Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Extra part 16

Once there, the show started. Through the side door I entered and wanted to join my other relatives.

As soon as I entered, I accidentally looked into someone's eyes at the very back bench. That person is also staring at me, our eyes are staring at each other. He was just as surprised as I was.

My eyes immediately glazed over. My tears are in the eye, I hold my strength so as not to drip.

Why when I can turn away from you, we are found again.

Handsome guy with a blue dongker shirt. A charming and kind-hearted paras I will never forget. The look in her eyes that I always miss. A smile that makes me fall in love. The man who used to always strive for happiness for me. Who takes care of me like a jewel, and loves me in a wonderful way.

*I can't forget you, I miss you a lot too but I never thought we'd be found here.

Mas Afif, I'm glad to see you're okay. I'm glad to see you again after so long.

But I can't greet you like I used to. I'm so embarrassed to just say hello to you*.

My heart and my mind were muddled, until I did not realize that his Ijab qobul was finished. Fortunately mas Nirwan with Adi ntah they sit where. If Nirwan knows, it could be a world war.

After the show finished, Yani changed her dress for the next reception.

Before Yani came out, I went to her room to see her.

Mbak Yani already wears a very beautiful dress, with the greedy she eats while bribed one of her fairy assistants.

" Here let me take a bribe." I said politely, asking for the plate in his hand.

" Oh yes, this is mbak." Said the fairy assistant.

" Happy new life my dear mother, who became the queen of a beautiful day anyway."

" Thank you Yu, you are also beautiful today."

" Don't bother me."

" Tumben you're a real natural, his clothes are polite too?"

" Well that's how it is, mas Nirwan asked."

" Hahaha tastes good too, usually you like to wear a pres on the body."

" So yes, but asked to change, can't dance, this is it, complicated what he said."

" But you fit in this, natural and beautiful."

" cooked?"

" Yes." Yeah."

It was me and Yani in that room, because the fairies had already gone to decorate the groom.

" She's in front." My tears were shed in front of Yani. I spilled all the tightness in my chest that I felt right now.

Mbak Yani has memorized well, who can make me cry like this besides him.

" I did invite Yu over, but I didn't think he'd be coming now."

" I saw it, mbak, I saw it. Why do I have to see you again."

" I know it's not easy for you to open your heart again. Once you can find it again. You have to take care of the hearts of others, right? I'm sure you can, I also know you can't forget."

" Staring into his eyes my memory of him, all rose up again. I miss him a lot too, I'm happy to see him okay. But to be honest I miss him but I can't even go near him to ask that is very painful. I wanted to hold her for the last time but I couldn't. There's Mas Nirwan now, I have to keep his feelings."

" That's all you know, don't cry." Ma'am Yani stroked my back to calm me."

" Yes." Yeah."

" I know you can."

Not even my tears were dry, it turned out that Afif went into the room to look for Yani's mother.

Deg.

Deg.

Deg.

Looking at it up close, my heart was beating just like the first time I met.

With a sweet smile she congratulated Mbak Yani.

He greeted me before he came home.

" Hey how are you?" Afif asked me.

" Okay, what are you doing?" I asked back. It was so heavy my lips to answer her, my tears were already unbearable.

" Alright, yes I said yes Yan sorry can not linger long." Said.

" Well, papa, thank you for coming." Answer mbak Yani.

She returned with a sweet smile again.

As she turned around and walked out of the room, my tears drenched my cheeks again.

I hope it's our last meeting mas, although I miss, want to meet you, I hope we don't actually meet.

In fact, even though there has been a mas Nirwan in my life, meeting you again like this I can not afford. It still hurts. There was guilt, also longing, wanting to say hello to you, but I was ashamed of what I had done first. How can I answer what you'll ask later.

Maybe after today's meeting, we'll never see each other again.

Take care of yourself - well, be happy always.

I used to want to be the last woman in your heart, but that was just a wish that would never come true.

The truth is I was your first boyfriend, but not your last love.

I sincerely wish you happiness always with me.

Hope you find someone who can make you happy.

To be honest I'm still selfish, even though I'm not alone anymore, imagining you being with someone else is very painful. In the corner of my heart there was a feeling of unwillingness.

" You must be strong, he said. Later if her eyes are not beautiful anymore."

" E."

" Yes, I'm ahead, it looks like the next show is about to start."

" Yes, yeah."

" You just join Nirwan so as not to inget Afif continue."

" Yes, I say yes mbak, can't be long, I have to go back to work."

" Aren't you waiting for the show to finish?"

" No mbak, the important thing is to see mbak, I'm already seneng."

" Wouldn't wait until the show is over. But yes no papa, heart - heart on the road. Thanks for coming."

" It's the same - the same thing."

After Yani came out, I looked for Nirwan mas, it turns out he was talking with his friends Adi.

I didn't wait for the show to finish, I said to go straight home because I wanted to go back to work, I couldn't stay there for long.

My thoughts are chaotic again, maybe with mas Nirwan will improve.

" I'm going home yuk."

" The show is not finished yet."

" I'm tired of being sleepy."

" It wouldn't be nice if the show hadn't finished going home. Are you his brother."

" So I told you if you want to go back to work can not be long here."

" Yes, it's okay."

" I'm also coming home, boss." Adi said.

" Yes, it's up to you Di, go home later also papa, wait for the show to finish." Answer the Nirwan.

" You are the boss."

" Yes, it's okay."

On the way home, I was silent. Reorganizing my heart and mind that had been in chaos because of my meeting with Afif mas.