Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Chapter 27
New number
" Assalamu'alaikum, "greet me. Then enter the house with a shunt step. Tired, walking away from school to home, under the hot sun. Really draining energy.
" Waalaikumsalam, eh already home nduk. tired huh? change clothes and keep eating. "
" It's so tired, so hot. I changed clothes first. "
Finished changing clothes, I immediately held the adek who just happened to wake up. His smile was already rich in the most powerful drugs, the antidote to all fatigue, and dizziness due to various difficult lessons and other problems at school.
Kuciumi all over his face with anxiety, but he laughed so much that it made me even more anxious.
" Hello, my hero. How naughty is not the same mom? Uhh I miss you so much. Only during my school. But I'm missing, I want to go home quickly. The school feels really long " While I'm holding it in front of the house. I asked him to talk.
Actually mbak lazy school deck. I want it at home with you. Being bullied at school makes me lazy to go to school. Cepet big yes my hero, so tomorrow if mbak bullly there are you who take care of mbak. There are you who defend me.
" No eating first? not tired what is directly carrying adek? "
" Not buk. Even tired of me missing if I play with him. At school if you want the adek immediately spirit, want to cepet home. I like kangen too, "
" Yes already ate there, that's your phone has been sounding continuously from earlier. Here adek let the same mother first. I want to be loved ASI too. "
" So good, I want to eat first. You also eat first, just like Mom. We'll play again, okay? don't cry, will you? uhhh pinter's son. "
Only he understands me. He smiled with eyes still staring at me.
I immediately rushed to pick up my phone, finished my meal, so I could play with my little one again.
đŠ Mz Afif
Hay mbak girlfriend, have you gone home from school yet?
This year, Afif graduated from High School, but he did not want to go to college. He's more likely to find a job. But I haven't got a job yet.
đ¨ Me
Already mas, dihh seneng yes mas girlfriend, not school anymore. No bother calculating the formula anymore. No dizzy thinking lessons, no need to wake up again, Hehehehe.
đŠ Mz afif
Yes deck, can be up by noon. Hahaha, but now switch giddy looking for deck work.
đ¨ Me
Just graduated yesterday, was dizzy thinking about work. The degree has not been taken. At home first aja mas, well help father mother first, while waiting for his diploma.
đŠMz Afif
Hehehe yes deck. But even confused at home to do. Help - help at home no one gives salary. Mana diomelin ibuk mulu. Haha
đ¨I
Yes yes too. Yes enjoyed by mas.Hehehe. So do not be recalcitrant, massage the same mother, let ibuk not nag. Was it before, mas? ntar tonight no longer calls. Now take care of this first.
After here, everything starts to change. I rarely call Afif anymore. If the afternoon after school is full keep the same help - help mom. Malemnya can not call for long because my father was angry if I kept calling. Lucky for me, Afif knew and never questioned it. It makes me happy.
Then I opened another message from a new number. The point is to ask for acquaintances.
đŠ+0812*******
Assalamualaikum, th,
What else is Yu?
*New number, whose number is this?
đ¨*I
Wa'alaikum.
Sorry who is this?
đŠ+0812********
I'm your underclassman.
đ¨I
đŠ+0812********
From your classmate, Rudi.
Turns out he was my junior in school. He got my phone number from cak rudi. How can my phone number be loved to people.
This is cak rudi how the hell, my number in love to people. Where didn't say tell me first. Wah this cak rudi is really make a bete, call ah, I think he needs to be atomized nih.
" Hello, assalamu'alaikum."
" Waalaikumsalam, what's wrong? "
" So, whose number do you give me? "
" Lah, I don't know, nduk,"
" don't lie, don't forget. There was a new number sms, he said he got my number from you. "
" Oh that, yes I remember. You know my boyfriend, don't you? "
" Yes, but forgot his name. "
" His name is Tofa nduk. Hah the new number, the theme is Tofa. And he told Tofa to make your number mintain to me. "
" What's the new number? "
" It doesn't know. Are you not yet nanya? "
" Haven't. I'm lazy to put on a new number. "
" Yes, you'll ask me later, but he'll want to wait."
" Yes later if not lazy. Yeah, I just want that. Assalamualaikum, "
" walaikumsalam ".
I don't care much about the new number. Males also nanya - nanya. At least just a prank. Because there are some guys also from another class who are modus nanya - nanya my number. But I ignore I know they're just pranks. I also just want to go to school in peace.
A few days have passed.
The new number is still sending me messages. Sometimes I do not reply, either. Although I have often ignored him, he still sends messages.
Finally his persistence and attention made me melt.
I also exchanged messages with him often.
His name is Randi.
As time goes on, we get closer.
It makes my relationship with Afif mas tenuous.
Even though I'm close to Randi we're not dating. He repeatedly expressed love but I repeatedly rejected him.
I'm still his girlfriend Afif.
I remember that status.
But do not know why I can not refuse the presence of Randi, even though I know it will make mas Afif hurt.
Loneliness, longing to not be able to meet, makes me look for new support.
This is not an error, because this I do with consciousness.
I know this is a mistake, but I still do.
Even though it was just a phone call and exchanging messages it made me ignore messages and calls from Afif mas.
While at school we never chat, at least accidentally cross paths or during rest hours, Randi deliberately sought me but he stole the view from a distance. My smile was a reply when she from far away saw me.
I'm not as brave as it is bright - the light of talking to Randi at school, actually a lot of dating at school during break time. But I'm not that brave.