Mistakes & Selfishness Behind Happiness
Chapter 7

...Father affair...

" What else is nduk? " Tanya ibuk.

" Out again break buk. This again play mobile phone, mumbuk nyamperin me to the room. What's up buk? my mom is not papa, right?" Ask me worried.

" Ntah is nduk. I'm confused about your father's attitude late - late this. Being angry for unclear reasons. Yesterday I held my father. Though mother just open a message from her boss father, the father was angry ibuk, mother confused nduk, with the attitude of the father now, "

I was confused how to remember. I'm sure you're cheating, but I can't bear to say the same mother. With this story, I'm sure your mother is no longer able to bear the pain.

" Patient mom, we just pray that you change quickly and return to the way you were," I said, trying to comfort my mother.

Buk I don't know how to nenangin ibuk. I don't know how to entertain my mother. I know, I must be hurt right now. I also know that I love my father very much. I hope what I fear is not true. Honestly, I also hurt to see you guys like this, see my mother sad.

" Yes nduk. Mother will try as much as she can, mother also always pray, may our family always be good - fine. "

I hugged my mother very tightly. My mother's hand was stroking my hair. I showered a kiss at the top of my head. I wanted to cry in her arms, but I held it as hard as I could. I want to be the strength of my mother, so I have to be strong. He was strong in front of my mother.

I can't cry. I have to be strong. Open me up I'll be your strength, hold on. There I am, let's go through it together. I will not leave my mother. Hopefully this hug can give a little peace to mom.

" Yes already there eat first, mother already masakin your favorite food," said mother while breaking her embrace.

" Have I eaten yet? eat together yuk buk, a plate of both, keep bribe me huh? " take me.

I know you haven't eaten yet, right?. In the presence of a rich mother like this mother is still perfect - just think of cooking my favorite food. Though I know, to just think of mother's own stomach was lazy mother. Thanks buk. I love you, very much.

" Ihh manjanya ibuk girl. "

" No papa. I have not been bribed for a long time, hehehe" answered me, grinning the horse.

After finishing eating with mom. I watched TV with my mom. While I play mobile phone, sms-an as usual the same mas Afif.

This morning I decided to go back to work. Though Sunday is usually the father of the holiday in the same gathering house we. But today I even want to go back to work, with the reason not good with the boss because it has been off too long.

Maybe because it's too fast, father's phone left at the table.

After arriving in Jogja the new father realized that his cellphone does not exist. He borrowed his money to call his phone. Probably thought his phone fell.

" Hello assalamualaikum. " My regards.

" Greetings wa'alaikum. Nok this is the father, no kirain hpnya the father fell. Thank goodness I missed out on home." Said father.

" Yes sir. Missed at the table. Have you arrived? " ask me.

" Nok just now. Yes, I work first, I will go home tonight. "

" Yes already father heart - heart work, if you want to go home do not need to malem - malem. Bring the motor no need to speed. Assalamualaikum ".

" Greetings wa'alaikum. "

But no matter what he is, he is still my father. Although I was very disappointed in him. I still love him.

This is disrespectful. But it was my curiosity that kept persuading me to check my father's phone. I finally opened the inbox on my phone. There are no suspicious messages. You may have deleted it, but God did decide to open your lie. Ting, there's an incoming message from a new number.

📩 +62877******...

I'm sorry, huh? sorry please don't be angry. I didn't mean to, I really love you.

And how surprised I was, I was confused. I just sat in the living room chair. Suddenly I was shocked by the sound of incoming calls from my father's phone. I immediately shouted to call my mother so that mother who received her call. I was still in shock, digesting the message I had just read. I didn't notice whose number was calling .

then my mother came to sit beside me,

" Hello assalamu'alaikum, "greetings mother.

" Wa'alaikum salam "his reply.

Since my mother was sitting next to me, I could hear that the one who called was a woman.

" Well, is there mbak? " Ask him.

" Oh just left, here hp his missed at home.sorry who is it? there need to what? let me tell you later" said my mother.

" This is who is Kelik? " the woman asked back.

" I adeknya mas Kelik, " replied mother.

I was so surprised by my mother's answer, I was even confused. I don't know why I answered that.

Maybe the one who called the new number.

" Know me Linda, her boyfriend is Kelik. Please say yes mbak, yesterday I had a quarrel with mas Kelik. Please apologize if he comes home. Tell him to meet me at the usual place. Say it too if I love him. "

The duarrrrrr ,,,,

Like being struck by lightning in broad daylight. It was as if my neck was suffocating, unable to breathe. It turns out I was right the number that called.

I can't explain what I'm feeling right now. In my mind there was only my mother. And I saw my mother so strong even the look of her face was ordinary, there was no surprise - her shock. Maybe because I don't want to show her sadness. I don't want to cry in front of me.

" I'll tell you that the Kelik mas is coming home." He answered so casually.

Buk I know, your heart must be very broken. Just like you buk. I was also very disappointed with my father.

After the call ended, she brought her cell phone into the room.

" Nduk ibuk wants to take a nap first huh? later if you want to play do not need to wake up ibuk. If you want to play eat first yes," he said with a very sweet smile.

Maybe you think I'm not listening. That's why I act ordinary.

No need to cover her from me,

I've heard everything buk, even I opened a message from him. Seeing you smile so much, it broke my heart even more.

I know for sure your mother will vent her pain.

Tears are expressions of the heart, which cannot be spoken with words.

Sir why is father? where is the less mother? why did you put a third person in the middle of our family?. What kind of happiness do you want? is our love not able to make you happy, so you have to find love from other women? you not only hurt my mother but you hurt me too. I am disappointed with Father. A father I am very proud of, a father whom I have great respect for. Why did you destroy it all, why???

I was in my room all day, sometimes I went out to see my mother's room. Still remains the same, from that mother's room door is still not open. I'm worried about you, but I know you need some time alone, to calm down.

Until nightfall, my mother did not come out to just eat. I dare not disturb Mom. I don't care about the others. I just think about my mom and my mother's problems. Even my phone where, this problem makes me forget everything even mas Afif.

Her morning. I hurried to get up, I smiled a little, I was relieved to see my mother serving breakfast. At least his body is fine, although surely his heart was broken.

" Tumben his mother woke up without being built? sweep it with a smile.

Yes, the fake smile he often showed to deceive me.

Must hurt buk? I have to smile like that in front of me. Why are you not honest? are you trying to keep my feelings?. Don't torture yourself for long. Hopefully as soon as I want to tell a story.

" Yes buk, breakfast with yuk buk, surely ibuk kemaren not eat? mom is not papa, right? because she didn't come out of the room. I'm afraid buk, mom is no longer sick, right? " tanyaku.

" Yet my head was a little dizzy. So the break was a bit long. But now it is healed. Yes, have breakfast together. " Answer mother.

I don't eat here, but I don't feel hungry. Even eating a few mouthfuls feels full.

" How much did you eat it? " tanya ibuk.

" Buru - rush the buk to take a shower. You want to leave in the morning, "my reason. It is because of no appetite.

Soon I will be staying in the kitchen. Take a shower and get ready to go to school.

I was acting normal in front of my friends. I don't want them to know my problem. I'm embarrassed if I get to know with my father's behavior that I think is very disgusting.

But not with Afif. Because my phone can not be contacted, mas Afif to ask the same mbak Yani. Maybe even Yani was curious finally mbak Yani asked me.

" Yu yesterday the Afif called me. Why don't you get the message, call your number is not active, where are you? " Task mak Yani.

" Oh that's mbak, hp I was dead mbak. The battery's gone, I forgot to fire. Yeah, it'll be if you're home not calling him back." Answer me.

" Tumbens? aren't you used to being like this? " tanya Mbak Yani who has begun to suspect.

" Over again bosen same mbak mobile phone. " Answer me.

" Kemaren Afif said you guys are already. No longer the angel - the angel?" ask Yani again.

" Em yes that is, "I answered while grinning the horse.

And every time I'm with my best friend. I try to be ordinary. But not with Afif. I only reply to her messages as necessary, even if she calls me no lift, for various reasons. Honestly I'm ashamed, I'm afraid he'll stay away from me if he knows my problem. I am a little less confident.

Even if I treat it that way, Afif is not angry, not even giving up. Mas Afif still sends messages and tries to call.

📩 Mz Afif

Deck pick up the phone. I'm gonna talk.

📩Mz Afif

Deck why to? what's the problem ? same story as me?

📩Mz Afif

Did you love another man?

Deg,, the last message from Afif's mas dawned on me. I don't want him to misunderstand.

📨I

What the fuck is mas? don't be weird - weird. Tomorrow Sunday we meet at the place yesterday, huh mas?. But I don't have to bring them tomorrow I explain everything.

📩Mz Afif

Finally deck you reply to my message. I miss the deck, I miss it. I'm waiting for you tomorrow at the usual place.

I decided to talk to Afif. Clear up this misunderstanding. In the end he will be how, I just need to prepare my heart with all the possibilities that will happen later.

Sunday morning - early in the morning I was ready. I say goodbye to mom, want to exercise healthy way. Once there is a heart waiting for me. As the beginning of the meeting, she greeted me with her sweet smile.

" How's the deck? how can I be kurusan anyway?. " Task her.

" Good news. What is skinny? it's the same kayak. This cheek is still chuby." Answer me with a smile.

" I know your deck isn't okay anymore. Both of your eyes are more honest than your mouth" said mas Afif who made me surprised.

" I guess I could lie to you for longer. But it turns out mas is more sensitive than I thought, "

" Why are you lying deck? haven't I been able to convince you to trust me, and share your problems with me?"

" It's not so mas. I just can't yet. Not able to lose you. I'm ashamed to tell you, I'm also afraid to disappoint you."

" What problem are you facing on the deck, so you can think so about me? "

" It's my family's disgrace, which is actually very embarrassing to tell. But I decided to tell you, because I don't want to be misunderstood. And think no - not about me".

And I told him everything without anything I covered up, I wanted to be tough in front of him.

" Cry on the deck, don't pretend to be tough in front of me. I know you must be tired of playing in front of your mom and your friends. Please don't torture yourself with me,"

He hugged me very tightly. I was really falling in front of him. I cried in her arms, her hands caressed my hair, she showered a kiss at the top of my head.

" Cry until you are satisfied in my arms. I know after coming home from here, you will definitely start your play again. Why are you just telling me now deck? must you be suffering so much?".