Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Chapter 14

Exams

Arriving at school,

" How are you guys doing, no?" asked Aisyah, while walking over to us who are sitting under the front tree of the class.

" Yes, deg degan kaya wants to meet boyfriend ," answered me while chuckling.

" What about it later, is it hard, isn't it?" ask mbak Okta.

" It's not really that hard. If we can do it" replied Yani.

" Your brains are watered. So it can be answered easily. Lha me? the most I can answer is only a portion, the other half the cup chip stamp. Relying on luck." I said that managed to make them chuckle.

" Not dong. Spirit, surely we can. " Said Aisyah.

How can concentration, if his mind is divided - divided. If this is not one heart and two love. But one head, many burdens and thoughts. Heh is more dizzy than calculating mathematical formulas. Good thing my head is rich in doraemon bags. Although the contents of many settings fit, the head is still good, not growing. Try it - for rich bread. Kan rada yang ni head, the contents are reduced. Maybe his brain could be as thin as theirs. Huh, it must be the spirit of Ayu, which is important just effort first. Others will think later. Focus on the same exam.

" Oi !!" call mbak Yani.

" Ehh yes mbak, "I was shocked.

" That bell sounds. You have been called - call nyut, let's go to class. Her Bengong in later again, " said mbak Yani.

" yes yes, yes, yes." My answer, I immediately rushed to follow Yani.

Then we go to class, sit in each seat - each according to the number and name that has been attached to the table.Unlike ordinary lesson hours. When the test the atmosphere is quieter, quieter, there is no noise, so make it easier to concentrate fully.

One by one the answer columns on the exam sheet are filled. Luckily I was able to focus, although the sadness in my heart was still very much felt. But the brain can still be compromised. There are some things I find difficult. Simply filled with origin alone, hehehe.

***

After the exam, we did not go home. We chose to chat first in the school garden, while taking a break.

" What was that about, you think? " said Aisyah opened the chat.

" It's good," replied Yani briefly.

" There are some things that are difficult" added mbak Okta.

" You tried your luck with Yu. Eraser or shirt button.? Ask Aisyah.

" You are you Shah. But I don't use both. I used a new method." Answer me.

" Wih advanced. Use any method, what method? " ask Aisyah curiously.

" The escort method, hahaha," I replied with a laugh. Make another, just smile wryly.

" Later I will stay at your house Yu, just calm not to be sad.Later I will be met, "

said mbak Yani.

Because of my brother Yani so now he knows the condition of my family.

" He'em, thanks ma'am, "my answer is short.

The words mbak Yani just reminded me, that today my mother is not home.

" Your father is very much Yu. I can't imagine how your mother feels, her husband is loving another woman." Aisyah.

" yes. Must be really sick, huh? why did your father not think anyway, if your mother told you to go there, what about you here? " he said Okta.

" I don't know either, nor do I consider this their selfishness. Let them solve their problems in a way they think is right. If this is a sacrifice I have to pay, I'm willing that it's important they're happy, "my answer.

" Yes this is their problem, they should also think dong. As a result of their actions, who was affected by the impact " said mbak Yani.

" Let me mbak, what can I do? they won't listen to my opinion either. I'm still a kid who doesn't understand anything, that's how I look at them." I said.

" It's complicated, is it a household problem? How are you doing, Ay?" ask Aisyah.

" Ay ? " tanya Okta and Mbak Yani.

" Yes Ayu. It was more called Ay deh, than Yu, "Aisyah replied.

" I'm in charge of sewah. I have not been able to cook, because all this time my mother took care of all my needs. I'm too dependent on him. If I knew you were going to leave, I learned to cook from a long time ago, "i said, bowing in lethargy.

" What happens in front of us is God's secret, and no one knows. If we knew what was going to happen in the future, I don't think there would be any such thing as regret" Okta said

" Yes, you're right. What happened to you, it's been a scenario from God. You are the only one who lives it. Ready not to be ready is the reality. " The Imbuh mbak Yani.

" The key is to be patient and sincere. I know you're strong. Cooking problems you can learn slowly, right? Yes itung - itung self-study. The spirit of Ay. We're all there for you. If we need help, if we can help, we'll help." Aisyah.

" Thank you all" I said in tears. I was moved by this friendship, they were so kind to me.

***

I felt like we had enough to talk, we decided to go home. Because the day is getting late and the sun is already very stinging.

Arriving home.

" Assalamualaikum," my regards.

I wait - wait no loud voice returned my greeting.

Oh yes I forgot, there is no one at home, mom is gone. Very quiet house if there is no mother.

I went straight into the room.

Usually if again go home and enter the gini house I immediately greeted mother. Otherwise I'll look for it while shouting.

At the study table there was a pack of my favorite biscuits. My mother must have left it for me. I'll get that biscuit. I hugged and yes, broke already my tears.

Buk, where are you now? I miss you. Just a few hours ago you left me dead. But I've been so missed. Hurry back buk, I can't without you.

It is not easy for me to live this life without my mother by my side.

Yes indeed I cry, because it is used to depend and what - what mother, left suddenly like this is not an easy thing for me. What else before was I never left far away mother.

I need time to get used to life without a mother.

Let me cry, often cry, for this is my process, before I adapt and get used to my solitude.