Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Chapter 58

**receive statement**

Arriving at the place of Mbak Yani.

" The Assalamualaikum,"

" Waalaikumsalam," replied Yani from inside the room.

I just went straight into Yani's bedroom.

I laid my body next to Yani's sleeping mother.

" Why did you come home? not to meet?"

" So, really,"

" Why just for a second? "

" Yes." Yeah."

I held back my tears, it made my chest feel unusually tight.

" What's up? just tell me, don't get arrested, I know you're sad."

My tears finally melt with a rush as I hug Yani. I wept spilling all the claustrophobic stuff that was in Yani's arms.

" Cry if it makes you feel relieved. Don't be arrested later you get sick. Do not pretend to be strong, it will even make you more destroyed. Sometimes we need someone else to share a story that we can't hold ourselves."

" I have prepared my heart for this day. But it still hurts this much."

" It's because indeed you are still hoping and can't accept Yu's reality. So when you have made sure yourself you just realize, that all this time you have been lying to your own feelings."

" I didn't know it turned out to know and make sure it hurt a lot more."

" I've missed her for a few years, but after meeting her, she's already standing in front of me, I can't hug her, but I miss her so much, it's so excruciating."

" Well, he's not someone you can hug anymore. Perhaps he was still guarding the hearts of others."

" Can it be mbak, it makes me sicker, how should I try?"

" Yes as I said Yu, you should slowly forget about your feelings, then open your heart again. It's not possible for the rest of your life, you'll be rich gini continue."

" I don't know what mbak. Right now I'm really confused."

" Yes slowly - slowly, do not need to be forced. What matters is your effort. Stop wishing for anything more about him. If he still loves you for sure he will come back, but the fact is he already has another love, it means he has no love for you anymore. Although this pain is the reality, you must be able to accept it. You don't want to have to do it either."

" Yes, mbak."

" She can find a new one, why can't you?"

" Yes, he's like this because I'm mad. Just try if I didn't hurt her before,"

" Regulation will not change anything, nor can regret make time spin into the past. Now you must rise up, start all over again and do not repeat the same mistake."

" Yes, I'll try. But to forget it I can't."

" Your love for her that must be forgotten must be buried deep, not her people. If you forget the person, I don't think it'll work either, unless you forget the memory."

" Yes mbak, yes, tomorrow back to work again mbak. With busy work maybe it can help me stop thinking about it."

" Are you sure you can work? will you again mess up gini, later even can not konsen work."

" There are children later, they are entertainment and also a cure for my sadness."

" OKay. Tomorrow we return."