Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Chapter 22

Last meeting

" Openal, "

After hearing his voice, I immediately rushed a small run forward to greet the man I was waiting for and I missed.

" Waalaikumsalam's. Let's go in the mas, sit down first, don't grab a drink first. "

" The spirit of the deck. Later - later you can take a drink. "

" Kasian mas must be thirsty to run away. Really tired, right? this was drunk first, "

" Yes deck thanks. For the sake of your deck, what else we will not see, "

The deg!!! Instantly there was a tremendous pain inside my chest.

You remind me that I'm leaving soon. I had forgotten earlier. But it was my purpose to ask you to meet for a farewell.

Oh Allah, so much gini yes, hix.

So don't want to go.

With tears already condensing at the end of the eye, it was already preparing for freefall.

I held Afif's cheek, then I faced Afif's face to look at me.

I touched my eyebrows, eyes, nose, then down to my lips. I close my eyes and my tears can't stand it anymore. I felt once again the face of Afif.

" There are no more beautiful eyes that will look at me with love. No more sweetest smiles for me .I'm gonna miss all that. Can I be without you? " my race was accompanied by my sobs.

I opened my eyes when I felt Afif's hand touch my hand, kissed my palm, then gently wiped my tears that soaked my cheek.

How can I go mas, who will treat me this sweet. It feels hard to make this decision. Leaving you, away from you is not an easy thing for me to do.

My tears were flowing more and more, but Afif even smiled looking at me.

" Look at me as you please deck, until you are satisfied. Draw me in your eyes, and then my name in your heart, and now I do the same. That's why stop crying. To make your painting beautiful, decorated with smiles not tears. In order for every time I close my eyes I can still see your cheer. So that in my mind there is always your beautiful smile. In my heart I will add by carving your name beautifully, so as not to be replaced. "

" wish I could be replaced? "

" No deck, no going. Trust me, there will only be you."

" Can I hug you?"

" Have you finished painting me deck? may I see, what a handsome I am in your painting, hehehe? " goda mas Afif.

" Where can. What is certain is that you are the most handsome, "I replied with a smile.

" Now so dong. If a smile is beautiful. I don't want you to leave if you cry like that. You should be happy, I'll see your mom soon. "

" Yes yes. This so his hugs can't they? " ask me with annoyance, my annoyed face managed to make her smile.

" Can, with pleasure deck. Why are you so sweet deck if you are upset again, make a gemes aja. "

" I want to be like this in a moment, for the last time" I said as I hugged Afif.

" As long as you want to deck. But don't tell me the last time deck, rich ain't gonna see you again."

I feel like this is gonna be our last hug, I don't think we're gonna be like this anymore. How comfortable your embrace is. Who is the lucky woman who will bear the title of your wife? he must be very happy. You can be with a guy like you. But if I can be selfish, I wish that woman was me.

My cry broke again in his arms. Then

mas Afif loosened his embrace.

" Not cry deck, your eyes will hurt. I don't like to see you rich. Mas here want to see the cherry adek. "

I just kept quiet, still with my sobs.

" Thank you for coming into my life, thank you for accompanying me in my hardest moments. Gave the most beautiful colors of my days. God is so good, presenting you in my life, making my life more beautiful. Sorry if as long as you know me, I accidentally hurt you. Because I would never intentionally hurt you. Sorry I can't make you happy. "

" Your presence in my life is a pleasure of the deck. Thank you also for coloring my days so beautifully. God is good because it brings us together, I am happy to be the most beautiful part of your life. I'm so happy because of you."

" I will miss you so much. "

" I'm so deck. "

" Already cry her. later thought I did - why adek. Oh yeah there must be good at taking care of yourself, right? take care of this heart for me. Remember here I am always waiting for you. "

" I'm not sure myself, can I take care of myself like you take care of me mas."

" That's what I'm afraid of the deck. But I believe my prayers will always remind and take care of you wherever you are. "

" Can you keep the heart that I put for you ?"

" certain. I'm a loyal man, trust the god of the deck. Continue to pray that we will still be met with the same feeling as this. "

" I will always remember. Take good care of yourself - well yes, do not get sick. I can't look away. "

" I'm definitely gonna get sick on deck, because I miss you. But papa I can't handle it. You take good care of yourself too - well. Same with my mother. "

" What I thought was just a sick mas, I'm just like you. I'm sick even today."

Today was as painful as it was when I said goodbye. I will miss you every time. Just like you. I'll enjoy it too, until fate brings us together.

I hope I can mas.

" Yes deck I know. Be patient. Yes, I said yes, it was late afternoon. "

" Well, you want to go home? what a big cepet huh? " my words while bowing languidly, with a feeling of great sadness.

Mas Afif stood up and squatted in front of me.

Mas Afif pulled my chin to look at his face.

" Dear, promise not to be sad. I wouldn't be happy if you were like this. It makes it hard for me to let you go. "

I smiled with the smile that I forced, with tears flowing profusely.

" I'll try. Don't force me to be strong at this time. Because it's too hard for me. Believe me as time goes by I will be strong by itself, your girlfriend is not that weak. "

" Good, this is just my favorite pug. "

Then Afif stood up to kiss the tip of my head, and a small shuffle of my head hair.

" Say the deck, assalamualaikum."

" Waalaikumsalam's. "

When Afif walked to the door, I ran and hugged him from behind.

" I love you so much, even a step you go, it already makes me miss. I want you to know that you are one of the most beautiful things in my life. In my heart this throne you are the king, a queen will never have two kings. Don't turn! after I let go of this hug, then leave, I'm sorry I couldn't take you. "

Mas Afif held my hand that was hugging him.

" I got it. But you also have to know, in my heart I am not a king and adak is not a queen. I cannot be a king who has to divide myself with many concubines even though there is already a queen. I can't share love with many women. I'm still an ordinary man who will love 1 woman without sharing it with another woman. Adek understand? "

" It's very understandable. Thank you for everything, thank you for loving me, go!"

I immediately let go of my embrace. Without delivering Afif mas, I immediately ran over, and cried so - so.

Why does God have to hurt this?

Why did this farewell have to happen?