Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Chapter 29

Mila

" A long time anyway nduk, we must have not been part of the cake. because - because waiting for you really long. " Gerrutu cak Rudi.

" Yes sorry cak. "

" There was a grandmother who dropped by Rud, because she was no. Some of you as a man, know his dibully adek not ngebelain, what kind of brother try," added Desi.

" Yes, I don't want to be confused. I wasn't there either. Why else would the grandmother drop by? make it again, huh?" tanya Cak Rudi who wants to know.

" Well, he would say that Ayu hawanya wants to quip, want maki mulu mulu. So next time wait, don't stay." Answer Desi.

" Didn't run out of the canteen, to the perpus yok?" let me cut their conversation.

" What? in class we have been studying for hours, it makes dizziness. It's time for a cooking break to learn again. Pinter is Pinter but yes kira - kira nduk. My brain is told to work rodi. He also needs a break."

" Well in cak's tasty perpus. Relax, nothing is disturbing. You don't have to learn either, you can read a storybook or anything. Yes, if you don't want me alone. "

" I'll be Yu later. " Said Desi.

" Thank you Des already wanted meenin. "

" It's the same - the same. "

We go to the library and spend our rest by reading books. Well I'm more comfortable in the pylons. Although not learning just read interesting stories or books that sometimes have nothing to do with the lesson.

There are no Mila who like to curse and insinuate it makes me calm.

When I was excited about the book I was reading,

there was a voice call informing me that I was sent to the counselling room.

Cak Rudi came with a breath of excitement.

" Your mother is called that, ask for counselling. " Said Cak Rudi with unordered breath.

" It's been Rud's time, our ears are still healthy. " Sahut Desi's.

" Have I been there first, right? "

" Want to be won, Yu,? said Desi.

" No need to Des. The only one called is me. You wait here," I said.

In the middle of the road, Mila and her friends confronted me.

" Hey new boy! watch out later if you meet the teacher! remember, do not talk strange - strange if you still want to school here quietly."

I**ni the child is afraid in the aduin apparently, but can not talk her good - well, afraid in the aduin notya sorry even ngancem. Had ni kayaknya earlier lipstiknya he forgot to eat deh. Hence the brain of rada gesrek.

" Wait a minute. Tell me first if you won't tell us - we. Watch it!! I can do worse things, which makes you not at home at school here. I can tell my brother to stop you when I get home from school."

I'm not so angry because of his threat. But he kept me in custody, even though I had been called repeatedly.

" My miles are not because I don't dare. I've never been afraid of you. Want to tell se Rt to block me too bodo very. Your mouth that, want maki, want to quench, want to do anything until foamy even I do not care. If I want to tell you, already from yesterday, so if you do not want to be in Aduin, still afraid in Aduin, it is not pretentious. That's the mouth on guard, if you want to do anything there is a limit. Plis deh, I just want to school here quietly, I don't want to find enemies.can't you, don't bother me anymore? I'm wrong anyway, are you guys? because I'm Pinter? that's because I'm learning. Because I love the teacher ? that's because I respect them, I don't ask them to love me. They can also judge the times when students are good and the same quality students are not qualified. Already I am lazy to debate, your ears are also not problematic right, I have been called repeatedly, so can move aside right. Oh yes one more, I will not complain this time. But if tomorrow still looking because again, I do not promise!!! "

I quickly walked over to the counselling room. Apparently there I've been waiting for the teacher.

And it's true that he asked about the bully problem, and I said that everything was fine, there were no problems with socializing and studying.

After school as usual we together - together with friends who are one village. Lots of rames too. There are the same class but different rooms, there are adek classes as well. Even though we have different classes, we often go home together. We joke on the street, sometimes because it is too fun to not feel it has reached each other's homes. I'm pretty familiar with them. Because they also wellcome with my presence.

" Nduk maybe we'll have an extra class soon, come home in the afternoon. " Said cak Rudi.

" Oh yeah? means bring stock dong cak? "

" Yes, I can't wait to graduate,"

" cacak want nerusin where ? "

" That's it. That you? "

" Seeing in terms of economy it seems not cak. The school is far away, if the walk is no cement because everything is already on the bike, not to mention the uniform, the monthly money is also."

" Because, you're kind of a pinter. "

" Let's cak. I don't want to be a burden to them. "

" It's up to you, I guess I'm not nerusin either. Ehhhh nduk not stop by for a break? "

" No cak, thank you. I miss my hero, hehehe, "

" I'll be there later, so kangen also want to carry the tole. "

" Okay, I'm waiting at home. "

Since entering school. The longer my relationship with mas Afif was increasingly tenuous. Not because of our busy lives, or I don't have much time with her anymore. I'm busy with new people. Even my friends did not exchange news. Only with Mbak Yani. Sometimes I ask Aisyah and Okta through Yani.

Ever since I was called into the counselling room, Mila hasn't acted anymore. So I can attend school quietly until graduation.

The more I got here, I didn't realize that anything was missing from my life. My busy life and I'm more concerned with new people makes me blind that feeling. After everything got worse, I realized that I had lost her figure. I kept her away because of my busy life.

Then do I still love her?.

Still, but that's how I felt after everything got messed up. I still love her so much. In my deepest heart, I am very, very and very much missing her. I feel so lost. But my busyness is able to cover it up. Getting to know and meeting new people is a form of my outburst. I must have hurt Afif very much. Because of my busyness, I ignored him. And that's in a very long time.