Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Chapter 38

Its presence

I work as usual, it turns out that the grandpa becomes my own entertainment for me. As I daydreamed, she came to hug and kiss me. But it made me cry. Maybe he's sensitive to what I feel, he's not fussy and not troublesome. Even sometimes his attitude, his adorable manner, makes me laugh.

At lunchtime, as usual mother came home with a pack of rice. We eat both too.

" Mom why ? "

I was surprised by the boss's question. I immediately understood the meaning of the question. Maybe he knew, I woke up my eyes a little too hard.

" Emusual, a teenager. Hehehe, "

" Ciee, another heartbroken huh, a broken leech? duh kasian's. Hahaha, "

The boss is cheating on me, but I know maybe he wants to cheer me up.

" Nda what the hell. Very bad, I was worried again. Entertain the cake, what buyin that candy." I replied while pursing my lips.

" Hahaha yes I know. Later do not buy a tissue, can make a crying field as much hahaha, joking yes mbak. Hehehe I was young too. Don't go too deep into the heart. I know it's not easy. Sad to be but not for long, if the soul mate is not going anywhere. "

" Yes, this is also again the process of making peace with the situation, hehehe. "

" Nah that's good. Eh I see it's the same with Rian, but it's a good fit. Hahaha, "

" Don't joke around. I just broke up this. My heart is still a mess. "

" Once again, he used to unite your broken heart. "

" Yes if so buy glue only later in the front ajo place. Make my heart unite. "

" Buy glue with money. If Rian is free, hahaha. "

" Heh mamak - mam emang can not be far away from free ya nda. Hahaha, "

" That's the nature of mom - mom mbak, not free no papa, as long as there is a discount, hahaha.

How, don't you want a match? "

" Apaan nda anyway. Tomorrow you do not need to do so if so, continue to transfer the profession open a matchmaking bureau, "

" Good idea, ma'am. Kali aja rame's. Haha."

" It's ah don't joke mute. It was time to go back to the office. "

" Oh yes, until I forget. Thanks for being ingetin. I went back to the office first. Remember don't be sad again mbak, later do not tell me about Rian. Hahaha, "

" Ih nda, what the hell!!. "My yelling.

Nda laughed and passed away .

Thank you mom for comforting me. I'm getting a little better. Thank you for comforting me as a friend. I'm lucky to meet a boss like you. May you be healthy and happy always.

At night as usual I was still studying together with the Rafid bang.

" So I learned it on the terrace. "

" A friend of Rian's friend is not in a gathering bang ? "

" No, they're playing in town. In front of me. "

" Yes already ayok. Find a new atmosphere. Let's not get bored. "

I also studied on the terrace with the Rafid bang. The quiet atmosphere, the more supportive our learning activities.

I did not peg a long time in studying with bang Rafid. I'm afraid he's bored. Learn enough, which is important he understands. So far, Rafid has also made a lot of progress. That makes me happy.

After the Bang Rafid finished studying and entered the house. I was alone on the porch. I sat beside the house, looking at the moon and the stars in the sky, which tonight is so beautiful. The bright moon is perfectly round with an expanse of a sea of stars. What a perfect sight.

What a beautiful night, are you looking at the sky like me? I have a dream we will sit together under the moonlight and sprinkled with stars, make your shoulders as a backrest or my thigh as a cushion, discuss and plan our future. Exchange love words, share existing feelings. But now it's all just a dream that will never be real, just a wishful thinking.

I expected so much from our relationship that I was so disappointed.

May you always be happy. With me gone, may you find the woman you want.

I will try to please you, although it is not easy for me, I will try.

We're not in this relationship from yesterday. We have a lot of things we have been through together. It is not easy to forget our memories.

But I'm not gonna do that, though,

I can't forget the memories of you.

I can't stop loving you.

I can't forget you.

I'll keep our memories, let time make me forget.

Love for you, it's rooted there. I will not pluck it, let time wither by itself. Because without you, you wouldn't be able to spring back.

My mind wandered around - where, until I did not realize there was an om Rian who was sitting next to me.

" Look what the hell? I think it's really cool. "

" Jeez, Rian, I'm surprised. Since when does Rian sit here?"

" Since then. What the hell, until the sound of my motorbike is not able to disturb you? "

" Look at the sky again. Looking up tonight is beautiful, right? where did om come from ? "

" Ordinary path - the same way, friends. Don't call me deck. I feel very old. "

" Hehehe will come with you, get used to calling the older one to the grandpa, "

" It's not the same anymore. "

" It's getting used to it, "

" No, don't get used to it."

" Yes bang Rian. "

" It's good in Denger. Oh yes, there is a problem again? "

" Not really bang, "

" Ih lied. It's in your eyes there's another piece of shit, "

" Ih where is there? "

" There's a deck, seriously. No story, I want to hear. I can help you once, "

" Thank you, it's not a big deal. "

" Must be heartbroken, right ? what is deck ? "

" That's how bang is. "

" Same breakup girlfriend, who was photographed yesterday was yes deck? "

" Hey, "

" So now single dong? "

" Iyupp, "

" Wih dong's fun "

" What a hell bang, so happy to see I'm upset, so evil. Not entertained. "

" Sorry deck, joking, kidding. Don't bother dong. Just walk - let you not be sad? "

" My crazy brother, look at the clock bang, what time is it now ? "

" Oh yeah it's night. I slept, rested. Then you will get in the wind if later outside. "

" Later bang. "

" Deck I know you're sad, but don't be late. Do not torment your body, just calm down everything will improve with time. Please tell me he's not your soul mate. You are still young your journey is still long. You will meet someone who can make you happy. If indeed the soul mate will certainly be united with a path that you never expected before. "

" Em, yeah, I understand. But indeed the night sky is so beautiful, dear if not enjoyed. I want to be here in a minute ,"

" Well, my brother will accompany me, "

" Thank you bang, "

" When there's a story problem on deck?"

" Yes bang. "

We also had a casual conversation until late at night, with a heavy heart I had looked at the beautiful sky. Bang Rian continued to force me inside and rest.

" Go on deck, tomorrow again. Rest is already night, "

" Yes, thank you, it's already in town. "

" Tomorrow - tomorrow if you want to be cemented again find a brother aja deck, "

" Ready bang, "

" Yes, good night, good break deck. "

" Yes, brother too. "

I went into the house and rested. My feelings are getting a little better now. It's been a little relieved, making me less tormented. May time be the cure for my deep wounds.