I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Season 3: Episode 43

"Thank you~ maybe this is our farewell for good, doctor Richard..

I came out of the room after saying goodbye to them, for years they took care of me until this moment, they are also the ones that stick in my heart. I walked out of the room with a smile that flashed to both of them, I had to fulfill Doctor Richard's wish that I would die in a smile without regret.

Outside the room I saw my father hugging my crying mother sobbing, sobbing, I knew how sad I was to hear what Dr. Richard and Dr. Ellie had said. Coupled with my refusal to be treated intensively, the disappointment felt by my father and mother can certainly be felt very well. Seeing me come out when the attention of father and mother was diverted, I bent my body to pay respect to father and mother.

"Thank you, mom. I'm sorry I'm selfish. But you and mom need to understand that I know what my body is right now, I just... want to live happily until the time comes, thank you for everything. I'm sorry I can't be a filthy child." I haven't finished my words, my mother ran and hugged me very tightly.

"Thank you for being in our lives! Luna.. thank you!!" mother said so emotionally, her crying could not be contained and so did I...

I returned my mother's embrace and cried in her arms, slowly my father walked up to us and hugged us at the same time. My big, warm hands gently stroked my hair, the more I could not hold back my tears. Dad didn't say anything, but his love for me was so strong that it made my heart feel claustrophobic considering I was leaving him.

Slowly mom and dad let go of her embrace, in that cry they looked at me with a smile. When I laughed in front of them and it seemed like my little laugh made my father and mother happy to hear it, they slowly laughed while wiping away the tears that were still left. Dad gave me a gesture to hold my hand and mom, I welcomed her and we walked out of the doctor Richard's house together.

At the main door of the doctor Richard's house at that time me, father and mother went out to the courtyard of his house, there I saw Selena sitting in a chair available in the courtyard of the house. She was seen standing up to greet me, I smilingly looked at her as my father and mother bowed before Selena.

"Miss Parker, thank you for accompanying Luna to this very second" said my father

"No need to bother me" Selena panicked

"Miss Parker, we have a huge debt of gratitude to the Parker family.I hope we can repay it one day." said the mother.

"Don't think of Lincoln's mistress, Luna... How did it go?" ask Selena

From the look on the face Selena showed, it seemed like she was hoping for some good news for my illness to heal. Of course all that because Selena will never be ready to lose me, your friendship that has been established since childhood is something that is so precious and it would be sad if you had to separate soon. But that is what must happen, until this moment I am still trying hard to prepare Selena mentally with my departure later.

"I think I have more than two weeks left, but Richard's doctor said I won't have that much time" I replied

It's hard to say that to Selena, my heart aches with that fact but Selena has to know everything. He is the one who will help me to complete the dream list that I have prepared for a long time.

"I'm sorry, all the things that happened to me, Naomi and Brother Jester made your time narrower and your check list.." Selena said, not finished yet, I ran over and crashed my body into Selena and hugged her very tightly.

My tears came back when I remembered all the memories of my childhood with him, all the memories that were always imprinted in my heart made it hard to remember that I would soon leave him for good. The burden of the promise that had been said had also made him suffer all this time, but unfortunately I did not have time to help him rise from his heartache.

Talking as calmly as possible with the rest of the tears that still bathe the eye peluhan was not an easy thing huh? Aaaah Selena.

Slowly I felt Selena's hands hugging my body, her tears also dripping down my shoulder. Selena's headband when it hurt my heart, without saying anything I knew she would not accept my decision and also the destiny that awaited me.

"My file is ready, can you take me to take care of my passport? with your family network, can I get that passport quickly?" I said, Selena nodded her head several times in my arms.

"I'll call papa so that your passport can be completed in a matter of hours" Selena replied, then we let go of each other's hugs.

"Thank you, sorry to keep bothering you" I said with a smile looking at her

After that Selena and I separated from my mother and father, I told them that maybe I would go home soon because my condition was not good and that maybe Jester and Naomi would realize my illness. On my trip with Selena to the government office to take care of the passports, Selena and I just fell silent. I could not hide my sadness, nor did Selena who arrived - suddenly crying again in the middle of urban road congestion.

"Why are you crying again? I'm fine" I gently told Selena to calm her down, but Selena's tears were still unstoppable.

"Whoa why.. I remember all the memories of our togetherness.I want you to stay here.." Selena's voice sounded so bitter, so sad, I sighed because I was confused about what I should do at a time like this.

Selena... Tomboy girl who is willing to change her appearance for my request, tomboy girl who is anti-crying and also anti-boy. When her crying became so heartbreaking, Come on Selena you can definitely be strong with my departure!

"Selena...we promised that there would be no more tears between us?" I asked, Selena nodded her head a few times.

"All will be well, you have good friends. Your relationship with Jester's brother, Luke's brother, and Harry's brother has improved, as well as Justin and Grece's legs will certainly accompany you too if you feel lonely. You are no longer alone." I said again, but Selena's tears even more rushing out.

"I don't know how else to calm you down. none of this is inevitable" I said, slowly taking a deep breath in and then exhaling slowly.

"In this life people come and go. friends, lovers, friends, and the closest people. What used to be as close as pulse, will later be as far as the sun, the moment that was ever created will only be a memory. We never actually have each other but we just lend each other" I said gently trying to give Selena understanding, when Selena marginalized her car because she was increasingly unable to hold back her cries.

I let Selena cry to give her some time so she could get her heart set, I could only continue to be next to her while gently stroking her short hair back then. Selena's cry made her as excited as it was, I've never seen her cry to this extent before. Me? I could no longer cry. It felt like these tears had dried up, or maybe I was ready for the fate I had.

Some time Selena finally able to hold back her crying, we continued our journey to the government office to take care of my passport. In the office I met Mr and Mrs Parker, it turns out Selena had already contacted her parents to ask for help making a passport for me. Everything went very well and quickly, until at the time of the photo session.all went back to being chaotic, it happened because when I was finished in the photo... I coughed and vomited blood which made everyone there panic, and then I fainted after that to the point that I had to be referred to the hospital.

I don't know what happened after that....