I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Episode 41

Slowly my eyes opened and I found a sky - a sky that was very familiar to me "Here again." I said in my heart, but this time there was something different. I was unable to move my body, even just looking at it I was unable to. Suddenly I panicked and I heard the sound of a heart rate meter going off...

Tiiit Tiiit...

As soon as it sounds guess - kira and it bothers me so much...

Not long after I heard the panic of some people who sounded in one room with me, faintly I saw the faces of some people approaching me and staring at my face. "Who? daddy's? mama?" I said, but none of them chimed in on my words...

"Hey!! I'm talking to you!! answer me!!!" I snapped at that moment

But free they don't seem to hear me talk "What is this? am I still in a coma? Help u!! help me!!" I screamed again but they were still in a panic until some of the people I had seen changed and touched some parts of my body....

As soon as my blurry vision blackened again and I did not remember anything else. There was only fear if I remembered the incident, I was afraid to be alone... can't anyone accompany me?

"YAAAAaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!" I shouted so loudly that I sat down from my sleep in the hospital bed

"Luna! why you?!!" my mother shouted as she ran up to me and hugged me

I looked at my mother's face that looked so worried and then I cried sobbing, sobbing, a tight hug mom who coiled in my head and stuck it on her chest made me even more regret everything that happened to me. I stomped my feet on the bed to express all regret for my poor life...

"It's been a pity.. I know you're angry.." I cut my mother's words.

"Why!! why do I have to live?!!! when will this end?!!!" snapped at me, mother's embrace was getting tighter

"Yes.patient dear.pardon the mother and father who brought you into this world yes, forgive us.." said the mother with a hoarse voice because she cried so bitterly with regret....

Did you know that it was the first sentence of mother who so hit my heart until now, my breath was tight after mother said it. Let alone being a dutiful child, I only became a child who always troubled both parents who loved and loved me so much... what kind of child am I...

If I may choose to twist fate, I really do not want to be born.I am not ungrateful, but being a burden to the old man is very sad right? There were no complaints from my parents about my condition. They always treated me like a gift from God that they had.

Then about one word 'SABAR'.... until when should I listen to the word amplifier? which even I felt was no longer strong enough to continue my life. I'm tired.very tired.

No. Luna.. can't..! if father and mother have fought this far, shouldn't I give the best I can?! Aaaargh.... Why should I?:((

"I'm sorry my mother said that.." The sobbing - sobs my cry apologizing to my mother.

"It's okay dear.. mother really understands, if mother so you're also definitely mother will not be able to. you're a strong child, very strong..." my mother said my words...

We both hugged and the crying didn't stop until Dad came into the room, my mother and I looked at my smiling face and looked at me with a bouquet of red roses and a box of chocolates. I knew the burden that was carried on each shoulder, I knew how heavy it was and I could only cry, complain and give up...

Do you know if I want this hug to bring happiness ? being in the arms of father and mother with this state caused two feelings in my heart, namely calm and sad. If I fail and leave you for good, please never grieve. That is because I will no longer experience any more pain in my body.(:(

"Dad..I'm sorry I've been troubling you.." chirped me and then I cried again sobbing.

Dad immediately ran over to me with tears that seemed to wet his cheeks. Slowly my overflowing emotions subsided, there was nothing more soothing than the embrace of my parents.isn't that luck in the midst of my life?

Slowly my father returned to the bed, and then he replaced the flowers that had been seen withering in a vase near my bed. When he finished, he opened the expensive-looking box of chocolates and bribed me. The sound of mother's laughter seeing how effective I was to my father made the atmosphere of the day melt, without any words me and my father arrived - suddenly carried away by the sound of mother's laughter.

Right at midnight, I can't sleep. From inside the room on the sixth floor I could freely look up at the sky and glittering lights of the skyscrapers, I daydreamed and thought about my relationship with Brother Jester. In the midst of my daydream, mother's voice broke the silence of the room at midnight.

"What's up, baby?" mother asked me, I flinched a little and then turned my eyes to look into my mother's eyes

"Eeh.. no ma'am, I just. I can't... sleep.." I answered flatly, but maybe you can tell if I'm lying.

"Mom knows you're thinking something, sharing what you're thinking?" mother said softly, I sighed and then looked back at the sky from behind the window of my room.

Slowly the mother got up from her bed in the room and walked up to me, then she sat next to me who was still lying on the bed. His warm and soft hands then touched the skin of my head that there was not a single strand of hair there, gently mother rubbed my head and the sound of her breath was heard.

that painful treatment also made me lose all the hair that stuck to my head. Then it can be understood why I gave up to fight?

"What's wrong with the Gates family's son? did you guys fight?" mother asked, I shook my head then took a deep breath and exhaled slowly.

"I.. told her that I no longer wanted to be in touch with her." I replied

"Why did you say that? do you not love him anymore?" asked my mother again, I didn't feel like I was shedding tears when I heard my mother's question.

"I don't know.I hate his arrogance but I lie to myself if I say I don't love him. I'm confused mom..." I answered because I was trying to hold back my tears

"What's going on, try mom's story" she said

I unknowingly told you everything that happened between me and Brother Jester, actually, I do not want to add the burden of this mind to mother, but somehow I seem to no longer hold back my worries about my love. I listened to all my stories so carefully, that a few minutes passed and my story was finished.

"Okay... I understand what happened between you. I have two conclusions" mother chirped when my story was finished, slowly my gaze was turned to look at the face of the mother who smiled at me.

"Conclusion?" to my surprise, my mother nodded her head several times and then her index finger raised as if she was ready to show the results of her first conclusion.

"First of all, all this mess is because it's Luna Lincoln's fault." replied my mother so firmly.

"Huh?! me? why am I mom?!" I was astonished and there was a slight sense of offence, but mother only gave a small laugh in response to my high voice.

"Because you lied to Gates' son, he seems to love you so much. So let's just say that when you're far apart even if it's just one day it'll make him restless all day. What do you think if you're in his position?" asked my mother in a voice that sounded teasing to me, I also put on a sour face hearing the question.

"I still won't hit Justin!" I answered a little, mother laughed at me again.

"Maybe your prince is not the type of man who can hold his ego when he is already unable to stem his longing, if it is like that... who's trying to make him hold the weight of that miss if not this mother's pretty son?" mother asked again still in a seductive tone, I was silent in a thousand languages.

"If you love her, you should start being honest with your heart and stop lying to her. That way you can continue to join hands to face all the tests of love you two" said mother this time with a tone that sounds so serious, I scrunched my forehead because I did not approve of mother's words this time.

"I can't do that! just miss him can't take it, what else to face my death!" I said with a little snatch

"Then how is it different from your attitude now, beautiful? he will be hurt even more because as if you reject his love raw - raw even you have not started each other" said the mother gently, I was again made silent with the words of the mother.

"Secondly, it's about what you've been saying since you were a child, so maybe this is what's causing you to be too hard on Gates' son." said the mother in a sad-sounding tone, I scrunched my forehead because I didn't understand what she was really saying.

"About what mom said to you to be careful with the rich, it all started when your dad hadn't worked as a driver in Parker's family. Dad was a manager at one of the Gates family's best-known companies, but due to one small mistake... I can't apply to all companies." said mom, I was surprised to hear mom's story.

"Dad ever worked for Mr William?!" I said with a surprised tone

"No. Not for Mr. William, but directly to the parent company of the Gates family. I didn't know what happened to their family until Mr. William moved away from his extended family, but it really happened long before you were born" she replied, I threw my face away when I heard that answer.

"That means my decision is right to leave brother Jester.." chirped me sadly, a sigh of mother was heard instantly.

"The Gates family was led by Arthur Gates who fathered three children named Andrews Gates, William Gates, and Phillips Gates. Dad told me if you met William Gates and it turns out he was warmer than his two brothers, it is unique, but as a person who has been in direct contact with all the Gates family, he said, of course you can judge well" said the mother

"What does that mean?" ask me confused

"Father, after you were about to return home from William's house, Mr. William held back his father's steps and said that Mr. William very much expects you to change Jester's arrogant attitude. Mr. William is very worried about the attitude that Jester showed this end, because that's why Mr. William asked you to be his friend" replied the mother, I was surprised to see the face of the mother.