I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Episode 55's

Change after change in my life began to happen, Selena avoided me. Brother Justin lost his trademark smile that he always showed me when we met because he looked very sad with what happened to me, similarly, mothers and fathers are now more often locked themselves in the room... only the sound of crying that I always hear is faint when I come out of my room to just take a drink or other activities that I have to do outside the room.

About Selena avoiding me. All because of our agreement, about my request for her to be my replacement to be Jester's girlfriend. We decided to postpone the conversation when I got out of the hospital and maybe Selena knew if I was out of the hospital because of my own decision, a decision that was opposed by the doctor and my parents.

I called her and she never picked up, so in the end I had to meet her and set her up so she couldn't get back away from me or avoid me. It all started one morning when my dad drove Selena to school right when the clean rehearsal of the school's dies natalis event was taking place, I told my dad to pick me up when he took Selena to school.

Everything was going well until I arrived at my school, my father pushed my wheelchair to look for Selena in the school area and I met her in a park. At that time he was sitting with two classmates we were seen working on various types of decorations that might be used for the event dies natalis later that night, when she saw me, Selena stood up as if she wanted to run away to avoid me.

"Selena!!" my snapping at him and the snapping left him petrified, he just threw his face away to avoid us looking in the eye.

"Luna's? you're out of the hospital?"

"Why did you become like this? are you feeling better? what happened to you?"

Two of my classmates asked me, but I ignored them and kept staring at Selena. I sighed and averted my eyes to look at our two classmates, with a smile at that moment I said if I wanted to talk to Selena alone. They allowed me to be alone with Selena, after finishing the decorations for the natalis dies and moving elsewhere.

"You're avoiding me?" I asked Selena, but she just fell silent and didn't want to talk to me.

"You promised to discuss my request when I got out of the hospital, you want to break that promise?" ask me again this time with a little pressure on her, that's when she looked at me with her angry face.

"You're not healed yet!! you're out of the hospital because of your selfishness!!" snarl Selena to me

"I've gone out and been outpatient!!" I snapped back

"Prove it!! leave that wheelchair and come with me to move somewhere else!!" Selena said it with a bang, I was surprised by what she said at the time.

"Miss Selena... Luna couldn't.." I wasn't done saying, I tried to get up from my wheelchair.

With all my calm I tried to stand up, dad was about to help me but I shook his hand so he wouldn't help me. Slowly Selena's angry expression turned to regret. In the end I won our battle, I managed to stand up from my wheelchair without anyone's help.

"I fulfilled your request, where are we going?" ask me with pressure, Selena also returned to throw her face when she saw me managed to stand up.

"I.. come along. I.." stammered Selena said.

Selena turned around to leave the place, with great difficulty I stepped my feet that felt so painful as I lifted one foot after another as I stepped. Dad wanted to help me but I refused firmly, I had to be strong so that Selena would have no reason to refuse my request because I had fulfilled the promise between us.

Until we reached another park close to our class, Selena suddenly stopped walking. I who continued to follow him had to fight hard against the pain that always appeared on my hip when stepping, there was a sense of relief to see Selena stop when it was. When close to him I immediately look for a place that I can use to sit, fortunately Selena chose a garden that has a garden chair.

"Have you? have I proven that I'm healthy?" I asked her when I was sitting in the park seat nearest to me, but Selena was still on my back.

"Ma.. sorry." he chirped in a trembling voice, I was surprised to hear his apology.

I understand why she did that. I also understand what Selena was trying to force me to do, it all started when I asked Dad to quit his job at the Parker family. I asked my father and mother to move away from where we are now, I wanted to disappear from all my friends, I wanted to be lost from Selena, Justin's sister, Jester's sister, I wanted to be lost from Selena, luke and Harry's brother.

"Selena.." The curse was immediately cut Selena, she turned her body which was still sitting on the ground and looked at me with a face full of tears.

"Why?!! why do you want to avoid me too?!! i... I... already consider you like my own brother... We were already together even when we were babies...why did you stay away from me too?! why Luna!!" so emotional Selena told me, now tears also come out of my eyes even though I keep trying to hold it...

It hurts my heart to hear what Selena said, but this is the only thing I can do to avoid Jester's sister, he'll definitely be looking for me and Selena is one of the keys to finding me. I don't want that to happen so that my shadow in Jester's heart can be erased immediately and Selena is the only woman in Jester's heart.

"I'm sure you know what my reason is, Selena. I know you know." I told him.

We were silent for a while. There was only the sound of crying between us left to decorate my meeting with Selena that morning, until some time Selena began to be able to regulate her emotions. He slowly stood up and walked over to the chair facing me, we sat facing each other but did not look at each other. The clumping became my sight at that time, along with these two useless legs of mine added to my sense of sadness .

"What do you want from me?" selena's chirps broke the silence between us

"You know what I want" I told him

"No, I can't understand what you really want" she said, sighing when I heard her words.

"Selena. I want you to be Jester's girlfriend, if you're having trouble getting close to her. Appearance, manner of speaking, attitude, and also when you meet brother Jester. Pretend to be me for me." I said.

"For what?" ask again

"To fill the void of Jester's heart, to make the rest of my life far from worrying when I'm not at his side. to fulfill my selfishness, as you told me" I replied as I turned my eyes to look at her, Selena slowly raised her head and we looked at her.

"That's my request, Selena, can you? I beg~" I said with a smile as sweet as possible to make him unable to refuse me

"Luna?!" suddenly a familiar voice called my name from behind, I gasped and slowly looked behind me.

Somewhat far away from where I was. I met Brother Jester, he looked at me and smiled at me. A smile that I always get every time I meet him, nothing changes with my prince....

"What are you gonna do? the prince you want to keep his heart in front of you, your paralysis you will no longer be able to hide" asked Selena, I was again confused by what I had to do.

"I don't know." I answered.

Brother Jester was seen walking closer and closer to me, along with that my heart felt beating quickly, but one thing I can make sure I will do. wearing my fake mask, a smile that says if I'm okay... I just wish my two feet could work together with my heart for just this one time...

Just one more time my body works together...