Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Season 2 ~ Disappointed

" Lol today I'm taking the day off, yes, about her my husband is sick."

" Yes, no papa. Hope you get well soon, huh mbak?"

" Yes Lol, thank you. Assalamualaikum."

" Neylorda."

I called Loli, told her I was taking my vacation. From last night mas Nirwan fever and cough.

Seeing him lying weakly in bed made me not have the heart.

" Are we going to doctor yuk?"

" Not really."

" Let's get well quickly mas, your body is very hot, I if you cough horrors that you, I don't have the heart."

" It will heal too."

" How to heal if you do not want to check and take medicine. This is why I do not like if you smoke, if you cough until rich gini, I know you have been silent - silent smoking right? yes, if you do not want to check, I buy drugs at the pharmacy."

" Yes,"

" I've been staying a while."

If mas Nirwan is sick noah why I also became dizzy, so lazy eating, I can accompany him lying on the bed all day, sometimes also while mijitin him head and chest.

" Nih eat first yes mas, I bought the meatballs earlier, finished eating in taking the medicine."

After taking the medicine, I petrified Adi in front, while occasionally looking at Nirwan mas while checking his temperature, and if not crowded I accompanied him lying in the room. I always buy her the food she likes so she stays **** dine. I can't leave her if she's sick like this.

" How's mas? is it better yet?"

" His head is still dizzy, incandescent here."

" Okay, here I go."

***

One year passed.

Eventually a debt of 10 million can be repaid within a year. Nirwan and I were very frugal in order to set aside money each month to repay the debt, and finally after a year passed the debt can be repaid. Free from the burden that every month we must prioritize first and set aside other needs that we think are not too important.

It feels good, now there is no need to think about it every month. There is more money now can save, and can buy other needs that have been delayed.

" Where are you from? after closing the stall do not sleep rest even do not know where, the smell of cigarettes again, you smoke again huh?"

" No."

" Lie, honestly, at least it's better."

" Yes if you don't believe."

" How to believe, the same body your mouth smells of cigarettes."

" What do you want to say."

" I just don't want you to why - napa mas, the effects of cigarettes are long-term maybe now you have not felt it, in a few more years or at your old age will certainly have an impact on your health, if you are sick you also feel it. I want to be healthy in old age, and see our children succeed. You do not pity if later our child is still small there is a school you keep sick - the pain continues who wants to earn a living? how am I with your son? luckily you smoke what the hell? what benefits too? I know that mas also you buy your money, but this is your health problem, I really love mas with you, I just don't want you why - napa, if you are sick, I just don't want you, the pain can be shared with me, I am willing to ease your pain so that you do not suffer, but it can not, and you know how worried I am if you are sick? you promised me, it was just your little promise to me, you couldn't keep it either, being lied to was sick, even if it was just a small thing, please guard my trust, do not disappoint me with your little promise, I beg you. All this time I've been following you, this time you just beat me up. If you do not want to be taken care of it is up to you, if you still want to be in the business of horrin."

" Yes, yuk sleep is night."

" You always do that when you say, make a sprain."

" Yes yes, I'm sleeping."

***

Today I took my holiday.

I really want to walk - the road where it is not to work continuously.

I really want to be rich when dating first who is often invited to play.

Do not have to play far away, or an expensive place, enough to be invited to ride a motorbike - muter where also already seneng, which is important both.

" Where to go - yuk, where to go."

" My work is more sek, now why I'm easily tired if driving far."

" Not far, close, or we buy meatballs where it is, which is a good place to hang out."

" Not now, am I working."

" Yes, yeah. I'm gonna take a shower first."

A liverache? ja. Disappointed? sure, really disappointed. Is my request too much for him? that is, every time it is rejected there is pain created.

It's just my feelings or it's Nirwan who's starting to change.

I think after marriage, she'll be more attentive. We will still be like we used to be, walking hand in hand, often hugged, often kissed.

But the truth is, it's not like that.

After a long marriage, he was not as careful as before, I invite him to walk also now do not want, let alone to hug, kiss was rare.

From this I felt why now it was different, what was my fault for making him change his attitude towards me? after she found out the bad side of me she regretted marrying me?

All this time I felt that I was being nice, I tried not to bother her, I did not ask or demand much, it was from my point of view. From his point of view, I may have made a mistake that disappointed him. But I really don't know what that is.

Maybe now is the time for me to improve again.

" Where in Nirwan?"

" Don't know the boss mom, out just as you don't know where, did you say the same mom boss?"

" No, I took a shower."

Again - again this way, you prefer to go with your friend than the same me huh mas? am I too embarrassing for you to take your way out.

I cried in the room, I wanted this pain to go away with the tears that kept dripping.

But when I remembered it, the pain was present again.