Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Chapter 34

 Which changed you/me

After a few months in the region, I have started to be able to adapt to the environment.

I've also started to get along with some people in the neighborhood, especially Rian.

Dedek Delon is also increasingly active. Many times until I lose it.

Every night I also cry and miss my mother. Well it has become a habit if Afif mas work can shift the night. If there is a grandpa during the day, there is a boss, there is a friend Lili who can briefly divert my longing towards my family.

But when night comes I alone make my longing for mother more felt. Far from parents is not an easy thing for me, what else is new this time I work and a long distance from parents.

Missing it is certain, what else if again faced with difficult things it must feel like running home.

If mas Afif does not work, mas Afif who accompanies me, he knows that I often cry when I miss ibuk, usually mas Afif phone accompany until I fall asleep. Only he is able to make me not feel alone, the same dependence mas Afif is common. Indeed he can make my heart calm, with him it feels comfortable. Maybe because I'm used to it.

Chat with mas Afif, even though only by phone for a moment can forget this feeling of longing. But if Afif works nights I feel alone and lonely.

Tonight as usual, I became an impromptu teacher for the Rafid bang. While focusing on listening to the bang Rafid learned to read, my phone rang there was an incoming call.

" Bang bentar brother pick up the phone first, "

" Yes brother. "

" Hello assalamualaikum, "

" Walaikum salam om, "

Yapp that call was from Rian. A few days ago he asked for my phone number.

" What's up? "

" I'm going to the front food stall, what do you want? "

Indeed, sometimes Rian often calls even if just to ask what nitip if he wants to go out. Well it is here far from the stall, must use a motorbike if you want to go ahead looking for food. If the walk is far away.

" What would you buy ?"

" Want to buy pecel lele. "

" Sister is Rian, right? " tanya bang Rafid who is still in front of me.

" Yes bang, "

" Will he go to the food stall?" ask bang Rafid.

" Yes bang,"

" So, you tell me, tell me to buy me fried chicken."

I just nodded my head, a sign confirming his request.

" Hello om, "

" Yes Yu, "

" Bang Rafid asked to buy fried chicken, he said. "

" Yes, what are you? "

" I'm not om, thanks. I ate earlier. Yes, I want to continue first. Assalamu'alaikum, "

" Waalaikumsalam's. "

Then I continued studying with the Rafid bang. After a few months of progress, Bang Rafid has started to be able to read even though it is not smooth and still laid out.

After I finished studying, as usual I drove the Rafid bang to the terrace. On the front porch of the house many friends - his friend om Rian.

" Oh, um, "

" here! " oom Rian is offering a bottle of water.

" What is this ? " much confused.

" Soybean milk for you, I don't know what you like, so don't buy this. "

" I love om, hahaha. Thanks om. Did I go in first, huh? "

" Aren't you talking - talk first? "

" Next time, o'm. Take a break. "

" All right. "

I rushed to my room, picked up my phone and called Afif.

" Hello mas assalamu'alaikum. "

" Waalaikumsalam's. "

" What else is mamas? "

" No longer - what. "

This is my feeling or, indeed the mas so cute duck gini anyway.

" Have you eaten? "

" It was. How did I call earlier, his tone was busy huh? who's the same phone? he said he was teaching Rafid. "

" Oh, Rian called her to what she wanted, she went to the shop. But just jerk off, continue to ngajarin bang Rafid again. Why didn't I call again? "

" No, afraid of bothering you, "

" Yes, it's not mas. If you don't believe it, it was really just a call for a while. Don't be mad dong mas, I'm sorry."

" Yes believe it. Oh yeah deck sorry I can't make it tonight. Temen - me ngajak out. "

Ha again? I was left again, but the tumben is usually also invited to not want, prefer the phone. But yes, maybe he is bored. He also needs time to play with him.

" Oh no papa, be careful. Remember, it can't be weird! "

" Prepared girlfriend, spouty. Don't stay up. Yes, you are, love you."

" Yes my girlfriend, muach, love you too, "

" The Assalamualaikum ,"

" Waalaikumsalam's. "

Actually I was a little disappointed with Afif mas for not being able to accompany me tonight. Desemenin him, I became the same dependence mas Afif. When Afif didn't have time for me, it disappointed me. But yes I can't be selfish, he also needs time alone and with his friend. Although I was disappointed but I also could not force him to continue to have time for me.

Tonight I was forced to wrestle with fatigue that made my longing for my family even more passionate. Not because I was a crybaby, but yes it was a crybaby anyway, hehehe often cry. Crying makes the tightness in my chest less and more and it makes me relieved.

What is your mother again? i miss. Very homesick. Although it is comfortable here but more comfortable at home. I'm tired, I miss my mom, I want to go home. Hixes.

Now my work feels exhausting. Doing all the homework not to mention the grandpa who has begun to be active, keep the grandpa all day is quite draining. If the night is tired and when it feels like this, mother is the one I really need.

I don't know, sometimes my mind and my mood like to change. Sometimes like to want to cry for no reason, sometimes want to be angry - what more anger if the fit is tired again. Want to run home it feels, ask for a massage with mom.

Without you, tonight feels so long. You where? without me knowing, I always depend on you. I know what my night would be like without you. Why did you choose to be with them instead of talking to me? are you bored yet?

That's how disappointed I am again tonight.

I also chose to close my eyes to fall asleep immediately. I don't want to enjoy the length of it tonight. Choose to immediately visit a dream and wake up right tomorrow. That way I don't have to go through the bike all night by myself.