Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Chapter 57

**Meet**

Overnight unable to sleep well, often waking up looking at the clock. Somehow last night it felt the longest night, had been up several times but did not visit in the morning.

Finally, in the morning - once I woke up, helped the sewage make breakfast and then cleaned myself.

Duh if you borrow a motorbike mbak Yani must walk to his house. Far away again, nyampe there must have been exhausted. I borrowed a bude motorcycle that was near easy - hopefully the motor is no longer used.

I'm looking for Bude's whereabouts next door, to borrow the bike and make sure the bike isn't in use.

Today luck seems to support me. Well bude motorcycle all day is not made so I can bring it. Can be taken without worrying if the house is a bit long.

After getting a motorcycle loan, then I gave the news mas Afif.

*Send a message to mbak Yani first ngabarin if not borrow his motorbike. He will wait - wait again.

📨*I

I didn't borrow the bike. I'm on a bude motorcycle. But if you want to follow yes use a mbak motor only.

📩Mbak Yani's

Why am I coming? I was a mosquito repellent. If there is me, you can't talk freely.

📨I

Prayer is a success yes mbak 😉

📩Mbak Yani's

Yes, just do not cry - cry later come home from there.

📨I

😁don't be so geh mbak, easy - hopefully not.

📩Mbak Yani's

Yes yes. Hopefully good yes.

📨I

Thanks mbak, you are indeed the best😘

After sending a message to Mbak Yani, then I called Afif.

The phone was connected but not picked up.

Where is Afif? why not in the lift, he did not intentionally want to avoid, right? ah that's not possible, he's not that kind of person.think positive just maybe he's busy again. I sent a message.

I'm honestly very scared. Afif was afraid that he would not meet me. Even though I have brushed that thought, I cannot deny the fear of reason it still exists.

📨I

So I met you, right? I'm leaving first. When I get to know.

I'm leaving soon too. With blue jeans, ash-and-ash shirts, red jackets do not forget also red pasmina. Well this time I decided to wear a hijab to make it look more polite.

I drive a red matic motorbike has a bude at a moderate rate. I stopped at one of the stalls to buy some hands.

I finally reached my destination.

*finally, the place is still the same as the last time I met him. Only now the trees are more shady so it feels cool. I just wait for Afif here, cold not hot.

📨*I

I have nyampe.

You're coming, aren't you? you're gonna meet me, right? plis mas don't let me down, I just miss you and want to meet. I just want to see you.

When the middle cool daydreaming with a mind that raved no reason. From before me as far as the eye could see, from a distance I saw men walking towards me.

Beautiful handsome guy. My heart was pounding irregularly, just like the beginning of the meeting.

Happy, moved, nervous, that's how I feel. I don't know if I'm nervous like this.

When the man was standing in front of me, I was confused to say what, I was moved. I want to hug her, I want to cry as she used to. But I realized that right now I'm nobody.

" Hey, how's the deck,"

" Em healthy Thank God, mas itself how? how come I'm getting it now?"

" Yes normal, his name is also a child kos an. Eat irit. Hehe. Have you been waiting for that, huh?"

" Not yet, just nyampe as well."

I was running out of words. I was really confused as to what to say.

Even if I can't hold you, I'm happy just to see you standing in front of me.

I can finally meet you.

" Deck?"

" Oh yes."

" Is there anything strange on my face, how much I see it."

" no, just me after a few years I finally get to see you again."

" Yes, we haven't seen him in a long time. You are also beautiful when wearing a hijab. Kurusan is now?"

" Not really. Still fat gini. How is my news?"

" Healthy thank God."

" well thank God that's it. Why did you come back?"

" Wouldn't the contract be extended again?"

" Why can?"

" Because my absence is ugly, it often doesn't come in."

" Must be because of bad luck, right? hahaha,"

" Yes, hahahaha."

" Not like to stay up late."

" If you forget the same time."

" That means you're not going back there again dong?"

" No, I'll just find a job here."

" Good, so I can see you again."

My last words could not be answered. It made me even more sure that I was no longer in his heart.

The conversation from earlier was also different, there was no warmth like before.

Honestly, my heart hurts so much. The person I love so much and miss seems to have forgotten the taste that once existed.

" Oh yes deck, it's noon I want to help you father."

" Yes mas. It's getting hotter too. Thanks for taking the time to meet me. This is a nitip for mom."

" Not bother with the deck."

" Not really."

" Thank you deck. Yes, I'm first."

" Yes, yeah."

I can't see him go away. I also directly start the engine and drive my vehicle.

I'm not coming home, I'm heading to Yani's house. Only he knew my story from the beginning with Afif mas, so his advice and opinions later might be able to reduce my disappointment and heartache.

It's my fault mas.

Because until now I still love you.

I'm still expecting you.

Although I have long prepared my heart for this, for today's events, why is it that my heart still hurts so much.

I don't blame you, though,

it's my fault for not being able to kill my feelings for you. So that it continues to grow, making me more hopeful for vain hopes.

This pain is incredible.

Again I was overwhelmed by reality.

A reality that is not as good as I expected.

After meeting him it was as if my pain had become real. The fact that we can no longer be together, it is a fact that makes me extremely ill.

Either this is God's plan, or the result of a mistake I once made.