I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Season 4: Episode 11

I walked up to the side of the road from the hospital, where I saw a taxi stop waiting for passengers. "It just so happens, lucky.." I said in my heart like that, not usually a taxi is easy to get at a time like this. But when I was almost there someone interrupted and grabbed the car door algae so quickly, I looked at him and so did the guy.

"I'm sorry, I'm being time-hunted. Soon there will be the next taxi" he chanted, a local who looks like an office worker there.

I knew that no more taxis would come if I didn't book first, this wasn't my first time in Paris. Well, if I had to give it to you, maybe I could use another public facility. With a gesture of hand I allowed the man to get into the taxi, but at about the same time the taxi driver got out of the car and dragged the local people out of the car. A pretty shocking sight, considering I knew that it would jeopardize the driver's job.

A tall figure with a muscular body looked angry at that moment, the taxi driver looked scary with his thick mustache and also his sunglasses. The clothes he was wearing were also company clothes, but looked too small for his muscular body. This guy is pushing that shirt too much for a perfect disguise, but I know who's behind that disguise.

"Merobot is not a French habit" he said when dragging a local from the car, his voice was familiar even though he spoke French.

"I'll report you to your boss!!" the local residents were so angry, but the taxi driver did not care. He looked at me and said..

"Come on, son, you've already run closer" he said, gesturing for me to enter, I wanted to laugh at the time but tried to hold on as best I could.

Not long after I saw him give a mock hand gesture to the local people, they both threw mockery until this car drove far enough. At a red light I was no longer able to hold my laugh, I laughed out loud enough to attract the driver in front of me. We looked at each other in the rearview mirror in the car and at the same time he looked confused.

"What are you laughing at?" ask him in French

"Papa, I know it's you" I replied and laughed again

"Aragh!! why do you know?! I've been disguised well!!" timpal papa while pulling the thick fake mustache and releasing his black glasses, I laughed out loud - I saw him annoyed.

"Who else is that muscle blob that calls me 'son' besides you, papa? at least if you want to disguise, act more natural. When speaking French, the word 'son' will only be spoken by you" I said before I finally returned laughing loudly, papa looked increasingly upset.

"Where's this taxi from?" I asked while trying to hold back my laughter

"The owner of the taxi company here is papa's friend, so you just borrow one unit" replied the father in a tone that sounded annoyed, as soon as my laughter disappeared.

He did something without my knowledge, it never occurred to my head that papa would help me this far. Doesn't he have a lot of work there? why waste your time on something stupid like this? anyways... Luna had nothing to do with her father, maybe her death had no effect on him.

"Should papa do this? I can do it myself" I said, when I heard Papa sigh.

"It is the duty of a father to accompany his son under any circumstances, your heart and mind are in turmoil, son. Papa can't let you go through it alone" replied the father gently, I smiled but somehow my tears trickled down.

I put a picture of Luna on my right seat, and I looked at her smiling face in the frame. For a moment I returned with your voice that seemed to say "Let's go!" excitedly, I don't know where the voice came from but I have faith that that's what you'll say when you're alive and in this position.

"I'm too big to be with you, papa. Once in the Eiffel Tower, just leave us there" I chanted

"There are no big words, in the eyes of papa and mama. You are still like a child who is not even able to stand alone, so let your papa this.." not finished papa said, papa said, I held my hand to hug my father from behind.

"Thank you, papa. You're the coolest father figure I've ever known, sorry I was the kid who always bothered you" my timp, I felt the gentle clap of my father's hand on my arm that was coiled around his shoulder.

"This incident will mature you, take the lesson and make it a valuable experience for the future" papa gently said, slowly I let go of my embrace and leaned on the chair.

I wiped away the tears that were still left on my cheeks and also set the breath that was so tight I felt in my chest. A little while we were silent while walking down the streets of Paris, papa just spoke back when we almost reached the Eiffel tower area.

"Did you bring the note that Luna brought?" ask me to break the silence

"No, but I remember everything he dreamed of" I replied, as papa laughed excitedly as he said...

"Well, it's going to be a long trip!!" somewhat shouting papa said it, I laughed at how eager papa was to accompany me.

This morning is the beginning where I will complete all your dreams in Paris, armed with your photos in the frame.I was with you Luna was doing a quite tiring journey, this is quite tiring, yet it might seem like a foolish act to people who happen to meet me. Not infrequently they ask about me who goes around carrying your photo, among them also not infrequently I hear their admiration for your beauty. Your smile in the photo is indeed very charming, no wonder they throw compliments on you.

On every trip to the spots of your dreams, I always took the time to capture it in a photo with my cellphone camera. I tried to smile at every photo, but I knew you were Luna, I always imagined you were right next to me and all the words that you might say to me seemed to be heard in every place you wanted to visit. It was as if I could see another world where you were still alive and we went on this journey together...

If only papa hadn't been with me, I probably wouldn't have been able to make this pointless trip. Papa has always shown a passionate attitude, I know his purpose. Papa wants to keep burning my spirit so that I can be strong to get through this.

Two more days I managed to complete all the checklist, not forgetting the photos as proof I also got. Still with the taxi you borrowed, I returned to the hospital where Luna's body was still well preserved. In the hospital right in front of the mortuary, I saw Mr. Lincoln sitting leaning against the front seat of the entrance. The sound of our footsteps caught the attention of Mr. Lincoln back then, he turned his head to look at us and immediately stood up from his seat.

"Mr Gates and young Mr Gates, I want to thank you for all the help." said Mr. Lincoln, looking down at us

"It's all done, even until the transportation to bring Luna was ready. If there is no Mr. Gates, I don't know what else to do" replied Mr. Lincoln, papa patted Mr. Lincoln on the shoulder and asked him to raise his head.

"Not to think, once again we the Gates family are very sorry and sorry for the death of your daughter, Luna Lincoln" said papa and at that time Mr. Lincoln shed tears.

Mr. Lincoln quickly tried to wipe away every drop of tears that were so rushing with his hands, while he hugged Mr. Lincoln so tightly while patting him on the back. Losing a child is never easy for anyone, maybe you really understand the feelings of Mr. Lincoln.

I left papa and Mr. Lincoln to go into Luna's room, in there I immediately stepped closer to the coffin to put back a picture of Luna on top of the coffin. It felt so sad to me but I was proud that I never had a promise debt to Luna, not like her who had twice broken a promise between us.

Inside that still-open coffin, I saw your smiling face....

"Hey... I'm done with all your checklists... are you happy? all I've covered with photos on my phone, you're happy right? I didn't even break my promise to you, but you? you broke our promise a second time.should I repay you? should I forget about you after this? why are you in my life again after you disappeared? are you intentionally? Heii..answer my question.." I murmured as I stared at Luna's face deeply, before long my tears flowed back to the point of dripping down your hands... slowly I put your picture frame into its holder and looked back at your face..

"Why... are you smiling? are you happy to see me suffer? my heart hurts because of you, do you understand?" still muttering I said it, I was so upset back then because my heart felt so claustrophobic. My anger peaked again, I was so upset by what happened to me..

"Of course you won't answer!! you are just a corpse!! what I did these two days felt like a fool!! Traveling around Paris with a picture frame!! it was just a fool's act!!" my words vented my frustration at him, my breathing was irregular and I needed a moment to ease it.

"Good bye!" I turned around to leave the room...

I don't know if I was sincere or disappointed in you at the time, but I just couldn't see your smile again.

After that I never set foot in the hospital again, I just stayed in the hotel room and sometimes accompanied by Naomi until our scheduled departure to come home. The next morning we took off on two private jets belonging to my family and Naomi's family, with a car that had been provided out of nowhere at that time we all departed from the hotel to one of the hangars at Charles de Gaulle airport. Two of our jets were prepared in such a way as to leave immediately, papa arranged everything for the return of us all.

Not long after I saw a car with Lincoln's family and Selena get out of the car, some people were seen pulling the coffin out of the car and somehow my body shook violently. My chest feels so tight and my head feels so dizzy too, "What's wrong? why does it feel so stifling?" my question is in my heart.

Could it be that I still hope we go home together - the same as your smile that was raised beside me because all your dreams had come true? Could it be that I still hope that the coffin isn't filled by you Luna? Is this what it feels like to lose and regret? you are indeed selfish Luna, daring to let me through all this with a deep sense of regret.

"The passengers all boarded Scott's plane and the bodies were carried by Gates' plane" papa ordered rather shouting at the time.

Immediately all obeyed papa's orders, I entered the jet owned by the Scott family and became the first to sit in it. No sooner did Naomi sit next to me and she gave her smile, I returned her smile and she put her head on my shoulder. When everyone got in and sat down, the plane started to move out of the hangar. From behind the window, I also saw the Gates family jet moving.

I feel sorry but I don't know what I regret, my heart hurts so much but it's not like the pain I've been receiving lately. There was something left behind but I didn't understand and it made me feel this weirdness, I kept thinking about it all the way back home.

Fourteen hours passed and throughout that time I heard Selena's cries, Lincoln's master and mistress, Grece, and Naomi all lost Luna, as well as me. Even though I haven't cried since saying goodbye to you, but I can't deny I feel lost even now.

After landing in our country, there were already several cars ready to drive us all home. Even the mortuary car was available to welcome us to the hangar, no surprise at that time because I saw my mom coming out of one of the available cars. It seems like papa and mama have been keeping each other in communication all this time, as well as all the stories...

Mama ran up to me who just got off the plane and immediately hugged me so tightly, her hands also stroked my head so gently as she said...

"It's okay baby..it's okay..all will be fine.." so you say, I just nodded a few times to make up for my mama's effort to calm me down.

"So...when are you going to bury Luna?" ask my father to the Lincoln family, almost at the same time my mother's embrace was released and then looked at the master and mistress Lincoln.

"Tomorrow morning we will prepare for his funeral, it is not good if we postpone it too long." replied Mr. Lincoln

"Alright, tell us where you're going to bury him. We'll be at the funeral" papa said

"We, the Gates family, are very sorry for the passing of Luna" said Mama

"Thank you" said Lincoln's family

We separated after boarding the cars according to their respective destinations, when I got home I immediately went down and stepped towards the terrace of the house followed by Naomi. After Naomi opened the door, I walked into the living room and laid this body on the sofa. Not long after I heard the sound of footsteps approaching, of course it was Naomi because there was no one but me and Naomi here... still feels foreign to me, two weeks with Luna and Selena here is still a normal thing for me.

"Jess.. sleep in the room." Naomi broke the silence.

"No need, let me be here." I asked, I heard Naomi's breath and she left me there.

When I heard the sound of the door closing, I immediately closed my eyes to sleep. At that time, I was dreaming of strange things....

I dreamed of seeing Luna who was angry with me. Not saying anything and just standing still in a dark room with me...