I Fall in Love Wrong
Chapter 41 Lamenting the Fate

Velicia pity to see her husband shed tears. Just this time she saw her husband's tears after they had been married for five years.

Both her hands grabbed her husband's body and carried him into her arms. Her husband rubbed her back to calm her down.

"Mas Ferdi shouldn't be afraid, I'm not alone, I'm here. I'm Mas's wife and I'm ready to help whenever Mas needs to" Velicia said as she hugged her husband.

"I'm ashamed of you Ve. I want to look perfect in front of you" said Ferdi softly as his hand returned Velicia's embrace.

"What about not having children can look perfect? Instead we look imperfect in front of people" Velicia said in response to Ferdi's remarks.

"Mas, can I ask you something?" velicia said as she hugged her husband's body.

"What is Ve?" tukas Ferdi who still hugged his wife.

Velicia let go of her embrace and sat back down before her husband. Then she looked into her husband's eyes and said, 

"Do surgery so we can have offspring."

Ferdi was surprised to hear Velicia's request. She thought Velicia just knew and didn't understand that much. 

Honestly, Ferdi is actually very afraid of any kind of surgery. Big surgery or small surgery, he's very scared.

It was just that back then he intended to delay having a descendant. But, for some reason until this second if asked if he is ready to have children, surely he will answer not ready.

"How come, did Mas Ferdi want to do it? I would be very happy if Mas Ferdi would do the operation" Velicia said with a pleading gaze at her husband.

Seeing the look in his wife's eyes begging him, he became unbearable. But her fear was greater than her sense of unworthiness towards Velicia.

"But Ve, I'm not ready yet. I-"

"When did Ferdi feel ready? It's been five years. We should have had a cute child by now" Velicia said with a compassionate look at her husband.

"You don't know Ve, because you don't feel it" said Ferdi, who responded to Velicia's remarks.

Velicia laughed, she felt funny at what her husband said. 

"Mas forgot that I was an orphan since I was a kid? What can I not feel, Mom? What Mas Ferdi felt was also the same as how I felt," Velicia said with a chuckle.

 I was so scared of Ve's surgery.

Of course that sentence could not be spoken from his lips. This sentence could only be said in his heart.

Ferdi was still silent, he was busy with his thoughts and was busy chiming in on Velicia's request in his heart.

"If Mas Ferdi still objected, I assume Mas Ferdi no longer wants to defend our household," Velicia said firmly and looked into her husband's eyes.

Ferdi was clearly surprised. He had absolutely no intention of parting ways with Velicia. Even she hastened to marry Velicia because she loves him so much and does not want others to have him, even though she herself is not sure if she wants to have children.

"No Ve, please don't leave me" said Ferdi, holding his wife's hand.

"Then, do the operation Mas, so we can have children" Velicia said very gently and looked at Ferdi's face with a compassionate look.

As if hypnotized by Velicia's soft voice and eye gaze, Ferdi nodded in agreement to his wife's request.

Velicia smiled happily at Ferdi's nod of the head in response to his request.

Ferdi looked in wonder at his wife. His forehead frowned at his wife who seemed to refuse to embrace him.

"I want to ask you something. Since when did Mas Ferdi come into contact with that woman?" ask Velicia to investigate.

Ferdi seemed to be thinking, then he said,

"What do you mean Lani?"

Velicia smiled bitterly hearing the name of the woman being called by her husband.

"Whatever his name is, I don't care. I only care about myself," Velicia replied with a cynical smile at him.

Ferdi let out a rough sigh, he felt like he was digging his own grave.

I should have been able to take Velicia's mind off Lani so she wouldn't get back to being angry at me Ferdi said in her heart.

"I can swear to you if I don't have a special relationship with him. We are just a workmate relationship. Nothing more than that" Ferdi said as he looked into Velicia's eyes and held both of his hands to reassure his wife.

Velicia smiled disdainfully at Ferdi after hearing what her husband said. Then he threw out both of Ferdi's hands that were holding both of his hands.

Ferdi was again surprised by the attitude of his wife who returned angry at him. Just now he was relieved that his wife had already returned to being the affectionate Velicia to him. It turns out that his attitude changed again when discussing his relationship with Lani.

"Ve, what's wrong? I've been honest with you, why are you acting like this?" ferdi asked in a wailing voice to Velicia.

Velicia again smiled disdainfully at Ferdi. Then he said,

"Honestly? Is it true that you have no close relationships other than your coworkers?" this question asked by Velicia seemed to insinuate Ferdi.

"Our relationship is limited to coworkers" said Ferdi confidently.

"I'm not sure if a coworker can bribe when eating in a public place" Velicia said with a cynical smile at Ferdi.

Ferdi widened his eyes. Even her throat felt choked when she was about to try to defend herself after hearing what Velicia said.

"Why Mas? Was Mas Ferdi shocked and wanted to know how I could find out?" velicia said with a cynical smile and stared deeply at her husband.

"But I. not me, that's.he." Ferdi really couldn't say what he wanted to say.

Ferdi's tongue felt stiff, he could not say what was already in his head.

Velicia laughed like a fool when she saw her husband stammering in his defense. 

He laughed at himself who could be caught in such a condition. Being a wife whose husband does not want the presence of a child and being a wife who knows her husband's affair but still can accept the circumstances of her husband.

"Why Mas? Are you confused about defending yourself?" velicia asked in between her laughter.

Ferdi let out a rough sigh and grabbed his hair in frustration. And in his heart he cursed his folly.

Stupid me. Why can't I tell you the truth? What is it about my tongue that does not cooperate with my mind? 

Ferdi tried many times to take a deep breath and slurp it. Then he said,

"Please listen to my explanation."