Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Extra part 7

When I turned my back and wanted to leave, Mas Nirwan held my hand. And then hugged me.

" I'm sorry, sorry, I really don't mean that."

" What do you mean?"

I tried to rebel wanting to break away from her embrace.

" I don't mean to, come in later I'll explain.".

" What else should you be clear, everything is very clear. You don't love me, you just want to benefit me."

" No, no, no, plis horrified my explanation first, I also did not mean to lie to you."

" Go in first, I promise I'll clear everything inside. This is just a misunderstanding not as you imagine. Please come in first, look at your wet clothes."

Because of his persuasion and seduction I also agree with what he said. I followed her into her house. I had made up my mind to leave and no longer wanted to believe him. But after meeting him, face to face with him, persuading and rayunya, make my throat loosened. My assertiveness is weakening. Again, this feeling of love fooled me. It undermines the resolve I made.

I was also taken to his room.

He stood behind me, pulled down the zipper dress I was wearing, then took off the wet dress I was wearing. Mas Nirwan also took off the bra hook I was wearing.

" What are you doing?"

" Your clothes are wet with you too, your body is cold, you catch a cold."

" I can take it off on my own, come out mas."

" No, I want to help you, I said, don't I want to tell you, you don't want to hear it?"

I just fell silent, from the corner of my heart, I wanted to listen to what he wanted to explain.

Mas Nirwan squatted down and helped me remove the cd that was already wet from the rain.

Mas Nirwan kissed my back and whispered in my ear.

" I want to."

I was silent too, digesting what he said.

Not waiting for my answer, mas Nirwan led me to the position of my body slightly riding, raising my feet to the top of the bed.

He fucked me from behind.

Without warming up, it hurts.

" A sick to me."

He simply fell silent, and he soon reached a release.

Maybe he knew I was tired, so it didn't last long.

I also just kept quiet, then went to the bathroom.

Just wrapped in a towel, I turned back to the room, and hid myself under the covers covering my entire body, well I did not curse anything, my clothes were still soaked.

I speak a thousand languages. I wanted to go home, but my clothes were wet, I just realized what I was going home for? the motor key I gave to Mas Nirwan.

At times like this can - can you still playin me mas. I became more and more convinced that I was for you just a lustful satisfier.

Why can't I leave you, I want to leave you, but this love makes me unable to leave you, how stupid I am, who loves people who only think of me as an outlet for lust.

Mas Nirwan caught up with me, sleeping beside me. I tilted my body so I wouldn't look him in the face.

" How warm is it yet?" she asked, hugging me from behind.

I was still silent, not answering her questions.

" So, yesterday I was lying, out of the closed temen stalls I called to hang out here, I'm not good to refuse them my friend from a long time, I'm reluctant. I didn't know they were here to bring a woman. Why didn't I tell you? that's because I know, you will be angry, you will also definitely think that no. I drank a little because to compensate for them, not to get drunk, maybe just one glass."

" Where there's a hell of a bitch, a full prison."

" It's up to you to believe anything, it's your decision, but it's the truth."

" That girl?"

" I'm not following, really. That's why I was right there with you, because from last night I was holding him back. I have a girlfriend why I play with others, wait for my girl."

" Lied!"

" I didn't lie. Actually, the same time you are also the first."

" I don't believe."

Where there is a new first but already proficient extraordinary. Hem, but I am also not a plain girl - innocent too, before I also never did it well even though it did not reach to the bottom of it, so I have no right to sue him either.

But imagining you playing with another girl makes me claustrophobic. I don't want to replace it with someone else. Ih very ogah. I can't imagine the pain and destruction of me if you're really honest if you play with that girl. I also don't like it when you lie. Maybe this is better for us, Let me not know the truth, let only my heart believe, because I am sure that the honesty you say will be more painful. I'm afraid I can't take it.

" It's up to you to believe anything."

" Promise to marry me?"

" Oh yes, I have promised so many times."

I turned my body and looked at him. With tears in my eyes, I asked.

" You didn't benefit me, did you?"

" Not really."

" I'm not your impingement, am I?

" Not a pug."

" Dear you are the same as me?"

" Yes sek."

" Yes what ?"

" Yes baby you're a pug, my goodness."

" If you're really, baby, I beg you and I ask you very, please don't repeat, I don't like."

" See, this is the last one."

" You know, just by thinking you're with another woman it's made me sick."

" Yes sek. Don't cry it." Mas Nirwan said as he wiped my tears.

" Inget ya mas, don't expect to touch me again if you sleep with another woman, it disgusts me."

" Yes sek."

" Just yes, keep going."

" I still have to answer what sek?"

" Yes, don't you know the truth?"

" Near dear."

" That's what?"

" Yes that's you."

" I don't know what that is."

" Yes it is."

" That's what the hell sek."

" Don't pretend you don't know."

" I don't know what "IT's MU"."

" Yes that's you."

" What?"

" Your junior."

" Hahaha, don't be shy when you say it, have you ever held it too, right?"

" Ih when? the feeling never. Not me times."

" Yes, try to hold it."

" Looky males."

" He asked for it in Elus."

" Bodo is great."

" Hahaha, you're funny when you're embarrassed. Shrimp is angry."

" Hum, uh,"

" I'm forgiven, right?"

" Hes."

" Don't just hem hem aja napa, I'm again nih mumpung no longer wear clothes."

" Yes." Yeah."

" Surely, yes, open the blanket."

" Yes sorry for you."

" O kirain."

" I'm disappointed, huh? duh kasian, it was already."

" Just for a second,"

" What matters is that."

" Tau not sek, I have suffered from holding back from semalem, because - because tuh on the change thatin the girl kept the girl sighing that way, I also so want."

" Who's wrong,"

" I already have you."

" Not to get cold."

" It was his sigh that was fishing. What's more******you, ah that makes add passion."

" Tauk ah."

" Haha. Excuse to know your temptations. Have you eaten yet?"

" It was morning."

" Geez sek, already know have stomach pain, why use late eating anyway, this is already malem you know."

" It's because of you."

" Yes, yeah, sorry. I made some food first."

" Must."

" Okay, baby, wait a minute."

Not long after that mas Nirwan entered carrying a tray containing a bowl of instant noodles and also warm tea.

" I'm sorry it's just this."

" No papa, that's enough. Thanks for that."

" Yes, I woke up and kept eating."

" Yes." Yeah."

" Yes take off the blanket, how would you like it if it is still wrapped in that blanket."

" Yes, it's out."

" Lha why?"

" I don't wear clothes."

" No papa, it's good dong."

" Well, I don't eat."

" Okay, I'm out, I'm gonna take a shower first."

" Yes, yeah."

I ate it very voraciously, probably because of the hunger effect as well. After finishing my meal, I put the bowl on the bedside table. The stomach was full, drowsiness immediately attacked, I quickly lay down did not take long, I slept.

From yesterday I was made tired of heart, tired of mind by this problem, and because the problem was finished it made me very relieved, making my sleep very sound.

Not to mention the cold body, has been warmed with a blanket, the stomach was full will make me sleep more soundly.

My sleep was disturbed because of the embrace of mas Nirwan, well because the city baths were very cold.

" What the hell mas."

" Cold sek."

" I'm tired, I'm so sleepy."

" Just want to hug, really cold sek, delicious hug you body angel, promise sek will not be strange - strange."

" Hes."

" I'm sorry to be so annoying, huh? I slept again."

I fell back asleep in his arms.