The Essence Of The Darkness
EOTL Eps 108: Recognition
EOTL ( Essence Of The Light) - EOTD Season 2 - The Story of Xavier and Sera
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Sera was fixated on looking at Xavier, her brain had already managed to digest it well, but her heart was still in disbelief. That was why he finally opened his mouth to ask again, requiring certainty to obtain the antidote from his uncontrollably turbulent heart.
“You love me?”
Sera's question sounded weak and filled with disbelief and it managed to make Xavier open his eyes.
The man smiled weakly, gave a warm kiss again in the palm of Sera's hand that was still in his hands, then grasped it tightly.
“Yes, Sera. I love you.” Xavier's lips formed a sad smile. “Why look at me like that? Can't you believe that someone like me can feel love?”
“Someone like you?” Sera asked puzzled although she could guess from Xavier's tone of voice that the man was humbling himself. “What do you mean by someone like you?”
“Someone who is dirty and sinful. Someone whose hands were full of blood and abominations in the past. A person who is so full of bad experiences that he should not dare to open his heart to love. Someone like me.” Xavier spoke in a poignant tone. “I know that a figure like me should not fall in love with you.”
“Xavier.” Sera moved her hand to cupping her husband's cheek. “Why are you always like that? You always look down on yourself. You always put yourself as someone who deserves the most torture. Why do you always put yourself in the worst position?” Sera could not help but ask. Xavier's attitude made him sad and he hoped Xavier wouldn't do it again.
“Because I am like that.” Xavier looked at Sera fixedly. “You know my past history, Sera. You know that I'm as low as you can imagine.”
“No. You're not that low. You are my husband, you are the father of my children.” Sera brought her face closer to Xavier's face, then ventured to kiss the man's lips with an inexperienced kiss that lasted as fast as lightning.
“And you.. are the man I love.” Add it later with a trembling voice.
“What did you say?”
Xavier clutched both of Sera's hands cupping his cheeks, his eyes rays sharpening and somehow feeling dangerous.
When Sera was unable to say a word to answer Xavier's question, the man shook Sera's wrist, which he still gripped with frustration.
“What did you say, Sera? I don't want to misunderstand and embarrass myself. So tell me, what did you say, Sera?”
Xavier's voice sounded demanding, and Sera could not dodge anymore.
Tears drenched again fell on her cheeks as she stared at Xavier with her beautiful glittering eyeballs.
“I love you, Xavier,” whispered in a voice full of sincerity that no healthy ear could possibly doubt.
Xavier widened his eyes, the man removed his hand grip on Sera's wrist, then moved cupped both sides of Sera's shoulder and shook her.
“You love me? Have you gone crazy? Am I like this? You love me like this?”
The man asked back as if he wanted to prove Sera wrong. His attitude like that, made Sera mixed feelings happen. Between being sad because Xavier was so insecure to be loved by him, between being angry because he didn't want to believe and also between feeling funny because someone like Xavier could act childishly because of him.
Sera laughed with tears breaking, her eyes twinkling at Xavier lovingly. Displaying freely her loving eyes to her husband, because she felt no need to hide it anymore.
“You how else?” Sera laughed with tears on her cheeks. “Maybe I'm crazy, but I do love you, Xavier Light.”
Sera's voice sounded cheerful, in contrast to the tears that kept flooding in her eyes. And his attitude was contagious, Xavier's eyes filled with confusion also warmed up. His gaze devoured the loving expression of his wife being given to him, his heart warmed up, beginning to soar a hopeful feeling that could no longer be suppressed.
“Sera,” Xavier raised the woman's name and took Sera's head to her chest and hugged her tightly. Their bodies were still unable to stick tight because Sera's distended belly blocked her, but Sera's head could fall on Xavier's chest and in that second, it was, then he could feel that Xavier's chest was beating very fast.
The two of them were equally synergistic, hammering their chest cavity as if they wanted to jump out of it.
“Sera.” Xavier groaned back while saying Sera's name like casting a spell, his head buried in the woman's hair and sniffing greedily the pleasant aroma that was emanating from there.
Xavier sighed deeply before then being able to speak in the end.
“If you still have sanity, you can't possibly fall in love with me. You may have lost your mind because you fell in love with me. However, if you love me because you're crazy, then I'm grateful for your madness.” Unfortunately, Xavier couldn't think clearly until that ridiculous thankfulness sentence came out of his lips.
Sera chuckled, her hands moving rubbing the tears on her cheeks and the corners of her wet eyes, then struck the man's chest with her fist.
“I'm not crazy!” he slowly defended himself.
Xavier kept Sera away from her chest so that she could look at her face, her hands then touched Sera's chin and turned her face closer to her lowered face.
“How can you possibly fall in love with me if you're not crazy? How could you fall in love with me like this?” Xavier said quickly, his voice filled with denial.
But Sera did not want to hear any more of the man's denials. He no longer wanted to hear the man humble himself in such a way that he felt that he was not worthy of love.
Sera touched Xavier's cheek again, then with all her remaining courage, opened her tiny mouth before she kissed him. Xavier seemed flabbergasted at the thought that Sera would kiss him all of a sudden, but he neither prevented nor resisted, instead he opened his mouth willingly to give access when Sera's tongue timidly knocked and teased to beg for permission to enter.
Sera had never kissed him before. Throughout Xavier's memory, he was the one who always started, teased, pulled the woman, kissed her until Sera gave up resignedly in his arms.
This was the first time Sera had attacked him with a deep kiss. In contrast to his lightning kiss earlier, this time Sera actually kissed him, with open mouths tasting each other, with tongues blending into each other's sweetness, with the roar of breath that fused when sparks of desire as if blazing bigger along with the deeper the connection of their lips.
Xavier closed his eyes, his hands hugging his wife's body docked as he enjoyed this miracle to the fullest. When Sera let go of the linkage of the lips she led it a long time later, Xavier's eyes that opened seemed foggy by desire, faced directly with Sera's eyes that were lit by the flames of determination that she aimed at Xavier.
“I'm sane enough to love you, Xavier. Because you deserve to be loved. I love you Xavier Light. I loved you long before you knew it.” Sera said her confession out loud. He was not embarrassed anymore, he just wanted Xavier to be aware and accept that he was worthy of love.
Xavier was stunned when he heard Sera's sentence. The man closed his eyes for a moment, then sighed deeply. When he opened his eyes later, his gaze was again filled with an outpouring of intense turbulent feelings.
“Thank you.” Xavier took both of Sera's hands, then kissed her fingers one by one feelingly. “Thank you for forgiving me. Thank you for giving me atonement for my sins. Thank you for wanting to love me, thank you for being the mother of my children.” Xavier's voice was swallowed in his throat and trembled by Haru. The man then raised his gaze towards Sera, looking at the woman with the same determination.
“I love you Serafina Moon. Your husband loves you with all his heart and soul. And I promise to protect you with all my strength, I will take care of you, I will devote myself only to love one woman who is you, I will do whatever I can to make you happy.”
Xavier's words were like a sealed marriage promise, as if atoning for their superficial marriage because of past compulsion, and Sera's tears spilled over again.
The woman nodded her head, looking at Xavier with overflowing love before then her lips uttered the same promise with incredible sincerity to take care of each other.
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“You look fucked. Did you take your medicine at the dose?”
Doctor Nathan asked anxiously when he saw the face of Xavier who stepped into his study, slamming his body into the large sofa available there and leaning his body against the headboard tiredly.
The morning was near noon when Xavier left Serafina who was still fast asleep in bed to get off and see Nathan's doctor in his office.
Last night, after that overflowing declaration of love, she and Sera finally opened up to each other unhindered.
Xavier reveals how he realized he was in love with Sera, and Sera tells him the same thing. They reminisce with their bodies together and their hands tightly knit, laughing back at their silliness in the good old days when they fell in love with each other, but not knowing each other's feelings.
All the feelings were expressed in deep conversation during the early hours until the morning, relieving the two of them until their hearts felt light and filled with happiness.
Then when Sera finally yawns and shows her fatigue, Xavier forces Sera to sleep and rest. Sera herself did not argue because her eyes felt so heavy driven by a very deep drowsiness, he fell asleep later and was so restful that he didn't notice when Xavier got out of bed to take a shower and clean himself up.
When Xavier was ready to go down to see Nathan's doctor, Sera was still unmoved in her sleeping position, closing her eyes tightly with a peaceful regular breath. Xavier finally presents a gentle kiss on the woman's forehead, bounces without expecting anything in return, then exits the apartment and orders Derek to keep a tight guard as long as he leaves the place.
Sera probably won't wake up until noon and Xavier makes sure that nothing interrupts Sera's break. Despite that, he had Derek put guards on guard in front of Sera's room so that if anything happened, they could act quickly.
“What's wrong with my face? Why did you say I looked fucked? I'm fresh and fine.” Xavier straightened his back and rubbed his wet hair as he spoke.
Doctor Nathan frowned and threw a reproachful look towards Xavier.
“All right? Are you blind? Didn't you get a glass before you left your place and came here? You're pale and the dark circles around your eyes look terrible. You look like a vampire character told in a children's horror book.”
Xavier chuckled at Doctor Nathan's words.
“There are no horror books for kids, and I don't think there are any kids reading horror books with vampire characters in them either. The vampire story is an adult story involving blood and the abomination of using humans as food.”
“Ah, you don't know what the kids are reading right now. If you don't look after them, they'll steal blood and violence they shouldn't read, and dark figures like vampires who represent blood, violence and the creepy side behind its charm, usually is a character who managed to attract their attention.” Doctor Nathan refuted with a series of long sentences, his tone sounding full of vigor, in contrast to Xavier who was too tired to argue with each other.
The man just shrugged, threw a glance with a gesture ‘is up to you’ to Doctor Natahn, then immediately shifted their discussion to other things.
“I may seem messed up because I was exhausted from lack of sleep. The night before I waited for Elana to give birth and this night, for some reason or another, I did not sleep,”.
Doctor Nathan immediately threw a horrified look.
“You didn't sleep because you had sex with your wife?” Guess it without the need to soften the vulgar sentences he said. “Jeez, Xavier! How you! You're so shameless! How could you ask your pregnant wife that big to serve you?”
Xavier did ask Sera to help him finish his wish yesterday, but she did not do so, which is why the man managed to put an offended expression towards Nathan's doctor when refuting later.
“Why does your dirty mind always connect everything with the bed?” he asked in a scornful tone towards Doctor Nathan. “I did not sleep because I was busy satisfying myself. I don't sleep because there are some things I have to clear up.”
Doctor Nathan frowned.
“Transporting Sera?” tanyanya fast.
Xavier couldn't help but grin like a fool.
“Ya, regarding Sera. We arguably have resolved misunderstandings with each other.” Xavier's heart expanded with a heart-warming love, something his heart had never felt before.
Falling in love is fun. His steps became light as if floating and he had to try hard to hold his lips so as not to be pulled up and continue to form a silly smile that he could not hold.
“Stop that.” Doctor Nathan who observed the change in Xavier's expression immediately rebuked in a murmuring tone.
Xavier frowned and stared at the puzzled Nathan doctor.
“What should I stop?” tanyanya.
Doctor Nathan stroked, then spoke in a murmuring tone later.
“That wide cry of yours, it was so strange and too horrible to look at. Usually you smile cunningly or smile with a calculating fake sweetness. You've never smiled like this idiot before, you made my hair stand up. What the hell is going on with you? Was your head hit in the vital part before you came here?”
Xavier should have been a little offended to hear Nathan's words. But he cannot be offended. His heart was too warm today to be angry.
He then chuckled cheerfully to respond to the words of the doctor Nathan, and it made Nathan's doctor widen his eyes while looking at Xavier with a great horror as if Xavier had become a madman in his eyes.
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