Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Season 2 ~ After marriage

Thank you for being the most beautiful part of my life story, you will always be the most beautiful ex of my life.

Maybe we're not destined to be together, maybe I'm not the right woman for you.

Mas,,

I never regret ever being a loved one in your heart. Behind him I felt very lucky.

My regret is the lack of it in me fighting for you, so you stay away, and I give up on it.

I honestly still can't forget you and I don't know if I can do it either.

This time, our relationship is really over, there is no hope anymore.

I'm sorry I can't fight for our relationship anymore, when my body gets dirty being tainted by other men, I'm ashamed to meet you, even just to send a message to you. I no longer deserve you.

When this man beside me made a sacred promise, there I had no hope of ever being with you again.

Once again I say goodbye, I hope you will forgive my selfishness.

I will always ask HIM for your health and happiness.

Take good care of yourself - yes.

One week ago, I and I officially became husband and wife.

Happy, that's for sure. Relieved and very grateful.

There was no party or reception. Only ijab qobul with a simple event, wearing white kebaya and ordinary makeup.

But it doesn't affect the happiness I feel.

Not being a queen for a day, in a luxurious dress and throne like a king and empress, by being the legal wife of a Nirwan mas was enough for me.

Not do not want, want the truth, but the desire to get married with mas Nirwan was greater.

I want to end the relationship immediately without a legitimate bond, can not control lust, can not stop committing adultery anyway, only by getting married was that what I thought to be the best path I could take.

After marriage, everything is different now, different statuses, and I also have to be a wife who can serve all the needs that mas Nirwan needs.

So far my days are still sweet.

The more days I love my husband.

After marrying me and mas Nirwan decided to return to Java, mas Nirwan could not leave the stall for too long.

although it is not a big place to eat, but it is his own business mas Nirwan which he pioneered from scratch.

" Nduk will come tomorrow to any stall at home?" ask Nirwan to me.

After marrying Nduk was her calling for me.

" Come with the mas, cook it at home. Let's say honeymoon, hahaha."

" Yes good then, but narrow bed, later you are not comfortable?"

" As long as you're anywhere, it's convenient."

" Could it be you, have I stayed out for a while?"

" Where are you going?"

" Want to get the bike to Adi's house."

" Keep mas to Adinya's house on foot?"

" No, it's been picked up Adi, he's been waiting in front."

" Why not be asked to come in?"

" She hurried to leave, he said."

" Oh, out of Adi's house straight home huh? don't stop by - stop by."

" Yes dear. Yes, I've left first, assalamualaikum."

" Waalaikumsalam, be careful on the road, and quickly go home."

" Yes nduk."

Not long after Mas Nirwan left, there was a call on my phone, it was from my mother.

" Hello buk assalamualaikum."

" Waalaikum salam, nduk. What else?"

" It's all right again - go through the buk, again pack tomorrow will go with mas Nirwan to his stall."

" Did Nirwan treat you well?"

" Honestly my mother actually does not like your choice, but how else do you insist and argue that she still chooses him, or else you agree to your choice."

" Ibuk, yes no more revealed, sorry I am buk, selfish do not want to listen to ibuk advice. Sorry to have to force you to accept my choice. All this is my choice, no matter how I will live it, if it is my choice there will be no regrets buk."

" Ibuk just don't want to, later your fate is the same as my mother. I want you to get the people who are, so that your life is guaranteed, you are not in trouble."

" I know what you mean, but I'm also not a fan of buk possessions, by living with the people I love is enough, the issue of property can be sought together. His name is alive, there are times when it must be difficult first to open. I've prepared myself for that buk."

" Well, if it's your decision, I just want the best for you, I love you so much."

" I love my mom too, don't worry, I'm fine, and by marrying someone I love, it makes me happy."

" Thank God, my mother was happy. Take good care of yourself - good yes nduk."

" Yes, my mom is too. I have to take care of my health."

" Yes nduk. Yes, I continued a few."

" Yes buk."

" Assalamualaikum."

" Waalaikumsalam buk."

I know what I'm afraid of, but these are all options that I have chosen buk, however I can not separate from mas Nirwan because I and he had already made a mistake, he said, and I can't just let go of him without his responsibility.

I'm sorry I had to selfishly impose my will on my father and mother.

This is all I can do, because if I tell you the truth, it will make you hurt and disappointed.

Either way, hard or happy I will live it without regret.

" Eye."

Mas Nirwan hugged me from behind. Because it made me surprised.

" Aaaa mas makes me surprised anyway."

" Dreamy of what the hell nduk, until the mas comes you do not realize it."

" No, it's nothing."

" really?"

" Em, mas?"

" Yes." Yeah."

" Are you ready to live with me hard? I'm not a rich kid with a lot of inheritance, huh? if I'm used to working, I'm hard-earned to make money. Will you ever regret that I was forced to marry me, and end up having to work hard to support me?"

" You're talking about what the hell sek, I'm a man, and my responsibility is to make a living for you, but I'm not ready if we have a baby."

" Yes, no papa. I know."

" It's not because I refuse rizki, but I want to live our lives better first, at least have savings, because this time my savings run out, sorry for not being able to give a fancy wedding for you."

" With I being able to marry you alone, it has made me happy. Because the important thing is not the grandeur of a wedding party, but the pronunciation of ijab qobul is from you and authorized by religion and the country is not mas?"

" Yes, thank you very much."

" Same, thank you for marrying me. Let's face the myriad of difficulties that are already waiting for us ahead, hehehe."

" Yes, you're with me."

" Yes, whatever the important circumstances we face together."

" Yes, eat the hungry yuk."

" I took it for a minute, Dad."

" Yes dear."

" what do you want to bribe yourself to eat?"

" Bribery can be."

" Ih spoiled."

" His name is also the newlywed."

" While it's not a newlywed anymore, I want us to stay like this mas."

" I am too."

Actually I want us to have a baby soon, but I also know how we are doing now. Just like you mas I also want to give the best for our children, at least we have a little savings to buy his needs.

Sorry God is not for refusing, I also know the child brought his own rizki, but for now we are not ready. Hopefully, when we are ready, God will entrust the baby to us.