Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Chapter 45

**Turn**

I didn't see my brother all day. No messages or calls from him. I know maybe my brother is still very disappointed with my decision.

As usual at nightfall, I sat and looked at the sky as usual. As I sat beside the house, suddenly my brother came to me.

" Ehm, "

" Eh there's a brother. Here sit."

" Well sitting here on the deck, what the hell's pulling it?"

" Yes bang. The most comfortable place to enjoy the night. "

" But my brother is also very cool sitting here, every night brother so he can see adek."

" I think you're angry."

" Yes that's how it is. More precisely, disappointed."

" I'm sorry bang."

" It's not wrong. Brother believes that a soul mate will not go anywhere."

" Yes bang. once again I'm really sorry, "

" It's the deck. Don't talk about it anymore. We enjoy our time together which is a little while away."

" I'm sure I'll miss you a lot."

" Same deck. Brother must be."

" Play the bang there, where I am."

" She wants deck. Tomorrow if there is time. But no promise, right? "

" yes. I know my brother is busy too.Set from here to there is also a long distance."

" Well, if you can, I want to go there."

" Geek wait there, hahaha."

" Yuk dek street,"

" Where's bang?"

" Where you go, just a little deck,"

" Em nyari ice cream aja bang the same snack. In the future, don't go far."

" It's up to my brother. Yes it's the road yok, "

" Wait a moment bang.Don't take the jacket first."

We're just looking for a shop that's not far away. I just want to grant my brother's request. Maybe he wants to stay with me longer.

After returning from buying a snack we sit back on the terrace.

" The deck here sits on my brother's lap again, "

" Not ah bang I'm heavy."

" Come on deck, will be away again, consider a request before the farewell. "

" Okay, but if your brother's leg hurts don't mistake me, "

" not on deck. "

I followed, and ate ice cream while sitting on my brother's lap.

Comfortable brother in me, too, hehehe.

" Sister wants to? let me bribe. "

" With pleasure deck. "

I enjoy ice cream while feeding my brother.

" The ice cream from the adek hand tastes sweeter."

" Can be the brother. "

" Deck here look brother, "

" What else bang, "

My brother drew his face close to mine, and his brother licked my lips, causing me to be surprised.

" I'm beautiful - beautiful why belepotan. "

" What is it? lying, surely brother is just an excuse for wanting to kiss me right? "

" Two - both of them were indeed leftover ice cream lipped adek, because it made brother could not bear to want to kiss adek. Haha. "

" Fuck the brother."

" Dek brother can ask for something? "

" What do you want to ask for? I don't have anything."

" I just wanted to kiss my brother, "

" Start getting perverted. Usually also directly nyosor just do not use excuse."

" This time my brother wanted to be adek who kissed my brother, make mementos - memories."

The cup! I kissed brother's left cheek.

" Why there? "

" Where is the same bang, the important thing is kissed. "

" Sister wants it here. " When his index finger pointed at his lips.

" Okay okay."

The cup! I kissed my brother's lips. But my brother held my nape, and there was a hot kiss. My brother's hand has crept everywhere.

" Let brother do what brother wants tonight deck."

I'm just silent, honestly brother's kiss has set me on fire.

Brother kissed me again, this time brother kissed me, ******* my lips, played his tongue gently.

With hands that were already busy squeezing and twisting my twin hills, making sighs for the sake of sighs escaped from my lips.

The more I sighed, the more my brother lusted at my body.

This time change the mouth of my brother who plays on my twin hills.

" Bang ahhhh emhhhh, suuuudahhhhh."

" sigh me brother likes. "

" emhh, I'm afraid there are ahhh who hear emhhh, "

" A little while, "

" emhhhhhh, ughhhhh, my brother. "

My brother did not listen to my words. It's even more wild playing my twin hills. I also enjoyed it so much.

When my brother was satisfied then my brother finished with the activity. I don't know what my face is like now. There is a sense of pleasure mixed with shame into one.

After my brother finished confirming my shirt back, I leaned on the chest with still sitting sweetly on my brother's lap.

" why? spoiled tumben, usually nagging - this ngomel is not because."

" Sniff."

" Feary why? the person who is - no."

" Cappy sigh. Hehehe, ******my description bang. hiks"

" It hurts? duhh sorryin brother ya deck, brother was out of control. Cannot get close - close to the same. Hehe. Here try brother see? "

" No, I'd like to, I'd like to do it again."

" Hahaha, who's wrong really. "

" The wrong perverted brother. "

" Maha."

That's how the mistakes I made kept repeating. The pleasure I get makes me addicted. The pseudo-pleasure that keeps pulling me so I always repeat the same mistakes. Because this way I can forget him for a moment.

On the other hand there is a tremendous sense of guilt because I am sure when you know for sure you will be very disappointed. Although my honor is still awake, but part of my body has been touched.

But lust has power within me, overpowering everything. Until all that I can tepis.

I don't feel like time is passing by so quickly. It has started to enter the month of Ramadan, meaning soon I will be home. There is happiness, there is sadness. Happy to be reunited with family soon. Sad to have to part with the people here. Bang Rian, Kak Lili's family, the grandfather who was like his own son, the good mother. Those who accompanied me for about a year here. They are my new family that I love very much.

The fasting month here is rame.Ya even though only the family of Lili, the mother's family is the same as me, but it is quite crowded.

I really enjoyed my last days here with bang Rian and the others.

There was tremendous sadness when I apologized and said goodbye to them.

The sweet memories I painted in memory. It will always be the most beautiful thing I have experienced.

The incident when together with Bang Rian, will also be an unforgettable memory.

Thank you so much for filling the void in my heart after his death. Even with you I always make mistakes but I'm not a hypocrite, I really enjoy it. Even though I know what we're doing is wrong. But I can't help it not to do it anymore either. Hopefully with my departure, with me away from you, I hope I can change. I'll try not to do it again.

Thank you so much for the happiness you always make sure of. Sorry if I hurt my brother. Good bye bang. Take good care of yourself - well, hopefully we can meet again.

Taking a long journey does not feel exhausting. Because it is very happy, can not wait to meet the beloved family again. I can't wait to get home and hug them.

After taking that journey

very long. Finally arrived at the beloved palace. My home is not as good as where I work. But here's where it's most comfortable. There is a warmth of family that always makes me want to go home quickly. My palace is the best place for me to return. My palace is far from a fancy word, just a simple hut but full of heavenly warmth, which always makes me long to go home quickly wherever I am and how far I go.

No matter what the food in the place of the people. It is better to keep food made by mom. Although simple and what it is but I always crave to eat it.

To hug them tightly which I have missed so much all this time.

My cry broke while on the deck of mother.

" Ku Ayu kangen, "

" Yes mother too. My mother's girl is getting more beautiful. How is it getting wider?" Ibuk temptation.

" Hehehe what is buk? it's good to be more bohay. "

" You exist - there is."

" Mom's good, right? are you the same mom?"

" This is how the household nduk. It's only natural that there's a little fight. Yeah, I took a shower first, it's already hot water."

" Thank you buk. My mom is always the best." I went after kissing the lightning on my cheek, it made my mother smile.