I Fall in Love Wrong
Chapter 102 The wild side of shame
At home, Velicia was sobbing in her room. Even all the room lights in the house are not used. He recalled that very embarrassing incident.
He held her cheek which was slapped by Tania. Then she held onto her hair that Tania had grabbed and her arm that was hit by Tania using her support stick.
She came back crying as she still felt the pain of the slap, jubilant and punch that Tania gave her. Everything can be felt very real.
His crying is now heartbreaking. He had not expected that the wild side of him to come out, making it what it is today. To receive ill treatment from others.
Before he decided to get in touch with Raymond, he knew the consequences of his actions. But, now when that time came, he felt extremely miserable because of it.
At this time thirst and hunger are not felt. Everything happened so fast. The farewell Raymond wanted for not wanting to make him suffer, has now happened. Even before the breakup happened, he had now gotten scorn from many people.
Soon her tears were wiped out. He realized that his tears could not make things better. Unfortunately, her tears came back when she recalled Raymond's sad face, just like her. The face of the man she loved looked so sad as if she was not willing to part with him.
What happened to our love? What's wrong with loving each other? Am I wrong to fall in love? Or maybe we both fell in love wrong? Velicia said in her heart.
He longed to mourn his fate. The household that was originally very beautiful and made her very happy, instantly became hell for her. Now she has a love she never felt with her husband. But their love is judged by many. Even everyone acts like their parents who disapprove of their loving relationship.
The sound of the roar of the car that entered the courtyard of his house made Velicia aware from her daydream. She immediately wiped her tears and pretended to be asleep without changing her clothes. Even his bag was still beside him.
Ferdi was shocked to see his house from the outside still dark, as if uninhabited. His face again looked annoyed at the thought of his wife who was still outside the house with another man who was none other than Raymond.
Enter him with emotions still lingering in his chest. They were given one by one all the lights in the room in their house.
Suddenly his eyes widened as he opened the door of his room and saw his wife lying on the bed without changing her clothes and putting back her bag, as if she had accidentally fallen asleep there.
He let out a sigh of relief at finding his wife at home, unlike what he had imagined just before he entered his house. He closed the door again without greeting or waking his wife.
Velicia looked towards the door when she heard the sound of the door closing. He looked at the door with a sad look. Even without realizing it, her tears were dripping back. She felt guilty at her wedding.
The marriage she agreed to when her husband proposed to her was not what she had imagined at the time. Everything feels different. Even his feelings are different. It used to be Ferdi who he was proud of, but now all that sense is gone with the time and the life he lived with him.
Should I live the same life as all this time, as if nothing had happened? If it really has to be like that, I hope I die quickly so I don't feel any of this. The feeling that tormented me and the shame on everyone who looked down on me, Velicia said in her heart accompanied by her tears that were not ceaselessly dripping down her cheeks.
His eyes were closed in what was happening right now. Her heart ached knowing that hers belonged to someone else. Even his current self could be said to have lost because it did not have the heart of his wife. Only her body was at home with her.
Tonight, the two of them went back to sleep separately. And there was no dinner together even though their stomachs were both unfilled.
Velicia could not sleep, she could only ponder and lament over everything that happened. He wanted to be happy even though it felt like he was facing death every day. The punishment for infidelity was like being in hell for him.
He and I got heaven at first and at the end of the day he and I felt like they were living in hell every day. Tormented because of our feelings of love that cannot be united and tormented because our relationship ended not because of our wishes.
Velicia said in her heart while crying in disdain with her right hand gripping the shirt on her chest due to the unbearable pain inside her chest. And her left hand that closed her lips so that the sound of crying did not come out and could not be heard by her husband.
The next morning Velicia woke up from her sleep. It turned out that last night he accidentally fell asleep while crying over what happened. Soon she woke up and cleaned her body. He hoped that his eyes would not swell from crying for too long until he fell asleep.
After she was dressed, she came out of her room to cook breakfast as usual. Still in an uncomfortable mood, he tried to behave as usual. There is no other choice for him at the moment. She had to go back to being a Velicia who had no heart for anyone. Although in his heart still beautifully engraved the name Raymond there.
Ferdi who had just come out of the bathroom outside his room was astonished to see his well-dressed wife on his day off.
“Mother where to go?” asked Ferdi while rubbing his hair using a small white towel.
Velicia stopped her cooking fried rice and turned to Ferdi. Then he answered,
“Mau to school.”
Ferdi frowned while looking at his wife with a look of disbelief at his wife while saying,
“Not it now on holiday?”
“Today start new student registration. If you don't believe me, just go there. To see me lying or not,” replied Velicia with her flat face.
Then he resumed his cooking activities regardless of Ferdi's gaze which seemed to not believe him. He does not care about the views of others. He just lived his life like a robot that doesn't care about anything and doesn't have any taste.
After that Ferdi went into his room and changed his work clothes that had been prepared by his wife. Ferdi really felt uncomfortable with their current situation. He also cannot change what happened. Now they can only live their lives following the flow of life.