I Borrowed Him : Diary Luna
Episode 4

A week passed and I was out of the hospital, on a hot afternoon when I just got home in Selena's car. To be honest I felt bad for her, because when I was out of the hospital at the same time as Selena who also just came home from school. We exchanged short messages and he said if it's okay - it's because I need the car more than he does, dad also got permission to pick me up first and let Selena go home by herself in a taxi.

"Hai Luna" said Justin as he opened the door for me, I was surprised to see Justin's brother at home that afternoon.

"Eeh Justin, aren't you in school?" I was curious and got out of the car, Justin closed the car door.

"I just came home and immediately waited for you here" he replied and smiled with a distinctive smile that always accompanied me all this time, I returned his smile and walked into the house.

On the living room couch I sat down and saw Justin's father and brother who were so busy putting my things into the house and the room, too, mom gave me some warm soup for my lunch and I ate it right away even though it was still hot. Not long before Justin sat next to me with his mouth open as if I wanted to feed him, I laughed and fed him a spoonful of soup made by my mother.

"Why does sick people taste soup? yummy?" my insinuation to him, brother Justin laughed while chewing various vegetables that I had bribed for him.

"That's the best soup I've made, not just for the sick" my mother said, handing me bowls of the same soup as my father and brother Justin

We ate with laughter until thirty minutes passed and the father immediately set off to work at the Parker family home. While my mother washed the dishes in the kitchen, so that now only me and Justin's sister left. After eating, Justin's brother somehow became quieter than usual and seemed to be a little dreamy.

"Kok quiet?" I asked him, right my guess if brother Justin daydreaming because my voice seemed to surprise him.

"Aaa yah.. just confused about what to say, of course, stale like asking how you are going to make you bored" replied Justin with a tone that sounded insinuating, I pouted at him but Brother Justin just laughed in response to my frown.

"I've heard about your illness from Mr. Parker, so I was thinking of a way to help you heal even if it's just a word - a word and an action. Because a happy heart will create a strong body" said brother Justin while smiling at me, I was stunned to hear his words.

I felt like I was gaining new strength to face the next challenge, as if I was getting ready to face the day I was going to heal with various drugs, therapies, therapies, and many other things that the doctor team has prepared for me.

"Thank you Kak~" I said with sincerity and pleasure because of his encouragement to me

But....

That power disappeared instantly right at the time I entered third grade Junior High second semester....

The doctor again said the thing that made me petrified and frozen, after going through all the pain-filled healing process for almost three years... I was declared unable to recover with the development that exists to this day.

"It's hard to say this, but our advice is to further increase the intensity of therapeutic treatment and also to have Luna stop for school and start focusing on her healing first" doctor Richard said to me and to my parents, my mother was crying behind me.

"So...how much longer can I live, doctor?" tanyaku.

"You're gonna live a long time, it's not about.." Dr. Richard hasn't finished, I cut it off with a snatch.

"I've missed a lot for my self-healing!!! If I cannot be healed, why else would I focus on my healing?!! father and mother have lost a lot of their wealth for this futile thing!!! So now just say.... say... how much longer can I live..?" my clasping made the atmosphere of Doctor Richard's room become silent for an instant

Dr. Richard and I stared at each other even though we were silent, my tears just came. In the midst of that shaking of my heart, mother hugged me from behind and father stroked - elus my head to calm me down. But it's useless.my heart has been very broken to hear the results of my efforts so far turned out to be in vain, whether to say what else I was at that time because I had lost my spirit to... alive...

Day after day I went through and every day Selena and sister Justin came to cheer me up, they were worried about me arriving - suddenly losing the spirit to live. If I describe myself at that time, I'm like a zombie that moves because of my instincts to do my habits.

Smile disappeared....

Emotion's gone...

I stopped and refused to see Dr. Richard...

I have not enjoyed my life since I lost confidence in my recovery, all I always thought about was when I was going to die....

Wednesday afternoon I met with one of the doctors from Scott's hospital who visited my house, Doctor Ellie by name. She came specifically to see me because I had not been in control of my health for four months, I met her in the guest room along with Selena who was visiting me.

"How are you, Luna?" doctor Ellie asked me, I just kept quiet and looked at her face with my flat expression.

"You've been out of control for a long time, we're worried about health.." Not finished doctor Ellie spoke I stood up and cut her words with emotion.

"Make what else?!! I will not be healed!!! stop to incite father and mother to spend more money than this for nothing!!!" I snapped so angrily, somehow my emotions suddenly peaked at the doctor's white coat.

We were silent for a while until I ran away from the living room to go into the room leaving Selena and Doctor Ellie there, I knew my actions were very unworthy that afternoon... I was fed up with everything. I no longer wanted to burden my parents for nothing, that was all I had in mind.

In the room I cried so much - so, buried my face in the pillow to muffle my cries so that no one in the house could hear. My cry came to a halt when I heard the knocking sound of the bedroom door, I turned to look at the door that was slowly opening and I saw Selena peeking at me from the door slit. I again buried my face in the pillow and the sound of two steps came into the room.

"Do you want to go into my room?!" ask me with a clash

Without even looking I knew if the sound of footsteps along with Selena's steps was that of Doctor Ellie, I slowly felt that she was sitting right on the corner of my bed and stroking my head gently. I was surprised by the touch, all this time only father, mother, and brother Justin had ever gently stroked my head like this.

"Luna, how's your school going to end this? what's fun?" doctor Ellie asked softly

"What cares about you?!! go!!!" snatch me again

"Selena said you were a jolly kid at school, but since your last checkup, you've made all your friends at school now know about your illness and they're all worried... that's why I asked about your school" was heard to calm the voice of Doctor Ellie chiming me, she seemed not to be provoked at all with every action of mine that would definitely hurt her heart.

"All is well until the doctor says there is no improvement in my health!! How can I enjoy my school days?!!" still with a snatch I said it, but the sound of Doctor Ellie's laughter made me turn my eyes to look at her.

"Luna, is there a handsome guy in your class? or an upperclassman and maybe a younger sibling you're appraising?" asked Doctor Ellie with a smile looking at me

"Huh?" I just can't believe what I just heard