Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Chapter 40

Weekly Night

Using the matic motor belonging to Lili. We

down the beautiful city street with the glitter of color - colorful lights. Crowded vehicles bring the streets to a standstill.

Bang Rian stopped at one of the malls in the city. I just follow where Bang Rian took me.

" Why are we here bang? "

" Beneer motor."

" Seriously it's bang. "

" Yes, you like weird. "

" Yes kirain I want to be taken where, it turns out here, I've been here several times with mother. "

" I have not, let's follow it, don't take it. "

" Yes yes, "

I walked behind my brother. Then my brother pulled me to walk beside him.

" Here, what's behind? what will I say later? "

" Will not bang, "

" Ihh wayward. Temenin brother refill perfume first huh? "

" It's up to my brother to follow me. "

Didn't wait long, you're done. Then give me a small bottle of perfume.

" What is this bang ?

" Sate deck, "

" Brother!! "

" Yes weird, obviously - it's definitely a perfume bottle wearing it again. Do you like it not as much as the smell? "

" Em, the smell is good. "

" I don't know your taste, but the way he recommends, just as I try to smell it so you suck, "

" This is for me? "

" Yes deck for you, do you like the smell? "

" Like it, thank you? "

" Same - same lady. Hehehe, "

" So princess, now miss, what else ? "

" Hahaha, which one is it? did you choose to be called madam maybe ?"

" Ih, old dong me? "

" Not deck joking. Yes, I continued the road. What do you want to buy? a shirt? the shoes? the briefcase? "

" No bang, I no longer want anything, have bought my brother's perfume, this is more than enough. Go home yuk? "

" It's been a long way back home. He rarely plays, right? muter first yes, only once there is something you want. "

" Yes. "

I walked casually while chatting with my brother, already like a real couple, hehehe. Maybe because of Sunday night so from last I met a lot of lovers there - here.

When my feet were a bit pegel because the road continued from earlier, I stopped and sat in a small chair.

" Bang stop first, I'm tired. Sitting here no papa time huh? "

" Yes, you wait here first, you just want to buy something. Wait, don't go anywhere if you haven't been here! "

" Yes bang, but not for long huh?"

" Yes, the deck wasn't long. "

I waited for my brother while looking at the passerby. This place is so crowded on Sunday night. Different from a while ago when I was shopping here. Tonight is much more crowded.

" here! " his voice surprised me. In front of my face was a very funny melodic doll. When I put my head up. It turned out to be my brother, smiling very sweetly at me.

" What is this bang? "

" Fish!!! "

" Brand brother !"

" Duh deck so do not dream on. Obviously this is a puppet. Ih from making gregetan aja so gems really want nyubit."

" Yes don't know, usually girls buy dolls for what? for you, let's not be sad. Tuh face has begun to wrinkle because you are sad mulu. "

" It makes me bang again? "

" Yes, "

" Oh, I thought I'd buy you a brother's girlfriend, "

" Whose brother has a deck girlfriend, that's what you bought for you. "

" Thank you very much, you know my brother likes dolls. Oh, good deh. Thanks huh? "

" Yes deck. Just drink first. We keep looking for food. Adek what do you want to eat? "

" I eat anything I want to bang. But I want it on the side of the road, under a tree. Like exciting. "

" According to your request, sweet lady. Walk away!! "

" It is with pleasure, brother. "

We laughed together. Tonight I was very amused by my brother. I can forget my pain for a moment.

According to my request. I stopped by the side of the road there was a fairly large tree there was a seat to eat. The place was very comfortable, I like.

" Don't you eat fried rice papa Kan dek? "

" No papa bang."

" What message do you want? a pedes? or the special one? "

" Same it's rich to have a brother. "

" okay. "

After finishing eating. We decided to go home, today was a lot of fun.

After almost arriving. I took off my helmet. Because it's so uncomfortable. Many times my brother called me but I didn't hear it. To make it easier for us to talk. I take off my helmet, I bring my face to my brother's shoulder.

" This deck is the helmet put in front of me,"

" Well, can you bang, please,?"

" Can deck. Hands adek put on the waist brother, will fall, decketan equally brother so we can chat."

Then I hugged my brother, and leaned my chin on my brother's shoulder. It's like a couple, so romantic.

" Bang thanks for today. I'm seneng. This is the first time I've walked with a bollard with the same bike brother, "

" really? brother got the honor dong means? "

" Yes, you could say so. Thank you again, thanks to my brother I am happy tonight. "

" It's the same. I have long liked the same. I'm going with the seneng if the adek seneng. "

" I'm comfortable with my brother, too. "

" Wouldn't you be brother's girlfriend ?"

" Just yesterday I broke up bang, still sick. I'm afraid I'll be disappointed, brother, "

" I'll help her out. I will try to heal the wounds of the heart. I'll make you happy. If later I was disappointed, it was already a risk deck brother. Because my own brother who wants to enter your life when you again like this, whatever the result will be I will not be wrong adek, how do you want to be brother's girlfriend?"

" Yes, but slowly help me escape this sense of mine to him. Don't force it bang. "

" Yes deck. Brother knows. "

Thank God for bringing me back to a good person.

I try to open my heart again to others. Starting from comfort, hopefully in the future I can establish love as usual. I chose to anchor my heart which is currently hurting. A little indeed, I wish that bang Rian could help me treat this painful wound.

It's not easy for me. Starting a new relationship, out of fear in the shadows of the past. Must start all over again. Knitting the strings of love with different people. I have to adjust and get to know him again.

Honestly, I'm afraid, I can't escape the past. Loving for a long time, making this sense too deeply embedded. Love has grown beautifully.

Bang aren't you disappointed later if I can't love you. Honestly I'm comfortable, but does this comfort can guarantee it will foster that love?

I don't want to be considered evil, because it makes you an impingement.

But I also want to be free from the shackles of my love for her that torment my inner self.

Maybe with me loving you .I can bury my love for her.

I want to be happy without him.

like he could be happy without me. I should be able to do that too.

Help me, slowly bang.

I don't want to find a replacement. Because no one will be able to replace him.

I'm gonna find a new love for money. Who can defeat and bury my love for him.