Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Chapter 43

Lustfulness

Well tonight, the sky is not friendly anymore. Hiding its beauty behind cloud cover. Replacing it by dropping water circles, which creates its distinctive rhythm. The rain that falls makes the air feel cold. The sound of rain falling down, supporting the atmosphere that was quiet. What a perfect blend.

I chose to enjoy the quiet night and the cold air, on the front porch of the house.

After Afif ended our relationship a few months ago, I often sat on the terrace or next to the house. It's nothing - anything but the atmosphere outside the house can entertain the void that sometimes comes casually.

" Your boyfriend sits outside often? " said the brother who came nyamperin, then sat beside me.

" Yes bang, bosen in dalem. If it is quiet again like this outside is better to enjoy, than inside. Brother from where? "

" Not from where - where, brother finished bathing. "

" Tumben's new shower clock? "

" So overtime deck, "

" Have you eaten? "

" Already, tumben adek same attention brother? "

" Aren't you usually bang? "

" No, "

" I'm evil, "

" Heheheh, it's attention, but sometimes."

" It still hurts sometimes, rather than not at all. "

" I'm adek, I want it often - often."

" Yes tomorrow if you don't forget, Hahaha. "

" Nah that dong, brother likes to see if adek laughs gini."

" If I laugh again, the volume of his voice can not be small tau bang, hehehe. "

" If you laugh, someone who is the same is laughing. Adek is good at making people comfortable. "

" What is bang? "

" oo,um. Adek people cool, nice to chat, easy to get along with new people, "

" Thank you bang, it turns out I'm a rich man in the eyes of brother, hahaha. I'm not that good, you know, "

" But it was so good in my eyes. "

" Ah make me GR aja bang. "

" So don't talk often - often to other men, huh? ntar even he fell in love if it has been made comfortable the same adek. "

" That's what he wants, say it out of jealousy. "

" Hahaha my brother's girlfriend is Pinter. "

" Ihh brother. "

" Hahahha, uh enter yuk deck is already night, the air is cold. "

" It's a habit, my brother likes to be upset. If you want to go in, go in first. "

" No deck, I'm afraid you'll catch a cold. Brother wonder, really like to sit outside nyampe malem - malem."

" Yes, I don't know. If it's quiet gini, the atmosphere is good to enjoy bang, make it feel at home."

Cupp!!

I was shocked, my brother suddenly kissed me on the cheek. I turned her head with a look for an explanation, as usual my brother just smiled very sweetly.

" Sister," I haven't finished my sentence. My lips kissed my lips quickly. It makes me unable to continue my sentence.

Brother's kiss deepened, I subconsciously returned the kiss, because it was lulled with brother's game. Slowly my brother led me to sit at the table in front of my brother.

Once satisfied playing - play with my lips and tongue. Brother's kiss came down my neck, it made my heart pound, feeling the heat all over my body. The air that had felt cold, now turned hot that spread throughout the body.

I gasped in shock as my brother's hand touched my twin hill behind the frilly bh I was wearing.

My brother's hands were busy squeezing and twisting the end of my beautiful hill. Brother's hands also playfully play there, with his mouth still cool kissed me.

Brother uncovers my bra upstairs. Making my twin hills even more challenging. Seeing that, made my brother not continue to kiss him, and switch to playing on my beautiful hill. Brother played the end of my beautiful hill with his tongue. Playing it smartly. suck and bite small, making me scream and sigh.

" Sister, ahhhhh, emmm. Someone will see. "

He ignored my words - I said. My brother still plays there. I held back my sigh, squeezing my brother's hair firmly.

" Sister," when I want to talk. Brother sucked strong. It makes me sigh favorably.

" hey, bang. Ahhhhhhhhh, ahh."

I don't think there's any sign you want to end the game. And

when my sanity dawned on me. I pulled the brother's head. And immediately put down my bra. My breath is still stingy because of my brother.

" Okay, how is it closed ? " said brother while looking at me, with a gaze still covered in passion.

" When anyone sees Giman bang? you know where we are now?, "you still manage my breath.

" I know we're still on the porch, but there's nobody but us. No one will know the deck, I still want to, herein again, "said the brother with a childlike expression asking for his toy back.

" Shame bang, it's been ah. Afraid someone will see." I said while justifying my pajama buttons.

" Just a deck. Promise me, just a minute! " the brother looked at me with a look that I thought was very cute. Like the kid I took his toy. The other side, the one I saw this time. Very worrying.

" No more - any more bang. Later even kebablasan. "

" No deck, promise!! just a little, "

" okay, just for a second, "I'm finally gone. Honestly, I was enjoying it a lot, my first new sensation was Rasain. And I want it again.

With full softness brother unbutton my pajamas that I have not buttoned all.

with my heart my brother touched it. revealed it to my bra, just like before.

My brother started to kiss my neck and then slowly came down. With busy hands squeezing and twisting the end of my beautiful hill.

When my brother's kiss came down, my brother made a red mark there. Then play the end of my beautiful hill with her tongue.

Like earlier, just now when my brother sucked it, my sigh escaped just like that, because it was not my power to hold it.

" Ummmhhh, ahhhhhh, brother already,, "

" Shortly, remember yes deck, already marked brother, can not think of another guy. "

My brother came back and sucked my beautiful hill like a baby suckling his mother.

" Sir, Alreadyhhh. Akuu, can not nahan again ahhhh, later someone will hear, emhhh bang ahhh, lase umhhhh ahhhhh. "

My brother followed, and he alone tidied my pajamas, ending with a kiss on my forehead. Then my brother smiled with satisfaction.

" Okay, it's like the beginning tomorrow again, deck Hehehe. Brother likes your sigh."

" Ih want. The intention is not that, but can not nahannya, get away with it. Don't get sucked up for bang, so can't stand it. "

" Sweet know deck. Brother does not want to stop, want to make rich lust earlier, more beautiful. Haha."

" Tauk ah. I'm going in first. " Quickly I went straight away leaving the brother who was still sitting there because of my embarrassment. I went into the house and went to my room. With a still beating heart.

Again, my brother made me feel what I had never felt. My sane taste has been covered with a sense of pleasure. Lust makes me push back the fact that I've crossed my boundaries.

I should have stopped him. But I enjoyed it instead.

trying to dismiss and ignore that what I did was not worth doing, and always justifying the mistakes I made.

If lust has power, then logic can do nothing.

If lust is already in power then it will promise a variety of pleasures, then the common sense can not think and distinguish truth and error.

It is not an easy thing not to be tempted by the lure of pleasure.

It is not an easy thing to be able to limit yourself and defeat lust when there are many holes in the defense wall.

If there is faith, and the strength of faith may still be a shield of defense.

But my grief made me break down those defenses, and then I ran in search of pseudo-happiness with the expulsion of lust.