I Fall in Love Wrong
Chapter 52 Guilt

Operation!

Operation!

Operation!

The word always ringing in Ferdi's ears like a scary scourge for him. The word he did not want to hear was even a condition that their household relationship could remain intact.

"Alright," said Ferdi lirih by force.

Velicia did not expect that her husband who always delayed her operation would be that easy to promise to do so. 

Even every Velicia talked about the matter, surely Ferdi always switched their conversation so as not to talk about the matter anymore.

However, there was something strange about Velicia's heart. He felt it himself, something he did not know.

Strange, why do I feel so ordinary? I should be happy Mas Ferdi would have done the operation. But why do I feel so ordinary? Did I not expect too much from him anymore?

Velicia said in her heart, she felt her heart to try to figure out what she was feeling.

"When?" velicia asked to remove Raymond's shadow from her heart because she felt guilty for her husband.

"Can't you wait until I'm ready?" ferdi asked with a face grabbing her.

Velicia again smiled sinisterly as she folded her hands on the front of her body while saying,

"Who is it when? We've been like this for five years. I suspect, did Mas Ferdi not do that so as not to leave a trace if cheating with another woman."

Ferdi widened his eyes in shock at what his wife was thinking. He did not expect that his wife would think that far about what she was doing, about the vasectomy and about her relationship with Lani.

"What do you mean Ve? I never thought like that. And I've never cheated" Ferdi said with emotion.

Velicia again smiled disdainfully at Ferdi after hearing his words earlier. Then he said,

"It's possible that Mas Ferdi did that so that if Mas cheated with another woman couldn't get a child out of them."

Just sober Ferdi got up from his seat and approached his wife with his hands raised, preparing to hit.

"Why Mas? Wanna slap me? Or hit me? Slap Mas.. slap! Hit if you want!" velicia exclaimed in flames looking at her husband's reaction.

During their five-year marriage, only this time did she see her husband acting like that to her. Not even raising his voice.

And only this time did Velicia behave like that to her husband. Usually she just becomes a submissive wife and is always there for her husband without asking any help from her husband.

Suddenly Ferdi's consciousness returned. He lowered his hand and clenched his hand when it was already beside his body.

"Sorry," said Ferdi softly as he lowered his head.

Velicia who was already fiery due to her emotions, immediately wiped her tears which she carelessly went down while she was challenging her husband to slap and hit her.

Her tears are what I've been out a few times today. Her tears did not end for her husband.

Until he thought and said in his heart,

Would I fight for this household, Mas, if the tears I shed for you were more than enough for just this day. What about yesterday and tomorrow? Will my tears not run out just for you?

Velicia said in her heart as she stared at the angry nanar at her husband.

Ferdi took both of Velicia's hands while saying,

"I'm sorry."

Instantly Velicia threw out both of Ferdi's hands that were holding it. She stared at her husband, saying, 'He looks at her,

"I'm full of your apologies. I don't need an appointment, I need proof. If you mean it, prove it!"

She was crying in the guest room. The sound of his crying was muted using his pillow until he fell asleep exhausted from crying.

Ferdi felt guilty for his wife. He searched his wife all over the room in his house.

He opened the door of the guest room and sighed when he saw that his wife was already asleep with her face covered in pillows.

Ferdi walked into the room and laid his body beside his wife.

His hand hesitated as it would reach for his wife's body to embrace him. But his intention was unanimous, he intended to melt back his wife's heart.

With hesitation Ferdi wrapped his hands around his wife's waist. Feeling no rejection from his wife, Ferdi more tightened his body on his wife's body.

Velicia who had fallen asleep soundly did not feel the embrace of her husband. It seemed like Velicia had been too tired from crying all day so she fell asleep without clearing any trace of her tears.

While at Raymond's house, he felt something was wrong with his feelings. He always thought about Velicia and worried about her circumstances.

Why am I being like this? What am I thinking now? Why is Velicia's face always on my mind? Even her smiles and cries felt real to me.

Raymond was busy saying in his heart while looking at the results of his camera shots while on the beach earlier.

Chequek!

Raymond's door opened, turning his attention to his door.

"Darling...I came home..," exclaimed Tania walking from the doorway with a slight stagger.

Raymond stood up and approached him to help him.

"You why Tania? He said you didn't come home today?" raymond asked as he led his wife to the sofa.

Tania was on the sofa. And Raymond sat down next to him, looking at his wife who was in a state of disrepute.

"I miss you, so after the dinner business is over, I'll be home to see you soon" Tania replied, smiling like a fool.

"You drunk?" raymond asked as he closed his nose earlier as Tania spoke.

Tania chuckled and nodded her head. Then he said,

"I know you must be angry. But I could not refuse their invitation to drink the wine they prepared for us. Take it easy, I'm still very conscious."

Raymond breathed a rough sigh. He looked at his drunk wife and smiled at her.

He could not get angry at Tania because her wife was in a working state at the time. And now he blames himself.

I'm sorry Tania, I should have been in your position if I had received an offer from your parents. Unfortunately I refused it so now you have to work in my place.

Raymond said in his heart while looking pity at his wife. 

Tania closed her eyes and her head fell on the back of the sofa. Then Raymond carried Tania ala bridal style to their room.

He covered his wife's body to the neck. And he looked back at his wife with some questions in his heart.

Is it true that I can love you after nearly five years of our marriage and only about a year of our life together? 

A shadow of Velicia's face with her sweet smile was seen back in Raymond's eyes. Until he looked back at the shadow of their kiss that just put his lips together.

He felt very guilty towards his wife and he promised in his heart to get rid of the feeling he felt towards Velicia.

I will try to love you Tania. As long as you can help me to love you, Raymond again said in his heart.

He kissed Tania's forehead, then he put his body to sleep by hugging his wife's body.