I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
season 3: episode 15

The atmosphere in the dining room was awkward that night, Selena's gaze on me also showed how disappointed she was to me. Maybe my answer is not what he wants, but my heart has been set to choose Naomi who is a companion for Jester's sister.

The cold air of the night wind at that time seemed to penetrate into the dining room of the house of the brother Jester and Naomi, either because it was cold or because of my conversation with Selena cold. I'm confused how at times like this, supporting Selena would only add to the burden of Jester's sister and also sink Selena into the abyss of heartbreak. Because I know, Brother Jester loves Naomi very much.

Long enough Selena and I stared at each other in silence, it all ended when Selena looked down at Ratatouille in front of her and continued eating voraciously. After eating a spoon, Selena could be heard sighing before saying...

"I see, I had expected you to say it too" Selena broke the silence in the awkward atmosphere, hearing her disillusioned speech making my heart ache. I also lowered my head

"I'm sorry Selena. I hope you understand my choice" I said regretfully.

"This is our agreement to make Jester happy, you also say only worry about him getting a bad woman. So when you see Naomi who is Jester's girlfriend, of course you feel more calm than I am accompanying her" Selena said as if explaining what my decision was

I was surprised by Selena's words, she spoke as if I considered her bad and unkind to Jester's sister. I really didn't think of it that way, I just chose Naomi because they loved each other and nothing more. Even if there was another assessment of my choice, it was only because Naomi had more or less similar traits to me.

"It's not that!!" I rebutted him with a snatch, but my anger at that moment was avenged with a laugh by Selena.

"Yes I understand, you see the strong bond of brother Jester with Naomi so it will be calmer for you to let them be lovers" a little laugh Selena said, a little, she seemed to be insinuating me but hearing her laughter made my heart feel relieved.

"But I can't lie to my feelings either, if in the end I can't captivate her. I'll be close to her as Selena Parker and not as Selena Luna" Selena said, but when she finished saying that, I heard her laugh again.

"Your hard head never changes, I definitely wish you all the best and I hope you will be happy. I'm sorry I couldn't accompany you and help you fight" I said, when I told her to be honest I wanted to cry. My eyes at that time were also glassy, but I tried to hold it as hard as I could.

"Don't say such a sad thing" Selena chimed in with a slightly trembling voice, as if she was holding back her cries just as much as me.

That night the awkward atmosphere changed to haru, I continued to eat Ratatouille in front of me and occasionally I wiped away the tears that welled up in my eyes. I tried to keep smiling when Selena and I looked at each other, when our eyes met I somehow wanted to laugh and at that moment maybe Selena felt what I felt. We laughed together as we finished our meal, it seemed like Selena had truly accepted the fate of our friendship.

After washing the dishes and cleaning up the messy kitchen, Selena and I came out of the kitchen and headed for the room. Selena seems to be very familiar with the position of every room in this house, but I think she never met Brother Jester at her house because there was Naomi. But it seems like my guess was wrong, they were once familiar and may have stayed together before things became as chaotic as they are now.

When I opened the room door, I saw Naomi sitting on the bed sheet hugging her knees. She looked dreamy as her eyes were blankly staring at the blanket before her, realizing my arrival at that moment Naomi turned her eyes and looked at me even though she was silent.

"What's wrong?" I asked so worried about her situation, but Naomi responded to my question with a headband.

"Tell me here. I will listen and give you a solution if you need it" I said again trying to ask for her trust again to want to consider me as her friend, but again Naomi shook her head to answer my words.

"I'm tired, I'll go to bed first. You just do what you want to do, consider your own home" Naomi said sounding disappointed, then Naomi broke down and covered her body with a blanket.

For a moment I realized why Naomi's tone of voice sounded disappointed, all because of my advice to her before it all became like this. Although I still can't feel what's wrong, but Jester's strange attitude makes me think that I should do something out of my habit of handling Jester's sister.

I sighed and walked over to the bed, where I laid my body right next to Naomi who was on her back. I paused for a moment while looking up at the sky - the sky of the room, arranging what words I would say to him to gain his trust again after I had previously failed to give him good advice.

"At such a time I usually just sit next to him and be quiet but keep smiling at him, over time he will be misbehaved and finally his anger is gone" my words continued my stopped sentence, but Naomi remained silent and gave no sign if she listened to me. Until he arrived - he said...

"You understand Jester so well.. Did it never occur to you to go back to him?" naomi asked, her voice sounded sad when she said it.

"From any angle we all know that Jester's feet love you so much and hate me so much, I won't be able to compete with you" I replied firmly with a sigh, Naomi again just went silent without a word no matter what she thought after hearing my answer.

"What is the reason you accepted me? if you're so afraid of me, you can kick me out right from the start" I asked a little pressuring him, I wonder what was the biggest reason for accepting my selfish request.

But all I got was the silence of the night in the room, Naomi did not answer and did any movement. He pretended to be asleep so that there was a reason if he didn't hear my question, I don't think there would be anything good when I forced my will. Until suddenly, Naomi finally began to answer my questions...

"I accepted your request because I felt that only in this way would Jester be able to make peace with her heart" Naomi replied, but it seemed like Naomi's answer tickled for Selena until she chimed in on Naomi's answer.

"Silly, you just open the door for your competitors" Selena chirped with a slight sound of laughter

Selena's apology at the time made me angry, I turned to look at her who was sitting on a dresser chair. I glared at her and showed that I didn't like her chirps, maybe Selena realized I was angry at her chirps until she finally lowered her head looking regretful.

"I know I'm silly, I told you earlier that I'm the dumbest woman who's probably been born in this world!!" naomi snarled at that moment

I looked back at Naomi's back and then I rubbed her back to calm her anger at Selena's curse, I didn't expect Selena to be like that. "What happened to Selena? it's not usual for him to behave like that in the middle of this serious conversation" I said in my heart, I was so astonished by what had just happened.

"Why do you feel that way?" ask me again trying to fish what he really thought since

"I was also in the Jester position, my heart was so hurt by my love for someone. To not want to feel like seeing his face again, which feels just a feeling of disgust and heart getting sicker. But Jester never asked me to avoid Daniel, he just accompanied me through everything until finally now I can make peace with my heart. Seeing Daniel my heart was numb, everything went as normal as if I didn't know him" Naomi replied, but again I heard Selena laughing.

"But you didn't bring Daniel in your midst, did you? what does this have to do with Jester's condition?" sindir Selena with her laughing voice, I really did not expect Selena would be like that.

"Selena!!" I snatched at him while looking at him sharply

Naomi's emotions were re-ignited at that time, she sat up from her sleep and looked at Selena with anger.

"Yes I know I'm stupid!!" naomi snapped with a single breath

"I just thought, if Jester is able to make my heart at peace in her way then I'm sure the same way will also make Jester able to make peace with her heart without having to have her pandora box!!" Naomi continued saying - she still sounded full of emotion.

Pandora's box? Naomi said about the pandora box in front of me. Does she know the meaning of the pandora box that Jester's heart has? I was quite surprised when I heard that word from Naomi, but I had to calm her heart first because of Selena.

This conversation caught my eye more and more over my analysis of Pandora's box that Jester's heart had...