Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Extra part 5

Today is Yani's engagement day.

I accompanied her and helped her dress up in the room.

" Not to be thick - thick powder Yu."

" No, I'm done with my lipstick."

" Don't the color?"

" No mbak, noh look, mbak you are very beautiful if dandan gini."

" Dry anyway?"

" Yes, it's so pretty."

" Thank you for helping Yu, oh yeah fast follow, not long."

" Yes in the business. Hehe."

" Yes, the show's about to start."

" Aren't you coming out?"

" I can't wait here."

" Yes, that's it."

*See mbak Yani proposed if I want to be yes, but it is not possible, it costs a lot because of the long distance, ah it seems even more complicated, just get married let me cep*at.

Tring, ting ,tings.

The sound of a cell phone rippled my daydream.

" Yes hello mas assalamualaikum,"

" Waalaikumsalam sek."

" Where are you?"

" It's still Yani's place."

" Haven't finished the show?"

" No, the show just started. What's up?"

" I'll pick it up now."

" But the show is just starting, it's not good to go home now."

" It's up to you."

" Yes, I said it to Bude."

Since the time I did THAT with mas Nirwan, I gave up a lot, I followed all her will even though sometimes it was not in accordance with my heart. From petty quarrels to sometimes obscure jealousy, I always succumbed.

I approached Bude, and spoke very slowly as the show was going on.

" Bude, I'm saying yes, I'm going home first, sorry I can't wait until the show's over."

" Kok buru - really hustle nduk, soon the show is finished you know."

" I'm sorry bude, but I have to go back to work today."

" Well, hearts are on the way."

" Yes bude, will you please apologize to Msbak Yani huh?"

" Yes, thank you for coming."

" Same - same bude."

I was forced to lie with Bude in order to go home, because I was not happy if I had to tell the truth.

I immediately approached Mas Nirwan who was waiting for me on the road not far from where Mbak Yani.

" Ride!"

" Where are we going?"

" Go home. Keep going straight to lesehan."

" But I haven't taken a shower, haven't brought a change of clothes, my bag is still at home."

" Yes, take your bag first."

This is mas Nirwan why the hell. How rich the smell of alcohol yes, do not - do not get drunk again. I'll see you when I get home I ask.

I got home and packed my things.

" What the hell, long time?"

" Yes, his name is also packing."

" It can be quick."

" I'm sorry, let's go."

I thought we went straight to Lesehan, but I was taken to his house.

" Come down, I'll take a shower first."

" Yes." Yeah."

I waited for her on the sofa, I was shocked when my eyes were fixed on the scarf lying beside me, I smelled it was the smell of a girl perfume.

What - what's this, who's from here? it's got a girl. Don't don't, don't,,

My feelings began to feel bad, and I immediately ran to the room mas Nirwan to prove that what I was thinking and I was afraid did not happen.

When I entered the room my feelings began to fear, I saw the room that was usually neat, now messy.

Inadvertently my eyes caught the thing that makes me more crowded, in a place that is somewhat hidden but still visible to my eyes, there is a former male contraceptive device that has been used.

What - what is this. This is impossible, I have to ask for an explanation mas Nirwan. But wait where the cell phone, the cell phone. I have to check it out.

I also found Nirwan's cell phone lying on the table.

I immediately checked it, and sure enough, there in one of the applications there was a conversation mas Nirwan with his friend, that his friend asked permission to party at his house and bring a woman. Which makes my heart break when there is a message that has just entered, the message contains mas Nirwan should not go long because he will bring another girl again.

Looks like mas Nirwan has finished his bath*.

I deleted the last message from the theme, and I pretended to play a game with his phone so he did not suspect.

" What is sekapain?"

" Play game, saturating waiting for the mas to finish bathing."

I watched as Nirwan peeled the candy.

Want you to eat candy one container is also free mas, my nose is more sensitive, you think with you eat candy I can not smell the alcohol you drink.

I tried to be as calm as possible, I acted as usual, even though my heart felt like it was out of order.

Finally after a long journey, I arrived at Lesehan mas Nirwan.

I don't mind Adi who called me.

Tonight Lesehan is quiet, unlike usual that crowded visitors.

I headed straight to the back, to Nirwan's mas room. Nirwan followed me.

" You why the hell sek, from just now on the street silent?"

I shed tears before I even spoke.

" You're honest, you're drunk, you bring a woman home? did you sleep with that woman?"

" What the hell are you talking about? I'm not drunk, I don't sleep with women either."

" LIED!!! I know, I just need your honesty."

" I didn't do that."

" I'm lacking what the hell mas? I've given everything I've got to you. Why are you the same as me?"

" It was my friend who brought the woman but, but I didn't go along."

" No way, I just need your honesty, that's all."

Why don't I believe that Nirwan doesn't enjoy her, I want to believe, but I can't. I'm pretty sure Mas Nirwan's coming. But he insisted on not admitting it.

" I'm being honest, what else do you want."

" Honestly I'm not papa, I'm disappointed, but at least if you're honest I appreciate it."

In my heart, honestly I was so afraid of honesty that Nirwan must have broken my heart, imagining him making out with another woman just made my heart hurt this much.

" IT'S UP TO YOU IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE!!"

Well this is the first time he's yelled at me, my heart hurts more. After he shouted he immediately left. I heard the motor, and yes it was Nirwan. He left me alone with my state of crying out for a moment.

Adi also came to me who was sitting on the floor.

" Irwan's gone."

" Yes I know."

" I know you've given up a lot, I salute you who love him so deeply."

" Well that's how I am, if it's dear can not be half - half. You know he was at a party with a woman?

" Tau, it's been from last night instead."

" Are Nirwan drunk?"

" Yes." Yeah."

" Did he enjoy that woman?"

" No, he just sat down and drank."

" You're lying, too, so the theme sent a message that she'd bring another woman."

" Oh yeah?"

" Yes but I deleted it, she doesn't know."

" Why do you survive if this is too heavy for you."

" Honestly I can't let go of him, why have I been giving up all this time? that's because I don't want him to get angry and leave me. My honor I have given to her, I am no longer a virgin. If she goes who wants to be with a woman who's not a virgin anymore like me."

" Why do you think so, there must be a man who can accept you as you are."

" No, I'm afraid, but I love him too. I'll make him responsible."

" Well if that's what you want. May you be strong."

" It must be strong, and it must be. Thank you, He wanted to accompany me to tell a story. I have to go back."

" Where to go? it's already night."

" Go back to my workplace, not too far from here, can I borrow your bike? tomorrow night I'm back."

" Aren't you going to wait for Irwan to come back?"

" No Di, it's night. You don't know when he's coming back?"

" Well, did I take you?"

" No need, who will guard here? not far away either."

" Okay, oh yeah, that was my Irwan motorbike, you used the irwan motorbike."

" Oh no papa, than no turning back. Will you tell him later, will you?"

" You really aren't papa, are you? crying on the road again? don't kill yourself, will you?"

" Hahahaha, I'm still sane Di, I still want to live times, you think I've been that crazy."

" Oh, thank goodness that's it. Hearts on the road, right?"

" Yes, thanks for tonight."

" The same."