Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Chapter 50

**Remembering**

" We've finally met you, ma'am, I'm really happy."

" Yes after so many years we can finally meet."

" Mom I miss so much, why are you kurusan now? "

" I'm also very upset, you're more round aja Yu, hehehe."

" Montok mbak let it be more wow that, hahahaha. You are slim now, more beautiful. "

" It could be you. Yes, yuk came home, and the others were waiting."

" Mbak, who picked her up? "

" Same with me."

Along the journey incessantly I asked and told stories with mbak Yani, not to forget also I asked about my other friends.

Tiredness immediately disappeared because it was too happy to finally be able to meet and return home after a few years.

" We stop looking for food, aren't you hungry Yu?"

" I'm so hungry, I didn't eat on the train either."

" Oh, let's eat first, what do you want to eat?"

" My taste is still the same mbak, do you like hahaha,"

" It should be more rounded, already can find your own money more diligent snack ya,"

" Well, you know what I like snack, what else if the food I have never eaten before I must buy, hehehe."

" No wonder you're round."

" Not round, but bohay, hahaha."

" Yes ah it's up to you, want to round want bohay still you look like your mak, hahaha."

" his son, how the hell mbak,"

" Oh, let's go, hahaha. Let's eat first."

" It is with pleasure. Hehe."

Mbak Yani chose to stop in front of the fried rice stall. We fill our stomachs first before continuing our journey home.

After feeling the stomach is full, we also continue the journey home. The distance from the station to the house is far away. Using a car takes a long time.

Arriving at home, apparently I have been waiting for waste and other families. They welcomed me happily. We broke down for a while and then I cleaned up and rested because it was late at night.

My house has changed a lot. Well increasingly unkempt, the mother's room used to be now a warehouse. My room is occupied by sewage and to rest tonight, I choose to rest in the guest room.

Before I rested in the room, I first went to the living room, to recall the silent witness of my love story with mas Afif.

The writing of our names that we once wrote is still engraved there has not been erased with a period of time. My tears can't be contained anymore, I let them escape as they please. When I think back to all the memories that once happened, it reawakens the longing and love that I have been trying to forget.

His presence returned all the memories of the past, bringing with it the pain that often tormented me.

I missed you mas. I still miss you so much. Do you feel it too, feel the way I feel too? I want to meet you. I still love you so much, I love you. Are you like that too?

or maybe I just love you too much.

My miss to him was very painful. Time can't shake the longing I have.

Despite being disappointed, the heart is not yet willing to let go.

Sometimes I get confused not knowing how. I did not expect that his presence would be so meaningful. Until the moment of his loss made me hurt. I loved him too deeply.

Without me knowing that Yani was already leaning in front of the door, it turned out that from earlier Yani saw me.

" What makes you cry like this?"

" Eh there's mbak, sorry to not realize that mbak here." While I wipe away the tears that are still flowing do not want to stop.

" Fuck you good, I've seen you since, guess what, in this place? oh is this about Afif?"

" Yes is right. "

" What exactly happened between you and Afif Yu, to make you like this? "

" There's a lot going on between me and him. Right now I'm really losing him. But I still miss him."

Ma'am Yani approached and sat down beside me. I told you everything Yani wanted to know.

" I know how you feel, I can't blame you or him. Because what you've done must have had a reason. It must be hard for you, what else at your worst time is he who is loyal to your side and becomes your life booster, so you can get through it. I can only say that God will unite you if you are meant to be together. If not, please do."

" It's heavy for me to let go. I loved him too deeply. I still wish we were like we used to be, this hurts too much."

Ma'am Yani hugged me, and I cried sobbing in her arms. Well his embrace is still as warm as ever.

" Yes I know. But if you keep going on like this you'll suffer a lot, you'll keep getting hurt. Open your heart, try to let her go slowly. Maybe he's found his happiness even without you."

" I'll try it. But I want to meet him. I don't know who she belongs to but once I want to meet her. Although not being able to hug her is okay, I just want to see her, that's enough. I miss him, miss this tormenting me."

" Yes, try to contact him later. Ask if he can meet you."

" He's still working but hasn't come home yet. Hopefully when he gets home, he'll see me again."

" Yes, I slept well. It's late at night."

" Our mother slept together."

" okay."

Although the old did not meet, Yani's nature did not change at all. I still care for me as a sister. And as a sister she's very mature despite our age. I feel pampered and guarded when I'm with him.

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