."

" No need Lol, the clinic is just next door."

" Yes, if so, call Loli directly if you want to be won?"

" Yes Lol, I'll go first?"

" Yes, yeah."

" Assalamualaikum."

" Neylorda."

Arriving at the clinic, I headed straight for the registration, fortunately deserted, so there was no need to queue.

After registering I was immediately called in for a check.

There was a beautiful doctor mother waiting for me inside, greeting me with her friendly smile.

" With Ayu's mom?"

" Yes buk."

" What's the complaint?"

" A stomachache in the lower left side of the buk."

" Well, let's lie there and I'll be tense."

" Good buk."

" How many days has it hurt?"

" If it's not wrong just two days buk, and the moon is late too, is it because it's buk?"

" Normally so?"

" Yes sometimes open, because my menstruation is not regular, sometimes a month can not come at all months."

Because of my complaint, the beautiful doctor massaged my stomach while lifting one leg.

" It's like there's a little bump. Gini aja, this is my prescription this drug, if up to the next three days do not come months, try mbak check up to the hospital yes, fear of this cyst, cysts, if you go to the hospital can it be more clear and can be treated immediately ?"

" Yes, thank you."

" Same - same mbak, may soon recover huh?"

" Yes buk, let me excuse you."

" Yes." Yeah."

I was shocked and scared, I was afraid of serious pain, my mind went where.

Out of the clinic, I lethargicly walked to the boutique.

Oh God what is this ordeal? I am afraid if I have serious pain, if I can still have children later, if I can not have children, surely mas Nirwan will leave me, I will not have children, imagining mas Nirwan with other women is very sick, what else if it really happened. Am I willing.

My tears can't be weathered anymore, I'm so scared if I really have a cyst.

I don't know what else to do, because now all I feel is fear.

" Loh mbak's? why mbak?"

Loli led me to sit on the sofa.

The picture is clear, anxiety and confusion on Loli's face.

Then I told Loli everything.

" Well if this is really a Lol cyst, and I can't have children, my husband will definitely leave me, I can't lose him Lol, hiks."

" So calm first yes, everything must be fine, mbak also definitely not why - napa."

" I'm scared of Lol, I'm so scared."

" Yes, I know."

" Em now gini deh mbak, how about you try a testpack?"

" Huh?"

" Yes mbak try to buy a testpack deh, mbak do not first take all this medicine. Mbak try the testpack first, if the result is positive means the lump may be fetal, and if the result is negative means it's a disease mbak."

" Yes, Lol, why don't I think so."

" Maybe because I'm not sure I'm pregnant yet."

" It may be Lol, because my husband told me he wanted the kid not long ago."

" It could be, if God had willed. But yes it had to be ready with all the possibilities."

" Yes Lol, I think I should try."

" But you have to prepare your heart, huh?"

" Yes Lol."

" I hope the result is positive."

" I don't want to expect too much Lol, I'm afraid I'm disappointed."

" I wish you all the best."

" Thank you Lol. Can't if I ask for help?"

" What do you ask me for?"

" Buy the testpack Lol?"

" Make mbak, what the hell can't. Yes Loli buyin now yes mbak."

" Yes Lol, thank you."

" Yes, same - same."

" Beware of being on the road, Lol."

" Yes to Ayu."

God maybe I don't want to be too hopeful because I'm afraid to be disappointed, but if I may ask, hopefully the result will be positive. If the result is negative, I don't know what to do.

I waited for Loli impatiently, I really wanted to test him immediately, so that the results would be seen immediately.

Ah I forgot, it seems I have to be patient until tomorrow morning, because according to what I read and what I know, the testpack is most accurate in the morning when I wake up.

Ahhh I can't wait.

Now I may have to prepare my heart for the worst, so that I do not panic, can think calmly in taking action, and what I should do later.

" No, I don't know which one is good, so I just chose this one."

" Yes Lol is not papa, after all the same function."

" I can't wait to know the result. Test now for me."

" Can't be Lol, he said that in order for the results to be accurate ngetesnya must be morning after waking up."

" Duh, I can't wait."

Sama Lol, what else I am, I have been deg-degannya from now.

" Today, after my husband you're the first person I've ever told you?"

" Are ya right, mbak?"

" Yes Lol."

" Duh, I really can't wait, want a quick night, keep early in the morning."

" You also don't expect much Lol."

" But I don't know why I'm so sure she's pregnant."

" Dry anyway?"

" Yes, yeah."

***

The time to go home has come.

I can't wait to know the outcome soon.

Maybe I don't have to tell you first mas Nirwan, later if there is a result I will tell you.