The Essence Of The Darkness
EOTL eps 79: Cannot Backward
EOTL ( Essence Of The Light) - EOTD Season 2 - The Story of Xavier and Sera
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The sun was already properly rolling through the quarter circle of the wall clock when Sera finally opened her eyes. He blinked, then wriggled and his face immediately stumbled onto the hard chest that was starting to feel familiar to him.
Sera's head looked up and his eyes immediately met with an amazingly handsome face that this time did not look intimidating because his eyes were closed.
This guy is asleep, looks tired. This morning after they spent time chatting, looking for names for their future children, then hugged each other with warm hearts full of happiness, without realizing they were asleep again. In his second sleep, Xavier looked very slumbering, there was a gurgle of fatigue on his face.
Come to think of it, last night Xavier also said he would sleep here because of fatigue, right? Was it related to his physical illness, but Xavier deliberately did not reveal it?
Anxiety rattled Sera's mind. All this time Xavier behaved like a healthy man without any problems in his body. In addition to the surface of his skin that is slightly pale, the man did not show any disease that traces his body, which is why Sera always considered that Xavier is a healthy man, he said, forgot that he had a pretty dangerous chronic illness. But last night Xavier opened up, the man clearly told him that he was dying and from his speaking style, Xavier seemed to make sure that he could not live long in this world.
Is that why Xavier stayed away from her pregnant self? Because the man thinks that he will not be able to accompany his children?
“Have finished enjoying my face?”
Xavier's voice then made Sera who was busy laughing her own mind as if pulled suddenly into the real world. His eyes blinked, and immediately met Xavier's clear eyes which smiled back at him.
“You're up?” Nervously Sera asked a stupid question that really did not need to be answered.
Xavier smiled gently and placed the tip of his fingers into Sera.“'s noseI've been awake ever since you looked up at me with a pushy look as if to devour me alive.”
Sera's cheeks were instantly red on in embarrassment, subconsciously she bit her lips and averted her gaze.
“I am not looking at you, I am daydreaming, it just so happens that my eyes are glued to you.” Sera tried to chimed in with a stifled voice resisting embarrassment.
“Why are you daydreaming?” Xavier's question suddenly turned serious, even with the look in his eyes. It made Sera so panted that she looked away.
“Nothing,” Sera could not continue her speech and her voice turned to screeches when suddenly Xavier scooped her up and hugged her tightly in a hold.
“What are you thinking? Are you thinking about Aaron? Because if you think about it, then like I said, it's all for nothing. I'll take care of Aaron.” Xavier's voice turned cold. “Didn't I tell you that you just have to take care of yourself until you give birth safely?”
“Although I did want to discuss Aaron with you, I wasn't thinking about Aaron!” Sera widened her eyes to refute, her head looking up, daring to stare directly at the man.
“So who are you thinking about? You think of me?” Xavier guessed exactly, and the glint in Sera's eyes as she said her sentence made Xavier thin his lips instantly. “Ah so right, you think of me. Why?” tanyanya fast.
Sera bit her lips involuntarily. “You said you were dying. You also said that you didn't want stem cells from our baby's placenta. Then.... were you deliberately meant to die?” The question just slid from Sera's lips, driven by her peaking curiosity.
Xavier was stunned as if he had not expected that Sera would voice that. The man was silent for a long time, creating a tense silence that made the feel inside the room feel stifling.
“I'm dead or alive, no problem for you, right? I'll make sure you're okay.” Xavier's voice sounded tense, as if this man had been forced into a conversation that made him uncomfortable. Even so, Sera could not stop just like that, her forehead wrinkled as she voiced back her question in a serious tone.
“Why are you so eager to welcome your death, Xavier?”
Once again Xavier seemed at a loss for words to answer, extending a silence between them. Then suddenly the man narrowed his eyes, looking at Sera with a piercing glare.
“Why are you so concerned with dying or not me?” Xavier lowered his head, bringing his face closer towards the face of Sera who was looking up in his arms. “Didn't you fall in love with me?”
The question struck a mouthful, making Sera's face red with embarrassment. His hand moved reflexively pushing the man's chest, pushing his body back to escape Xavier's embrace.
“You're too confident!” His voice grumbled furiously.
Xavier did not hold Sera's body in his arms, allowing the woman to retreat away and give a hand-to-hand distance from their bodies.
“I'm too confident?” The man held an annoying smile on his lips. “You who looked at me with teary eyes as if afraid of losing me, made me think whether you might have fallen in love with me. Because if that's the case..” The man squinted back, looking at Sera with a sharp and serious look. “Then destroy any feeling that is within you. Never fall in love with me. I am not the right person to love. I'm as bad as anyone you can love. Trust Serafina Moon, if you dare to drop your heart to love me, I can guarantee that later you will regret later.”
Xavier seemed very confident in his words, leaving Sera stunned and wondering. Why is this guy putting himself so bad? Is that why Xavier feels unworthy to live?
But now Sera was not arguing. At the moment, his relationship with Xavier has improved a bit and Sera does not want to damage it because she needs to discuss with Xavier using a cool head about Aaron.
“A-I'm not in love with you.” Sera spoke in a convincing high tone. “I will never fall in love with you!” reaffirm it again.
Afterwards, Sera impulsively pulled the blanket over her body, then shifted her body to the bottom of the bed and stood up.
“Where are you going?” Xavier supported his head with one hand, his lips breaking into a smile as if amused at Sera's childlike behavior.
“I want to take a shower. I was sweating,” Sera widened her eyes with an accusatory look towards Xavier. “You made me so!” yells pointing.
The oddity slowly slipped from Xavier's lips when he heard Sera's accusation. The man got up, sat on the bed with his arrogant nudity.
“I'm sorry then. As a guilt-redeemer, do you want me to help you take a shower? Maybe I can rub your back?”
Sera was stunned, her mouth opening wide as if Xavier's insolent words were stunned.
“You....what?” it was repeated as if in disbelief.
Xavier challenged Sera with a sensually seductive look.
“We can shower together and we can help each other. I'll help you rub my back, you can help me…. Doing other things,” Xavier paused his sentence intentionally, making room for Sera to have a weird imagination so that the red hue on her face instantly spread to her neck, shoulders and the upper part of his chest.
“You can't shower with me! You can't touch me anymore!” Sera exclaimed furiously, stepping back towards the bathroom as if afraid that Xavier would suddenly wake up and ambush her.
“Why can't I touch you? We're husband and wife, aren't we? I have an inviolable touch right.” Xavier asked with a frown.
“Because there is no love between us. You don't love me and I don't love you. The name of love, it has to be done on the basis of love! Besides, your goal of fucking me has been achieved, I'm already pregnant!” Sera let out an angry voice, throwing a threatening look at Xavier. “M-start now, you can't touch me again!”
After throwing her ultimatum, Sera turned her body, walked quickly towards the bathroom and slammed the bathroom door shut aloud.
Serafina Moon has loudly said that the woman does not love her. And that's exactly what Xavier wanted. Enough he who feels the pain of loving Sera that he should not love, will not let the woman feel the same pain as she felt.
However, why when he heard Sera say no love to him, his heart felt so sick like being pierced by a curse?
Meanwhile, on the other side of the tightly shut bathroom door, Sera leaned her body there. His breathing was slightly puffed up due to his rapid pace. Immediately Sera put away the blanket and examined her stomach, her hands rubbing while she examined all the flavors in her body, looking for a beam of pain that might exist.
Thank goodness she felt nothing there. Usually if Sera is carried away by emotions she will act impulsively, filled with tension and make her stomach feel cramped. Lucky it looks like the baby in the stomach is calm and the condition of the pregnancy is good so there is no pain at all that imprints there.
The one who is sick is not his physical but his feelings. For some reason when the man firmly forbade Sera to fall in love with him, there was a pain that slipped in his heart, making him sad beyond measure….
Because even before Xavier banned her, she had already fallen in love with the man.
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“All good. Your body is strong and painless. You can do this plastic surgery whenever you want. Even now you can do it.”
Dr. Rasputin read the results of Aaron's blood test lab report on his hand. The man then raised an eyebrow and stared intently at Aaron as if to ensure the man's courage.
“You sure you want to do it now? If plastic surgery is done, you won't be able to back off. If your face has changed, then your life will not be the same as it used to be. There will be no one step that can be done to restore everything as before.”
Aaron grinned at the Rasputin doctor's explanation.
“I don't want to go back like I used to. I want you to do plastic surgery now, doctor,” he replied in a confident tone, not wanting to change his mind again.
He really wants to eliminate everything that happened first, all the stupidity that made him lose what was really in his grasp.
All the memories of his past where he became a stupid Aaron who was unaware of his own feelings for Serafina Moon instantly flashed in his mind. Her young heart had been poisoned by Roman Dawn, it makes her easily driven and filled with revenge when Roman Dawn constantly floods her with whispers of hatred because Anastasia who had conceived her child had been brutally murdered. Aaron's heart was blackened by Roman Dawn to make him take revenge on Serafina Moon.
Anyway, if you think about it. Aaron's feelings for Anastasia weren't that deep. What he feels for Anastasia is only a manifestation of the teenage lust that falls into the physical charm of Anastasia endowed with extraordinary beauty. In the past, she was just a teenager who was being controlled by the passionate desire of young blood, while Anastasia looked so beautiful and willing to be touched by her without a second thought. The fact that Anastasia was her cousin did not stop them from making love, festering unprotected lust in an adrenaline-inducing forbidden relationship until Anastasia became pregnant unplanned.
The panic then overwhelms Anastasia knowing that even though Aaron is willing to take responsibility, the fact that they are brothers will make things difficult. Meanwhile, the teenage Anastasia is too afraid to just abort the womb.
That's why Anastasia suddenly came up with a brilliant idea, she was going after Akram Night, making the man go crazy and fall in love with her, and make that man take responsibility for the child he contains.
At that time, all Aaron could do was surrender. He's just a teenager with nothing, and he doesn't dare to fight Roman Dawn. Because, if at that time Roman Dawn knew that he was the one who impregnated Anastasia, the daughter who had been predicted would be the wife of a rich and honorable man, maybe then Roman Dawn would immediately kill him.
Unfortunately, all plans are plans. They all forgot about the dangerous existence of Xavier Light and changed the entire path they had stacked in the opposite direction. The incident driven by Xavier Light's abomination by utilizing Serafina Moon's father had left Anastasia to die in vain, and it was at that moment that Roman Dawn approached her, whisper revenge to him and demand him to participate and take responsibility in an effort to avenge the death of his favorite daughter.
At the time when Aaron used to hug Sera who almost fainted due to the wound wound wound wound wounds infection on his back, when he applied wound medicine on the skinny back of Sera who was helpless due to torture all-out, at the moment he slipped the bread to be eaten by the starving Sera and the woman looked at him with a clear eyeball covered in thanks, that was when her heart was stolen by Sera without her noticing.
His feelings for Anastasia were not that deep. His feelings for Sera are deep, unfortunately the feelings are realized too late until Aaron's negligence makes Sera stolen from him.
Aaron knows for sure that Sera harbors feelings for him. But, foolishly he ignored her, making Sera feel wasted and giving the bully a chance to sneak into their story. Xavier Light, the center of all the chaos of his life story that once again took his woman from his hands.
This time Aaron won't give up. This time he is not a teenager who has nothing. This time he had the wealth and power he could use against Xavier. Aaron will stop at nothing before he can take back Serafina Moon into his hands and remove Xavier Light from their world.
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