Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Chapter 12

Nana nina

" Why is he busy on deck?" ask Afif curious.

" He's busy Nana Nina is the same as his mistress!! I was so good at mas. I would like to invite that one j*l*ng. I just think I'm sick again."

" Not in shadow, adek not old enough, hehehe. Uh that's good tau deck. Who said it hurt ?" said Afif while laughing.

" Ih byebelin. Tau ah dark!! I'm dead, assalamualaikum!!!" I said with half a shout, because it was upset the same mas Afif.

" Ehh wait, deck joking, kidding. Let her laugh, not be sad. You don't deck? actually, my heart is also broken with you crying rich earlier. But not papa mas also seneng because his cry only to me, not to another guy. Let me be the only one who knows your side of this deck. I always wanted to be the first to calm you down. "

" Eh but wait!!! did he say good? have you ever dong? I didn't expect, it turns out that Afif guy is rich, "

" How did it become gini? adek remember right? I told you once, that's my first boyfriend. Means adek already understand dong his intent. I said I was kidding on deck.

Mas normal man of the deck, hypocritical if I say, I don't think strange - strange. What else if I'm near the scene. Honestly deck, I always wanted more, more than cuddling, more than kissing the forehead, more than holding hands. But my love for you, is greater than my lust. I promised you, didn't I? will take care of the adek, that includes keeping the adek from myself. I don't want to ruin your deck. I want to always help you keep your honor. Makes you a good woman. For now you are not my right. So I have no right to ruin you. This is my love for you, and this is how I love you. "

I was so moved to hear it. I was so happy that I didn't know him wrong.

" Thank you, man. Luckily I loved men like you. I hope you are the man who will justify me. But it's still a long way away, now it hasn't graduated, it hasn't got a ktp, hehehe." Answer me while I cry.

" Rabusiness destroys the mood. Not being romantic. That was again dad, right? why do we talk about us. Well because of this Nana Nina guy so divert the main topic."

" But because of Nana Nina I'm flowering - tau mas flowers. I'm so much more loving to you."

" Oh means I have to thank Nana Nina. Hehe."

" Udah ah stop discussing Nana Nina kasian tuh he sneezed mulu, because in our nonsense. Haha." I said while laughing.

" At last, mas seneng your deck laughs like this. I hope you are always happy. Back to the story of the father earlier, kok adek know the father is busy soan. Know where? "

" Ibuk got a message from a brother in Lampung mas. I guess from the message, it looks like you went home to Lampung with that woman."

" The father of Lampung?"

" Take people here first, continue transmigration there. Simbok got married there and settled there, "

" Oh, that's why the symbok isn't angry huh deck, see his son come home not bring a wife, but instead bring another girl?"

" From the story of ibuk anyway, emang symbok from the first do not like the same ibuk. "

" Oh so. How's the deck? "

" I don't know."

I always forget the time to talk to Afif. As the night was getting late, I ended my call, and soon I rested.

After hearing about the father. I sleep in my mother's room almost every night. Nemenin ibuk so that mother is not lonely. Sometimes when I call with mas Afif, my mother also joined the conversation. We were kidding together. I was so happy to see my mother smiling, what else was the reason behind her smile was me.

I deliberately joked with mas Afif to make mom laugh. At least it can make you a little entertained. That's all I can do for now. I tried to bring back my smile.

***

" Well, how many more days are we going to have another test?" said Aisyah.

" Therefore learn the real thing, let's go to class, " said mbak Yani.

" Your brains are very thin, you still need to learn?" my many.

The three of them are residents of rank 1, 2 and 3. Sweet girl in white, long hair in black. He Aisyah who holds the first title, then mbak yani and the 3rd mbak Okta. in their lessons compete to win the first champion, but beyond that we are brothers. They compete healthy, telling each other if we ask questions about lessons we don't understand .

I am lucky to be in the middle of them.

" Why are we smart? that's because we're learning. You think even if we're smart, we answer about it no need to think? if we answer him while bristling, the answer is all wrong and it is impossible to say Ayu pinter," said mbak Okta while pinching my gaunt cheek.

" Aw, it hurts. I think while looking in the eye, the matter of having met all the answers immediately." I said while stroking - elus my cheek.

" Yes, I can see the answer immediately. But it can go all wrong. " Said mbak Yani.

" Oh, how's your parents doing, Yu ?" ask Aisyah.

" Well that's how it is. " Answer me.

" No progress yet? " ask Okta.

" I'm lazy to talk about this. Focus on the exam first. I promise you after the exam I'll tell you everything. " Answer me.

" We respect your decision, whenever you want a story, we are ready to be a loyal listener. Focus on the exam tomorrow. Hope your grades don't disappoint like yesterday. " Said mbak Yani.

" I will try" I said with a smile.

" The spirit!! " the word mbak Okta and Aisyah together.

" thank you. "

We also hugged.(already rich late yes, hihihi 😁😁).

Day after day I went through as usual. When I finish learning, I rest, body, heart and mind. I hope tomorrow all my problems are over.

But sometimes life is not in line with expectations. We can only plan, and God determines. God does not give us what we want, because God knows what we need. What we want is not as good as God chooses.

Yes, and this is the new trial that God chose for me. Gave me a problem that forced me to give up.

***

The day after tomorrow will be an exam, a graduation exam. And tonight my heart is broken again, with a reality that hurts me so much.

" Nduk ?" call ibuk. As he approached me.

" Yes, "I answered. I woke up from my sleep, I sat on the edge of the bed beside my mother.

" Have you finished studying? " tanya ibuk basa - stale.

" Just finished buk. What's up buk?" ask me curious. Because my mom wouldn't have come into my room if there wasn't anything important to talk about.