Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Chapter 15

Friends in solitude

Sadness is becoming my friend right now. When I feel alone I immediately think of Afif.

Because just by talking to her I would be comforted, I forgot my sadness and didn't feel alone.

My mother's departure, made me vent my dependence with mas Afif.

This is a good start, or it will be a painful one.

I'm the person who can't be alone, If you feel alone again will definitely find a figure that I think can be a back and a friend.

I'll find my phone soon. And I pushed the call button to call Afif.

And luckily for me, Afif immediately answered my call, it seems like he has also returned to school.

" Assalamualaikum deck,"

" Waalaikum salam mas, I'm home from school, right? what else, then,? not busy? I'm not bothering you?"

" Yes this just came home, again sitting on the deck. Not busy, not bothering either. Tomorrow again if it's one - one, right? don't rock it. Do you want to see Bonyok? "

" New in the question, not in the crackle of people se RT mas,"

" Emang adek want to mas in the keroyok people se RT? now it is not yet mas in keroyok, adek already cry, "

" Why know? "

" Tau is. What deck do you not know?"

" I don't cry, you know."

" In the ditch has started to lie, since when did this pinter lie?. Let's tell you why again, not been arrested - hold the deck. So happy to be relieved."

" Udah ah, the cry. My tears will run out, I can't cry anymore, "

" Deed you want to be happy deck, no cry anymore. Still crying again? "

" Yes, I cry when I miss you again. "

" I miss that when I meet the deck. Not even a cry. Do you miss healing just by crying? "

" In addition to heavy miss also sore mas. If the pain has not been able to hold it, cry itah, hehehe. "

" I miss you, huh ,? "

" I miss you. Very homesick. I haven't seen you in a long time, "

" Yes. If the exam is finished later do not play to your place, but later I will be angry, right? "

" I'm not going to get angry, I'm not home,"

" Where is mom? oh, my mom works on deck?"

" mother went to me. My mother followed my father to Lampung, I was left alone, "i said while crying. My cry broke again as I remembered my mother.

He said he didn't want to cry. But it turns out it can't be loud, and cry too. Let me say the same crybaby mas Afif.

" Huh!!!!? when is the deck, why not the story? "

" So we went, mas,"

" I don't know what else the deck has to say. You may be tired of hearing it. Adek must be strong, right? patience, do not feel alone there are still other families, and your friends. Maybe this is how God matures you. There's a rainbow after the rain deck. Trust me, I know you're very angry. You are disappointed with Father. Patience, when everything is done, you will be happy and will be reunited with your mother, "

" I hope so too, mas, "

" Dudahan dong nangis nya, if adek again nangis gini mas so want to run there continue to hug adek."

" Yes ran geh here, even good. I can hug mamas."

" I want to."

" Well, hehehe."

" Ih basic."

" What's the deck again?"

" Over in the room."

" Not changed clothes yet? must be crying?"

" Well that's how it is, I cry, mas, little - little cry. I'm not ashamed of having a girlfriend who brags about a rich kid?"

" What the deck is, crying doesn't mean that a child knows. Even mas seneng adek venting the pain of adek by crying, not hurting yourself. Sometimes even mas fear adek vent adek pain by hurting yourself."

" Yeah, I'm not that crazy."

" Therefore mas seneng, if only by crying can make the heart adek relieved, then crying is as full as possible, do not be detained. Mas did not forbid the deck, instead pinginnya every time adek nangis there I accompany."

" Well I don't know mas sometimes confused must be how, If it can still be detained it is not cry, but if in the chest already feel pain and a moment really can not be detained ya cry. Only then can I be relieved. Thank you, I've always been there for me, sometimes I'm embarrassed if the cry is the same mas. Hehe."

" Have shame too apparently, hehehe"

" I don't think I'm ashamed."

" Kidding deck."

" You know what, hehehe."

" Yes, you ate first, you haven't eaten, have you? can't be sick. Remember the test, "

" Later ah mas, not hungry yet kok. still want to talk."

" Yes, I can call again."

" Not hungry yet."

" Dec eat first gih, very difficult to say later if sick how? I'm not home, learn to take care of my own health."

" Yes mas. Started her fashion,"

" Yes, because you're me being a prankster,"

" Why is it because of me?"

" Long if in the clear, the point is yes bawel because - because adek if said in ngeyel."

" Yes, yes, then, in the future, Assalamualaikum."

" Yes deck, Waalaikum greetings, "

Oh yeah forget, how to eat people again fasting. Hehe.

I cleaned myself up to do my duty, and then I laid my body on the bed. I prefer to sleep. Until Yani came to wake me up. After Yani came, she took me out to eat. I refused because I was fasting.

After breaking the fast, we choose to study first and then later chat - chat. We studied long enough. After studying we discuss mas Bima and mas Afif. Ms. Yani is quite sensitive, because she did not ask me about my problems. He prefers to talk about something else to cheer me up. I took Ms. Yani to sleep in my mother's room. My reason is because it's wider. Actually because I miss my mom. But I didn't tell Yani. Let this sadness I feel. With me sleeping in her room, still lingering on her pillow and blanket, it was a bit of a cure for my longing for her.

I miss you, all day without your nagging seems like something's lacking.

I hope it's true, Mom's only been there for a while.

Here without you so lonely.

The house also feels quiet.

Getting used to being without you at all times is hard.

Your departure has inflicted its own wounds on my life.

But somehow this is not my fault, maybe this is the time for me to study independently.